{CLOSED GROUP} Journey to BFP and Beyond!

[kdmalk]

Oh Natalie.

 

[NDH]

To add insult to injury last week I made my first baby purchase - 9 newborn fitted cloth nappies - and it arrived in the mail while I was at the ultrasound

 

[kdmalk]

Eventually there will be a baby for them. Don't lose hope. I know it hurts right now, but stay strong and life will look up again. I know it. Prayers for you and your family.

 

[Fleur828815]

Natalie, I cannot even begin to imagine what emotional turmoil you must be going through Did the doctor give any idea as to what could have happened?? What are the next steps? The timing of the nappy delivery also stinks… but I hope you’ll get to use them very soon.

Katie, do you always spot before AF? Whatever you decide to do, good luck to you and we hope to hear from you sometimes.

Kylee, I’m sorry you have all this going through your head, it’s hard to know what to do for the best, but I agree that giving up TTC is not an option, you’ll always wonder what if! Maybe start slowly with the journal, just a few lines and see how it goes? I know you don’t like thinking about feelings but it might help to get it all out? Lots of hugs to you, this journey is so tough.

 

[NDH]

I'll try to get to the Dr tomorrow to get the report from the ultrasound, but I'm not sure how much theyll be able to tell me. Apparently sometimes they do get absorbed into your body (as happens with vanishing twins).
I feel more pregnant today and yesterday than I did the past two weeks so I'm still in denial I think. If I hadn't found that IC on Saturday I would be feeling reassured right now that all is well. Waiting to bleed so I'll have some sort of closure.
When I see the Dr I'll request further investigations to see if there's an underlying issue causing me to miscarry, and next week I see a naturopath as well. Going to focus on getting myself as healthy as possible. I will try not to try for a few months but won't be preventing either (so actual ntnp rather than just TTC without temping that I call ntnp ) but it's going to be hard cause I want another baby so badly right now. After being pregnantfor 25 weeks out of 29 though I do think I should give my body a rest.

 

[jlw617]

I am so sorry again Natalie, I can't imagine going through that again right now, I have been and will continue to pray for you.

Katie, I think you have to listen to what you feel like God is telling you just so long as you're sure...there were times in this journey for me where I thought maybe God just didn't want me to have any more children, my husband told me that sounds like my own flesh and not God if you know what I mean? Either way I hope the best for you and hope to hear from you occasionally.

Kylee-whether or not you know it, you are a very strong woman, it is evident in your posts! I'm glad that you are going to stick with this for a little while longer despite the emotional roller coaster you've been on.

 

[tcinks]

Katie, I'll miss you Take care of yourself and let us know how you're doing.

Natalie, I don't know what to say. How is dh handling it? Did you tell your girls?

 

[Fleur828815]

Natalie, hope you'll be able to get some answers from the doctor and that the naturopath will help. There's nothing we can say which will make you feel better so I'm sending you lots of hugs and positive vibes

 

[KTJ006]

Natalie - keep those baby clothes! I know it's hard now but one day you will be putting a baby in them, I just know it. Don't give up hope. I hope you're able to get some answers on everything. I'm struggling like you are on not knowing why things are out if whack and it's so frustrating. All I can say is have faith and hope. Hugs to you

Kylee - I feel ya on the emotions. Writing is such a good way to figure them out though. It's something only you will read, so just let it all out. Once you start you may find it's something you don't want to stop

I'm not supposed to even be on here - I wanted to take a leave of absence from social media. I spotted yesterday. I always spot 2-3 days before AF. I spotted in the AM and then it stopped. I felt around my cervix (sorry if TMI) which will usually show me if more bleeding is to come, but there was nothing. Used a cheap test this AM and I could have sworn I saw a positive line. I'm probably trying to imagine things at this point, but if AF doesn't show by Fridsy and I get no other spotting, I may try a more expensive kind. I think I'm so bummed about getting AF this time because we really did time everything perfectly...I don't know how we could not get a BFP unless something is wrong with me. Anyways... I say all that to ask for your prayers! I'm still going to hop off here until Friday and will update you ladies then.

 

[jlw617]

Prayers Katie!

 

[Fleur828815]

Katie, I've got everything crossed for you! Hoping you'll check in on Friday with a lovely BFP!

Natalie, did you get the ultrasound report from the doctor?

 

[tcinks]

Katie, did you test again?

I don't think I told you ladies , but dh and I are taking a little trip down to Arkansas to go to his boss' wedding! We hope to see some other things along the way. Oh Kylee, maybe I'll run into you! Haha. We are going to eureka springs....anything fun to do around there?

We are leaving this morning, as soon as we get out of bed, and will be back Sunday night! Hope everyone has a great weekend! :wave:

 

[KTJ006]

Nah. Not worth testing. Period Will 100% be here by tomorrow. We are taking next month off as DH's travel schedule is right in the middle of when I O. I think it will be good for me too. I just need a break. I'm also heading back to the doctor to get things checked out again and will also seek out the opinion of another doctor. My gut is still telling me things are not right. I will be back every once in a while to check on you ladies! You guys have been a good support

 

[KTJ006]

T, have a blast on your trip!!!

 

[jlw617]

Chech in every now and then Katie!

Terissa-have fun on your trip!

We just turned down an all expense paid 4 day trip to vale colorado! My dh boss is flying everyone down there for the companies anniversary trip but I'll be in my last trimester and am considered high risk for preterm labor, but honestly we are both relieved because we really didn't want to go and now we have a valid reason!

 

[kdmalk]

T- I actually don't ever really visit Eureka Springs. Wish I could be more helpful!! But have lots of fun!

Jamie- I think I want to work for his company. I like free trips! But if you guys didn't want to go, I'm glad you have a reason to stay home!

Bye for now, Kate! Hope to hear from you soon!

 

[jlw617]

T- I actually don't ever really visit Eureka Springs. Wish I could be more helpful!! But have lots of fun!

Jamie- I think I want to work for his company. I like free trips! But if you guys didn't want to go, I'm glad you have a reason to stay home!

Bye for now, Kate! Hope to hear from you soon!

Yes seriously though his company is great, it's a government contractor job but it's a really good one!

 

[NDH]

AF is here. I'm glad to be out of limbo but it feels like I lost the baby for a third time.

Fleur no I haven't gotten the Drs report now. The drs office is walk in only and the wait can be hours sometimes and i haven't had time to go back with kids things in the mornings and dh in school in the afternoons until 9pm. I will go on Tuesday though since dh is on break for two weeks and set up bloodwork.

 

[Fleur828815]

Terrissa, hope you’re having a good weekend in Arkansas and are managing to do some sight-seeing.

Katie, we’ll miss you. Hope you manage to find some answers and that there is nothing “wrong”.

Jamie, I see the baby is already being used as an excuse to get out of things

Kylee, how are you doing?

Natalie, hope that you can get things rolling on Tuesday It must be horrid to feel that you’re losing the baby again, but I hope it’ll bring you closure and that your cycles will be back to normal after that. Sending you lots of positive thoughts.

I’ve been having lower back pain this weekend so I booked a scan for tomorrow morning, DH is off work so we’ll be spending the day together. I’m terrified to go in because I still don’t feel pregnant, but I suppose I’d rather know now than in 2 weeks. In less than 11 hours I’ll be fixed.

 

[tcinks]

Fleur, how did it go?

Natalie I hope you get some answers Tuesday.

I'm so glad to be home! The wedding was nice, but the then we stayed in was a little odd. It's a big tourist place so I thought it'd be more fun. Oh well, the scenery was nice. I have my next appointment next Monday, really looking forward to it!