oh dannixo, so sorry you are feeling like this, you are in no way a failure, like all the ladies LTTC you are so strong and thats what makes you keep going, we understand how you feel, im on round 4 now and felt so positive at the start of clomid but think pinned my hopes on it too much, maybe you will have some more answers after your lap, I had mine in january with hsg at the same time while asleep and it all came back fine and wasn't painful as had so many meds whilst asleep, just give yourself time to rest afterwards xx