horseypants
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I'm depressed so I shuddup for a while. I'm doing that messed up thing where every five minutes I think I must be pregnant/will never ever have children. I've been poas like a lunatic. All BFN. It's still early so yay, I get to torture myself for another full week. And I feel unsure that I ovulated at all. The worst part is squinting at the lines. But I can't help it. I'm addicted. Have you ever seen Requeim For A Dream and everytime they do heroin, there's that neato audio/video sequence where they're getting their hit ready? It sounds like paper tearing and such. Well that's me, sitting on the pot every morning and afternoon. My moods are so effected by my addiction that I randomly almost tore a woman I work with a new one cause she was getting on my case.
I'm looking forward to Thursday night, when I'll be taking a little road trip. OH is interviewing for a job in buttfuck. I hope to move there someday and be barefoot pregnant and poor, in 104 degree heat with too many grimy children running around, making a mess and screaming all loud that they want more sugary snax.
I tried to talk to my sister about maid of honor stuff and planning the wedding. She was about as nice as she ever is, which is not very nice at all, and I wonder if I really want to force us to try to live the dream. Maybe I should just admit shit sucks and give the fuck in.
HAHA! Wow I feel better.
All that said, I guess my chart looks good. But all the twinges I felt last week were probably my poor injured uterus post d&c, trying to repair itself. ...I wanted to say "trying in vain" but then decided that might sound dramatic.
HAHAHAHHAHAHA you guys, i found a clip from requeim for a dream. This is me poas, but i'm immediately squinting then tortured and needing another fix. (less dancing, more regret) LOL
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEWgk0_zTQQ&feature=fvwrel
I'm looking forward to Thursday night, when I'll be taking a little road trip. OH is interviewing for a job in buttfuck. I hope to move there someday and be barefoot pregnant and poor, in 104 degree heat with too many grimy children running around, making a mess and screaming all loud that they want more sugary snax.
I tried to talk to my sister about maid of honor stuff and planning the wedding. She was about as nice as she ever is, which is not very nice at all, and I wonder if I really want to force us to try to live the dream. Maybe I should just admit shit sucks and give the fuck in.
HAHA! Wow I feel better.
All that said, I guess my chart looks good. But all the twinges I felt last week were probably my poor injured uterus post d&c, trying to repair itself. ...I wanted to say "trying in vain" but then decided that might sound dramatic.
HAHAHAHHAHAHA you guys, i found a clip from requeim for a dream. This is me poas, but i'm immediately squinting then tortured and needing another fix. (less dancing, more regret) LOL
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEWgk0_zTQQ&feature=fvwrel