Disco Derail! - TTCAL/PAL Discussion and Support!

[Megg33k]

Damn it! Don't they know we're waiting?

 

[CJSG1977]

My god Megg you'll be 90% meds and 10% Megg I am SO excited for you. A little porky pie lie today is ok. The important thing is that you are on thos journey this time!!! And not having to wait.

Cesca!!!!! I have to say I had a little cry. Not sure if thats just the beauty of it or my heart panging for the same. Bit of both maybe.

The spoiler didnt work so I removed it....

 

[Megg33k]

The spoiler didn't work, so you removed what? I'm confused!

 

[CJSG1977]

LOL sorry Megg...wasnt sure if someone would read it before I had the chance to delete it... I'm a bit down. Put something in a spoiler. How do I create a journal babe?? I need somewhere to put my thoughts. x

 

[Megg33k]

LOL sorry Megg...wasnt sure if someone would read it before I had the chance to delete it... I'm a bit down. Put something in a spoiler. How do I create a journal babe?? I need somewhere to put my thoughts. x

Aww! I do want to read! Cant' support you if we don't know what's happening in your head!

You go here: https://www.babyandbump.com/ttc-journals/ and click "New Thread" in the top left (purple button)... Then, the "Title" of your post becomes the name of your journal and you just type!

 

[CJSG1977]

Thanks babe. I really appreciate that. I am just so down. Dont know why.... Been funny all day. Really weepy. I've had dizzy spells all day... been trembling. So tired and down. Think its cause I have been in so much pain with my body trying to ovulate. I have an appointment with the nurse tomorrow for an asthma check, getting thyroid and progesterone checked too. I am going to book in and see the gp for an abdomenal exam cause I am in so much pain. So there is a chance I'll get referred straight to gynae, thats what they normally do.

 

[Megg33k]

Getting checked would be good! Please post a journal link when its up! I want to stalk!

 

[Allie84]

Yogi that looks like so much fun!

Megg, glad it's getting started!

CJ, sorry you're feeling down.

Cesca, what beautiful scan pics!!!

Any word on hoping and Hearty?

 

[heart tree]

Hi ladies, I'm back from my doctor's appointment. She was really wonderful. She consulted with me for 1.5 hours! She made all sorts of faces when I told her what the last doctor said. She said adenomyosis is very hard to diagnose and she wasn't 100% convinced that I had it. She did an ultrasound and saw some issues with my uterus. She said she couldn't completely rule it out either. Unfortunately, the hospital that I had my MRI done at didn't send over the MRI pictures for her to look at, so she was just basing it on the ultrasound she was doing.

She counted my follicles and saw 15. She said for my age it was above average. But, she said I was no where near close to ovulating and I'm on CD 19 right now. I pretty much knew this already, but it sucked to hear. I thought I was getting close because my OPK's are almost positive yesterday and today. The good news is she said I'm no where close to menopause. This is great news as all the women on my mother's side went through it at 39 and 40. As I just turned 36, I was feeling anxious about that.

She said she thinks there is a good chance I'll carry a baby to term, but it is going to be a numbers game for me, like rolling the dice. She offered 2 options. One was to try Clomid or Letrozole to bring ovulation forward. She does think that my late Ov could be a reason for my mcs. The second was to go on Lupron for 4 months to induce menopause. This in turn "shuts off" all of the hormone production and can "shut off" the hormones that are activating the adenomyosis. The theory is that once you go off Lupron and then try to get pregnant, the adeno isn't as active and pregnancy can be achieved.

Most women do the Lupron route because they are infertile from adeno and/or endometriosis. Obviously that isn't my issue. So, I decided to go for the letrozole. She advised that we shouldn't ttc this cycle just in case. Once I get my period, I'm going on letrozole for 5 days in hopes that I will Ov on CD14 or so.

She said IF I miscarry again, she wants genetic tests done. If the tissue has no genetic issues then chances are the adeno (or whatever is in my uterine wall) is causing the mc. At that point we might have to consider a surrogate. If there are genetic abnormalities, then we keep trying naturally, since this is one of the most common reasons for mc, especially as we age. If I have trouble conceiving, then we'll probably look at IVF. Tim asked her how much IVF was. He had it in his head that it was $35,000. When she told him it was $12,00 he was pleasantly surprised oddly enough!

She said if we are willing to take a risk of another mc, then she really thinks we will be successful at some point. She was looking at it statistically and she stressed that it really was just a numbers game.

One of the last things she said to me was that she was really hopeful about me having a baby. She said the idea of a surrogate wouldn't have even crossed her mind at this point.

So, I'm doing a cautious happy dance. I at least feel like I have a plan. I wish I didn't have to miss this cycle, but I'd rather do that then get pregnant with a late Ov and mc again. Her goal is to get me pregnant in the next 3 - 4 months. I can live with that goal!

Sorry so long. I'll go read what's happening with everyone else now.

xoxo

 

[CJSG1977]

Heart that great!!! It sounds like your specialist is focussed about your needs and what you can achieve!! Much better than being told something negative. I cant wait to hear how it all pans out for you chickedy. Time will fly and you will be trying again before you know it.

 

[msarkozi]

great news Hearty!

 

[Allie84]

Oh hearty, that's wonderful!!!

What is the difference between Letrozole and Clomid and why did you choose the former?

I'm starting soy tomorrow-CD3-and am taking it for 3 days in hopes it will bring my ov forward as well.

 

[CJSG1977]

I have posted the link for my journal in my sig now... bear in mind I am a bit down so its rather factual and not so much roses today... I just had to let out some emotion. I hate when I am angry at the world...cause truthfully I have been the happiest I have been in ages!!!

 

[hoping:)]

Yay for a plan heart tree I am getting referred to a specialist if things don't turn out well this time. They offered to refer us after we lost the twins but I wanted to try one more time on my own... hopefully they can figure out what is wrong besides me having MTHFR.

So I'm a little annoyed that they didn't call with my results. The receptionist said they were really busy today so I should expect a call tomorrow morning I hate the waiting... I just want to know so I can get on with what I need to do

 

[heart tree]

Thanks girls. Allie, it is my understanding that letrozole doesn't affect the uterine lining or the cervical mucus like Clomid does. Since I barely produce mucus, she didn't think Clomid was a good idea. Clomid has also shown to be detrimental if you have endometriosis. Since I may have it, we thought letrozole was a better option. From what I've read in the past, I've wanted to try letrozole anyway. I'm just happy she was on board with that plan.

I did ask her about NK cells. She said there wasn't enough research to prove that they have a direct correlation to recurrent mcs. She said she isn't completely against steroid treatment for NK cells, but she isn't ready to test me for that yet. I'm going to call the other clinic and see if I can get tested for them anyway. I'm ready to come at this fighting. I'm done being passive. This is a fight to the end.

 

[heart tree]

CJ, I'm sorry you are feeling down honey. I totally understand how frustrating it is to have a body that isn't cooperating. I really hope you are given more direction from the new doctor. You've been through too much. Enough is enough. You need answers and you need a baby.

Hoping, damn them for not giving you your results. I'm shocked! After my second mc, I was offered a referral to a specialist. I declined thinking it was just bad luck. After my third mc, I took them up on the offer. I think it is a good idea that you see a specialist if this isn't viable. But, I'm holding the torch of hope for you that this one is a keeper.

 

[msarkozi]

Hoping - that totally sucks that you have to wait until morning!!! I can't wait to find out though!

 

[CJSG1977]

Ah Heart...I had a tear then from your last line. I really do need a baby! It sounds daft, but I havent failed at anything in my life. Every job I've excelled at, I've always tried to be the best partner and friend I can be, (and I've also competed as a singer) Just seems I can do everything I want...but not what I truly need...

In relation to hoping and the results... I swear to god if my surgery had told me they were too busy / couldnt give me the results I would have dragged their ass down the phone line. I think my surgery are afraid of me cause I wont take any shit...and make sure they do their job...but I am polite and professional...of course LOL. Make sure they give you answers tomorrow hoping!!!

 

[heart tree]

Well I finally got some pics of our rings. As I've said I'm not a diamond girl. I designed our rings and had them made. I even paid for them! I'm a non traditional kind of girl. Mine is the one with longer posts. That being said, diamonds are very pretty. Tim's mom wanted me to have one of her heirlooms. She gave me this pretty deco period diamond ring when Tim and I got engaged. I wear it on special occasions.

Yogi I took your idea with the rocks as a background for the rings.
Hope you don't mind!

 

[Megg33k]

Hearty - That's AMAZING! I'm so hopeful for you So much better than the last appointment! Gorgeous rings!

Oh hearty, that's wonderful!!!

What is the difference between Letrozole and Clomid and why did you choose the former?

I'm starting soy tomorrow-CD3-and am taking it for 3 days in hopes it will bring my ov forward as well.

Letrozole also has fewer side effects and is less harsh... Its supposed to work better too!

I have posted the link for my journal in my sig now... bear in mind I am a bit down so its rather factual and not so much roses today... I just had to let out some emotion. I hate when I am angry at the world...cause truthfully I have been the happiest I have been in ages!!!

I feel a bit angry at the world today too, but only because birth control induces anger and depression for me. I hate what it does to me... I hope I don't have to be on it for long!