sequeena
Winging it.
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eeekkk I suppose I should stop burying my head in the sand anc join this thread.
I haven't weighed myself but at my 6 week PP check the nurse said I was just shy of 17 stone I'm 5'8" and wear size 20 clothes.
I am disgusted with myself I admit I can be greedy at times... but I'm not a constant pig and I live on a mountain so walk a lot. I have a lot of body issues... basically I was sexually abused by my step father for 10 years. I used to be very slim but at around 15/16 I got it into my head that if I became fat he'd lose his interest. Didn't work. All I got was a fat body with stretch marks.
I lost a bit of weight in the beginning of my pregnancy but seem to have put it back on and more! I was so in denial when I was pregnant. I was adamant I hadn't gained any weight but looking at my clothes now... all I did was stretch them.
I find motivation hard to come by. I have quite severe PND so spend most days willing myself to get out of bed nevermind anything else! I want 2012 to be a good year though, I've had such a rough 11 years and with my LO being poorly 2011 hasn't been exactly amazing... so I need to find the motivation and the confidence to shift the weight. I won't ever be as slim as I was 7 years ago and I won't lose the stretchmarks but I want to be happy and if I can get to a size 12 I'll be happy with that size. I'm sick of my double chin, wobbly thunder thighs with cellulite, my bingo wing arms, my back fat etc
I haven't weighed myself but at my 6 week PP check the nurse said I was just shy of 17 stone I'm 5'8" and wear size 20 clothes.
I am disgusted with myself I admit I can be greedy at times... but I'm not a constant pig and I live on a mountain so walk a lot. I have a lot of body issues... basically I was sexually abused by my step father for 10 years. I used to be very slim but at around 15/16 I got it into my head that if I became fat he'd lose his interest. Didn't work. All I got was a fat body with stretch marks.
I lost a bit of weight in the beginning of my pregnancy but seem to have put it back on and more! I was so in denial when I was pregnant. I was adamant I hadn't gained any weight but looking at my clothes now... all I did was stretch them.
I find motivation hard to come by. I have quite severe PND so spend most days willing myself to get out of bed nevermind anything else! I want 2012 to be a good year though, I've had such a rough 11 years and with my LO being poorly 2011 hasn't been exactly amazing... so I need to find the motivation and the confidence to shift the weight. I won't ever be as slim as I was 7 years ago and I won't lose the stretchmarks but I want to be happy and if I can get to a size 12 I'll be happy with that size. I'm sick of my double chin, wobbly thunder thighs with cellulite, my bingo wing arms, my back fat etc