Hi all have been a bit awol, so have all Olivia's test results and she is totally fine. I have been to see a variety of people this week, was discharged from the BF clinic and to be honest was going to stop going anyway. I saw my own GP today and we had quite the conversation, he told me that he just doesnt understand what the BF doctor has been going on about, he knew who it was and actually said she's a bit of a nervous one very odd lady. He said to me today you just have to take one look at her and know that she is a healthy and happy girl, urine tests and blood tests all clear, no sign of kidney disfunction but he is going to repeat both tests in 2 weeks. He said you have been worrying and putting yourself through alot of stress for nothing and he also said that her growth was more than adequate she was 15lb today when he weighed her, he said I was clearly doing a great job with her, she was getting enough and basically he said there are no problems with her, he said I am completeley unconcerned about her, so please stop worrying.
I do trust him so feel alot better now, I feel as if a massive weight has shifted. We have also decided that we are going to move back home, I know just now is not the time in terms of the economy as I dont think we would get jobs, nursing is in a bad way and there are no jobs right now but we will be here till next year so hopefully there might be something then, its so isolating here and I miss my family and friends, its hard having no one here that actually cares for me or my family.
Lou glad you got to the cricket, I hate cricket just dont get it but its quite something i imagine if you like it to go to the oval.
Ollie sounds like he is doing great.
Rach - I know exactly how you feel, I really thought I had PND and perhaps I had a mild case or it might have just been all stress but its tough, and its hard you think that you have this new baby that it should all be joyful and fantastic but the reality is its bloody hard work, struggling to feed, struggling to sleep, struggling to figure out why this little person does something and you being totally responsible and feeling alone in figuring it out, alot of the time its not fun and alot of the time its pretty boring. I know this is not what your supposed to say but I dont think people tell the truth. Obviously we love our children but at the same time its a huge adjustment. For the past 6 months I have been feeling pretty shit and isolated, but I feel better. Its really hard when your baby is demanding and you just dont know what to do, we have all been there. Its totally worth mentioning it to your HV, but just know that motherhood and especially being a new mummy isnt all a bed of roses, its pretty crap at times but the good days with the ups eventually outweigh the down days. You are going to be just fine.
Jo - cant believe she acted like it wad the first time you mentioned it. You have been asking everytime! Glad she is now being monitored and fxed its all ok. Did they say when the blood test come back? That sounded terrible, it must have been so hard for you to watch xxx
