Cyber sisters - thank you for all your messages - I managed to read some on my phone while in waiting room for scan and it really cheered me up, its so difficult this TTC when you don't want to tell friends your trying or that you're early days etc so its so good to have you all to tell everything to so thank you all so much for being here.
So it was good news and bad news
Good news is I am not miscarrying at the moment - the bleeding is being caused by a 'heamatoma' something like an internal bruise - she showed it to me it was huge about 2.5 cm diameter, makes me feel sick to think of this big blood ball in my uterus - the sonographer(who was one of the nicest people I've ever come across in my life)said they are reasonably common and a result of implantation sometimes. She said some people just reabsorb the blood into their bodies but others bleed it out(and some poepl don't get it at all)and they don't cause m/c in themselves!!
Bad news - bean was only size for 5 weeks on the nose - I'm 5+6 - and there was no heartbeat, have to go back in 2 weeks.
Well I'm pretty calm about it - glad not ectopic too - its just wait and see, they said my chances of m/c are same as everyone else at this stage.
She also said I had2 big fibroids!!! I have had several scans over last year and not one has mentioned that before - she said they were quite big and must have been growing at least 3 years!!! She said they won't increase chance of m/c but they do decrease chance of getting pregnant as it means less room for implantation!!! Prob why took me and OH so longto get bfp!!
Anyway so at the moment am holding on for 2 weeks, hoping bean grows. I don't have to go back unless I have heavy bleeding for more than 2 hours with clots.
Sorry this is really long, but thank you all again for your messages and encouragements, going to read through all your news now xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx