Thanks girls. I'm just so fed up! My husband was supposed to have an amazing birthday present with my due date being 2 days before his birthday, and that didn't happen. We can't seem to keep both cars running at once, and they're not even crappy cars... just bad luck! I didn't ovulate last cycle, so I worry I won't this time either. My left ovary is killing me already, and I can't even take comfort in that because it did the same thing last month when I didn't O just like it does on the months I do O. We had the whole ordeal with my aunt. It just feels like it will never end! And then... my friend who predicted a Sept 13 BFP said July would be hard for me. If July is going to be really hard, what the fuck is this called?
Thanks girls. I'm just so fed up! My husband was supposed to have an amazing birthday present with my due date being 2 days before his birthday, and that didn't happen. We can't seem to keep both cars running at once, and they're not even crappy cars... just bad luck! I didn't ovulate last cycle, so I worry I won't this time either. My left ovary is killing me already, and I can't even take comfort in that because it did the same thing last month when I didn't O just like it does on the months I do O. We had the whole ordeal with my aunt. It just feels like it will never end! And then... my friend who predicted a Sept 13 BFP said July would be hard for me. If July is going to be really hard, what the fuck is this called?
Megg this is called life. And yours is bound to get better! Maybe your friend only meant the first few days of July. This might be a little taste of what the next few days will be like and then things will go more smoothly. Or, maybe she was seeing a "J" month, but it was really June, and not July.
I KNOW you are going to ovulate again. You will, you will, you will. Promise.
Lucy, I'm really happy you got that appointment!!! I know this goes without saying, but please let us know how it turns out!
Vicky. Actually I feel like screaming your name...VICKY!!! I'm soooooo excited for you right now. I was on the bus to work this morning and thought, I wonder if Vicks got her AF yet. I'm going to check in and ask her. I'm so thrilled the bitch has stayed away! Sunday is getting closer and closer.
Meggles, are you having a better day today?
Where's Allie? What's happening with your body?
Where's Cazza? I see her in the Pregnancy Tests section a lot. Cazza, I hope you are getting ready to attack your man!
And the lovely Nato. Sigh. I so do miss her.
AFM, I went out for "drinks" with 2 of my dear friends. They know about my history and know I've been ttc again. They watch me like a hawk to see if I'm drinking. I knew I'd have to tell them and honestly I wanted to. I want to soak up every minute of joy that I can since I don't know what the next day will bring. Anyhoo, I gave them the news and they were both like "oh, that's great." I could see the look of doubt in both of their faces. The subject got changed pretty quickly. I was annoyed. I need cheerleaders, not naysayers. Know what I mean? I know people are just scared for me but come on! We really do live in a world of our own, don't we ladies. People truly don't understand what this is like if they haven't been through it.
I've been lurking in the Pregnancy After a Loss section and I have to be honest, it isn't the most uplifting place to be. The women are lovely, and they understand what I'm feeling, but there is so much fear in there that I don't think it is healthy for my head. I really just want to focus on the positive. Otherwise, I'm doomed. I'm going to start yoga to ease my anxiety. All of you in this thread also help ease my anxiety. You make me feel like a normal person and not some freak who can't carry a baby full term.
xoxo
Hearty yoga is a great idea. I'm sorry your friends didnt react in the way you wanted I think your right it is really hard for anyone to truly understand unless they've been through it. I would say to them that your taking it each day at a time and you need to be and feel positive that you understand that they are scared for you but you need PMA around you. You've got a cheerleading squad right here You need to focus on the positive and feel happy I know how scared you must be but you need to stay away from the fear as much as you can
Vickyd I cant wait for sunday its looking good.
AFM the nurse was lovely she's put me on a course of antibiotics for my skin didn't seem to concerned about the weight loss (which is a good thing) and said for me to see the dr about the spotting/cramping she said its best to have a chat about it and she'll do examintation and just check everything is ok. The only frustrating things is the dr I want to see only works two days a week so couldnt get one for next week have an appointment for the week after next but will ring next week to see if they have any cancellations. It's just nice to be taken serious and know that I should see someone that I'm not be oversenstivie because of everything I've been through