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[pinksprinkles]

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[Guenhwyvar]

Welcome to all the new ladies!

PinkSprinkles - I am going to be checking constantly see if you got a faint pos today! Yesterday I spent the whole day entertaining people which didn't leave for much stalking time. Today is DH & I's 12th Anniversary so we are going to spend it in the company of Ninjas Why can't I be normal?

 

[bazzb]

Can't wait for more updates

 

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[Ariannda]

I just read through this entire thread LMAO

Thank you SO much for posting this ! We've been TTC for 13 months, maybe 14 i can't remember at this point, and im fine but DH has motility issues so ive been thinking this whole time an IUI would knock me up right away. I have a thread on regular TTC board but the jist of it is that while we've been trying, i dont feel like we've REALLY been trying so we're gearing up for my next cycle (currently 4-5 DPO) to legitimately try. We're starting Clomid again and i think if we get no BFP in 4 cycles we may try the at home IUI

 

[bazzb]

happy late valentines to you as well hunny

 

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[Guenhwyvar]

I hope everyone had an amazing Valentines day. I'd love to hear how you spent it.

PinkSprinkles - Thank you so much! I can't believe it's already been 12 years, wow does time fly! DH trains Bujikan (martial art of the samurai & ninjas). Since Thursday is normally a training day that's what we did. I go purely for entertainment. There's a great dojo in Colo Springs. Look 'em up for lots of videos.
It sucks that you are no longer feeling pregnant but fantastic that you are just using it as time to prepare a little more. That's a fantastic attitude that I wish I had. I'm right along side you though, this is my path, it feels right. Are you going to POAS until AF arrives?
I swear, sometimes you just want to B* slap some of these medical "professionals". I know exactly how you feel. DH got sent to an Endocrinologist for low testosterone, he of course wanted his entire medical journal which we were more than happy to have sent to him from our GP... When the Dr had the chance to look it all threw and his bloodwork had come back we went back in to learn the best course we should take from there. No sooner had we gotten in the door he said that DH's levels were barely within the normal range and that he wouldn't treat him and asked us to leave (we barely got sat down before being asked to leave). I than asked for his journal because I'm sure the next Endocrinologist we'd see would want to do the same... The journal had more side notes than a University textbook, and heavily highlighted and underlined multiple times was a note from our GP (who was a family friend) that DH was a Satanist, who liked to self mutilate and a bunch of other crap. None of which is even remotely true but because of it this Endocrinologist wouldn't treat him and oddly enough a month later when we got a new GP his testosterone levels were yet again below normal.
Some medical professionals should really get their rears put in the fire for acting that way. Are you going to contact your old RE and demand that they remove that? I definitely would.
That was a wonderful gift, I LOVE sapphires! We do the same thing, best way to get what you want and in the size you want!
Have your catheters arrived yet? It is funny isn't it, same as taking birth control to get pregnant. Hehehe, it's also funny what our DH's get so excited about LOL.

Ariannda - Welcome! You are one determined woman to get through all of that. I know I can be VERY long winded on occasion. It's so nice that so many women are dropping by. Look forward to cheering you one. If you have any questions just ask, PinkSprinkles seems to be a guru on the topic of home IUI.

AFM - Still nothing to report. I'm cd 23 today meaning AF should show in about 5 days (unless I'm luckier than a power ball winner). Than I'll be rearing up for a good go. I'm toying with the idea of using Soy, just to encourage my left ovary to maybe produce an egg just in case.
Lately I've been getting sensitive (again) to the whole pregnancy/baby talk. Strangers/acquaintances casually joking that maybe I'm pregnant is really getting under my skin. Tonight's dinner with the In-Laws my MIL kept on asking about peoples baby plans. You could just see her itching to ask about us.
Still no news on the donor front, I don't think he's going to back out at this point so at least that's something. I've also started hunting for a nice antique crib since I'm not much for the Ikea cribs. I wish I could afford to buy one back home and have sent over. American cribs are so much nicer!
To all ya'll

 

[Guenhwyvar]

So another BFN today, but I expected it, so I'm not really down about it. All of my symptoms are gone now. Nothing doing really. It does seem like I may be coming down with something though. I started feeling sick last night and then slept for 12 hours straight! Now, today, I am still feeling under the weather. Boo!

That Bug can be nasty. Rest all that you can. You're going to need it for the next IUI!

I'm still a bit weirder out that my cervix gets so narrow at that one point, even in the middle of O, and especially because is is so low down. Doesn't seem like it would work very well that way. Oh! And a weird thing that I've forgotten to mention up until now. My cervix is interesting! I had been told by my last RE's nurse that I had a sharp bend in my cervix about half way up, but I din't realize how sharp until the IUI this cycle. When DH removed the catheter after the IUI's, it was VERY apparent that I have a full on 90 degree turn in my cervix. HOW WEIRD! About 1.5 to inches up my cervix, it just completely goes a totally different direction!

