Good morning!
I picked up my doppler, really wanted to try it out but was afraid. DH and I tried it on ourselves, and when he left the room I tried for about half a minute (DH was against me trying) and there was complete silence. I know it takes a while, especially first time to find it but it got me even more freaked out.
I kept waking up in the middle of the night worried. I am so scared I'm going to have a silent motionless scan. We leave in half an hour, we need to run some errands first. I keep thinking about what I'm going to need to do, what I'm going to say if this all ends bad.
I'm a mess right now, and really trying to hold it together, but I know that by the time we park the car at the doctors I'm going to have trouble breathing.
I'm sorry for bringing this negativity to this group, I know some people don't want to hear about these things, I don't know if any of you are silently thinking that but thank you for letting me express my fears here.
I am part of a pregnancy after loss group as well, but sometimes I need the positivity of women who aren't as afraid as myself!
Thank you
Major hugs to you women