hi gigglebox. i sadly miscarried three days ago. all very surreal i had bit of cramping and then bleeding. went into high risk unit and they basically 'helped' it along. it wasnt something i would wish anyone to go through. especially us mums its against our nature, we want to protect at all costs. i however also needed to have a dnc as the placenta didnt come away well and lots left in. it was all very emotional and nerve racking. it seems sometimes like months ago and other times i cant even believe it happened. i dont think its all sunk in. thats why though i love to come on hear and see the good news. it keeps my chin up!
I am so sorry to hear the news of your loss. I know this has been a rough ride for you, and I remember how devastating it is to go through - like it was yesterday. I hope you find the strength to get through it and try again. Another baby won't replace the one you lost, but it will help to heal your heart. Wishing you well. Please keep us posted and feel free to contact me directly if you need to talk with someone who has been there.
I'm actually not religious, but these words still gave me a lot of comfort:
An Angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth.
And whispered as she closed the book "too beautiful for earth."
~Author Unknown
What Makes A Mother
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here
He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow is where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"
So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they'll be at the gates for you
So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth
May not realize
Until their time is done
Remember all the love you have
And know that you are
A Special Mom
Author Unknown