At this point I am just waiting for AF though, with todays huge temp dip I can't get any less emotional..
Just done a vlog about my progress this cycle and I cried at the end. Me and my Fiancé were both in tears this morning.
My AF temp range is around 36.70 - 36.85 and today's temp of 36.79 is right in there so I am just waiting for it to start now. I am heartbroken. I actually write this with tears streaming down my face, afraid I am going to kill the laptop with it being waterlogged!
Is it so bad we both want a baby, to adore, to love, to care for, to give loving cuddles and kisses to? Seeing their beautiful faces on a scan, seeing a rounded belly, 10 fingers, 10 toes, to bring home our rainbow from hospital, to love and cherish until the day we die? Are we doing something wrong? Am I not allowed to give him his only child? Have I had too many children - does this mean I am a bad parent? Too many heart breaking thoughts going through my head right now.
People have suggested maybe it's another chemical / miscarriage and at this point I am not going to agree, because to think I am going to have my 9th loss is completely tearing me apart, inside and out.