Wow, that is weird! Glad I'm not the only one that can't be "normal".

 

[Ariannda]

Guen, your GP and the Endo are both effin butt faces im sorry to say... DH also has low testosterone (he's 33, male pattern baldness, weighed 350 a year ago, down to 250 ! LowT ) and in his previous marriage where she had her tubes tied he was on Andro Gel. He had stopped it luckily. Unfortunately for Low T there's not much that can be done, anything synthetic WILL stop sperm production, so you dont want that anyway. As i did read through everything i forget things, did your DH have a SA done ?

As a side note even IF your DH WAS a Satanist who DID self mutilate, who cares as long as he's not cutting his balls lol (sorry thats probably inappropriate )

Im willing to go through everything, EVERYTHING, in the next six cycles. Ive said repeatedly (literally i just posted in Secondary Infertility) that we've been sorta trying but not REALLY trying, and now it's time to get serious about it !!!

 

[Ariannda]

Also have you all looked at pictures (drawings, whatever) of a cervix ? It's shaped differently than what you think it is, and it makes sense that the opening is literally an opening, as opposed to say a slit lol

 

[Guenhwyvar]

Ariannda - I totally agree, both the previous GP and Endocrinologist are worthless as boobies on a boar hog. DH is Azoospermatic (zero sperm) likely from his testicles not descending naturally and a series of bossy know-it-all nurses not thinking it necessary to do anything about it until it was way too late (12). SA showed nothing so they moved on to TESE which he's had done countless times now, all showing no signs of life. All we're hoping to achieve with synthetic testosterone is lessening the loss of muscle mass & bone density. Not to mention trying to decrease the the likelihood that he'll one day get testicular cancer due to all the factors. He'll get to see a new Endocrinologist here at the beginning of the month for some more tests that we wont get the answer to until sometime in April.
Hehehe, not inappropriate at all for me, made me laugh. You'd be amazed at how judgmental people can be over how you look and the stories they come up with. DH love's the Victorian period, how that equal Satanist I will never know. We're not as old as our history could lead you to believe, just High School sweethearts.

Sounds like you are going to do everything in your power to get that and more! That's good, sometimes that's what it takes. Your DH only has Motility issues? All of his blood work came back fine (other than testosterone)? Have you tried testing the ph of your cm? If it's too acidic or alkaline there are ways of altering it so the swimmers are more comfy. There's also rumors of being able to sway gender that way too.

 

[Ariannda]

Well i have 4 kids previously, so we're just like hanging out, wondering WTF lol. Its not me, i seem to be perfectly fine ! I'll link you my thread in secondary infertility that will pretty much explain it all !

We've had enough testing done, it looks just like Low T and motility, so it's not impossible, it's just a stupid stupid waiting game lol

I guess i missed where your DH has Azoospermia, how tragic =/ DH had a hernia operation at the age of 4 or 5 RIGHT at his "man pu$$y" (haha his pooch above the penis) and sometimes his testicles seem to ... jeez, disappear back inside him ? Apparently none of these are reasons to be concerned, but of course it's been 13 months or 14 months or something. He also suffered from ED when we first started dating. Luckily he got divorced (thats another story), lost 100 lbs and ive been VERY understanding and guess what, his penis works, yay ! lol

https://babyandbump.momtastic.com/secondary-infertility/1734483-secondary-infertility-ttc.html

 

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[Ariannda]

Geez i knew there was a word for it but atm i couldn't remember. Sometimes im so scatterbrained, i swear ...

 

[Guenhwyvar]

I just want to apologize for my crude language, I truly hope I did not offend anyone. This is such a wonderful & uplifting thread that can help so many wonderful couples finally succeed in creating the child they always dreamt of. I would hate for it to be spoiled.
I hope everyone has a great weekend.

 

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[Ariannda]

Excellent call Pink !

 

[Ariannda]

I feel that there is no such thing as TMI when it comes to talking to other (strangers) about TTC and ALL that it entails, and it semi annoys me when people say "I hope this isn't TMI"... Ladies we have crossed the TMI boundaries and it's OK ! We all have things to say, i dont think ANYONE means offense and as such it's all in good fun and helpfulness and we mean the very best. Thats important to remember. We all get distracted and sidetracked and side stepped and we all have our own ideas of what is and isn't ok and acceptable and appropriate, but i think generally when you reach out to strangers, and others, you all have a common goal and as such TMI and crude language go out the window and you HAVE to have a sense of humor to keep everything alive and well and optimistic. I am an optimist by nature and when i see others have had a BFP even if it resulted in a m/c or chemical pregnancy it means they have had success which puts them a step ahead of me. I mean no offense when i say it's excellent to have a positive result, nor do i mean to demean anyones pain. All things must be kept optimistic in these situations as there is so much loss and tragedy and frustration, it helps to remain upbeat and optimistic and hopeful. Without hope, and humor, what else do we have really ?