ok, I have a little time now- DH has been here and I try to stay off the computer when he is in town so I can savor ever second I have him.... he is still here but he is sleeping next to me so I'll do my intro
My name is Amelia - DH is 36 and I am 30. I'm Aussie and he is from the US. We met in Aust at a BBQ of a mutual friend in early 2009. I was still technically dating an asshole and he was recovering from some dreadful relationships. We hooked up and started dating. His work contract was coming to an end and I hated my job so when he asked if I wanted to move to America I said yes. I sold my house, car and everything that wouldnt fit in my three suitcases and moved in October of 2010 with my two cats and a dog.
Dramatic.
We got married in 2011 in a court house because we wanted to make it official (I mean i had moved countries for him!) and then had a huge party the following year.
We have been TTC for a year - since Dec 2012 after having to terminate a conception because of my work in Sep 2012. I had to change careers when I moved here - I used to work for the public service in Aust but coudn't work for the govt in the USA when I first moved because i wasnt a perm resident/citizen so I did some soul searching and decided I wanted to work in TV. I had to start at the bottom and work my way up. It meant living in LA while DH was in first Pittsburgh and now Colorado.
We accidentally got preg in Sep 2012 and I was in the middle of my first real job on a show that not only travelled around the US but involved going into and filming in Jails. I had to sign a health waiver every time i went in! In order to be pregnant, I'd have to quit half way thru the show run. We did a lot of soul searching and decided I had worked too hard to quit and if I did quit I was unlikely to get another shot at this opportunity.
The doc at the clinic was a dick and told me I'd get pregnant again straight away. I'm not even joking. He was so flippant.
Well we didn't. But I did get an eating disorder from the guilt and grief and my hypothyroidism got out of control, I had a burst cyst, and I had such a huge inflammation flair up throughout my body that getting pregnant was pretty much impossible. Add to that living apart and we were screwed.
After months of trying and me almost having a breakdown every month, DH got an SA - healthy and normal and I went to a fertility clinic to see what was going on. Had my tubes visualized (open and healthy), egg checked (i should never run out) follies (perfect) progesterone (perfect) and thyroid checked (on track) and we were told there was no good reason not to be pregnant. FML.
My husband had a job interview in LA (unsuccessful) and I went in for a check up and blood work and my Dr announced that I was going to be ovulating any second - cue BD-a-thon and holy hell we got pregnant!!!
Technically.
My hCG was low (15) and my previously awesome progesterone (high 20s) had dropped to 10 so it's touch and go. hCG has doubled (36.8) as of last test and prog was back to 17 thanks to some nasty progesterone suppositories, so the proof will be in the pudding on monday when we get the next round of tests.
I know what you mean when you talk about getting pregnant is healing. I have never forgiven myself for terminating. Never. But I knew I'd feel atonement when I was able to successfully give life rather than take it away.
I do but it hasnt been without it's fear and terror. Every blood test, every check up...I thought the tests were over when you get your bfp - how wrong I was. Now every week I'm fearful.
Consequently, I'm quitting my job. I'm telling my boss tomorrow. I need to be rested and calm so I'll be seeing out my first trimester in LA and then moving back to Denver and nesting my little heart out.
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Yesterday I had heartburn and today a bloody nose.
anywho, at first I rejected him, not sure what he did but six months later we were engaged LOL. My parents were very strict so even at the age of 21 I wasn't allowed to go out much with him. We had a very traditional relationship. We didn't really date, I would say it was more like a courtship because he tells me now that when he met me, he knew I was going to be his wife. From day 1 his intention was to marry me and we even waited until marriage to consummate our love. On July 1st, 2006 we were married in my hometown on the island of Puerto Rico. We started TTC #1 in August, 2012. I had two back to back losses March and April, 2013. 
