Disco Derail! - TTCAL/PAL Discussion and Support!

[heart tree]

You could order the emerita from amazon and do overnight shipping. It is never too late to start it in the tww. I have a tube I wish I could give to you today. I looked on my box and there is a cancer warning too. But I also read tha California has a new law where they have to put a cancer warning on anything with progesterone. Hmm...

Tim just woke up with a huge hangover. He asked me obliviously if I had a good night last night. I told him I didn't and told him why. He couldn't believe he was such an idiot and apologized. Good boy Timmy.

 

[LucyJ]

Hearty and Allie sorry you had shit nights and yes men can be so stupid sometimes they just dont engage their brains. Hearty glad Tim has apologised.

Enjoy your please have a glass for me after my last loss I decided to not drink at all part of the reasons was because I was concerened if I started I may not have stopped that and I had a few drinks before my last loss (before I knew I was pregnant) and I know it didnt play a role but for my own peace of mind I decided not to.

Raz and Amy thinking of you both

Sugar hope you have a good night with your friend have a glass for me too

Vicky you will make it through the next few months and we will be right there with you

Mone your bound to feel like that espeically with a due date comeing up it is hard. I've been really trying to keep myself focused on buying gifts and writing cards and not thinking about the fact I should be preparing for my babys first chirstmas its always at the back of my mind but I try my best not let it in as I know I would fall apart. Take it one day at time and know we are here for you.

Mel big to you as well you will get through the next few months and like I said to Vicky we will be right there with you.

 

[Allie84]

Hey Lucy, how are you today? How are you feeling? Are you going to watch the X Factor final tonight (stupid question, I bet you are!).

I had a fun time at the party last night overall. Today we are going out for lunch, shopping, and then to see a film, probably Narnia. Our typical Saturday ritual! We usually go to this good patissierie as well and have a pastry and latte. Yumm.

 

[LucyJ]

Hey Allie,

just finsihed updating my journal I'm doing ok today has a bad night last night letting in to many negative thoughts but feeling a bit stronger today. Got to go and see my SIL, BIL, nephew and niece with steve, his dad and his dad's partner so its was lovely still a bit grotty but not to bad. We called them and asked whether they were ok me coming over and they said yes they wanted to see me so that was lovely we had nibbles and chatted which was great really enjoyed it. I'm now watching X-factor, I do love Matt.

How are you? That sounds like a good day to me I want to see narnia might see if steve will take me to see it tomorrow as we've got to go and do some shopping as we're definitely not going down to see my brother as dont want to risk my little nephew catching anything of me just to be safe.

 

[yogi77]

oh Raz I'm so sorry to hear this...it's just not fair at all Am thinking about you

Amy take care and hope you see you here sometimes

Hearty sorry to hear about your night...I can't believe that girl asked you that question when she has had 2 mc's herself...I vowed never to ask anybody about babies ever again after mine. I'm glad Tim apologized this morning!

Vicky you will make it through the last stretch but I completely understand how worried you will be from time to time...but everything will be great, hang in there!!

Allie glad you enjoyed your party and your Saturday plans sounds perfect, especially the pastry part!

Lucy I must get over to your journal and read!

We went and cut down our xmas tree today in the typical west coast drizzle. It's drying out in the shed now and we'll put it up tonight. I am feeling good for the most part, I have waves of slight nausea on and off, kind of like feeling hungover and shakey, when I know that I'm definitely not hungover!! Been having very vivid dreams the past few nights too.

 

[Megg33k]

Sorry some of you have been getting the dreaded baby questions. This time of year is awful for that. I think so many people feel like its a logical question... and they feel like they have some right to ask. But, they really don't. I'm just glad that you both handled it pretty well. I used to handle it badly by saying that we weren't sure we wanted kids. I couldn't admit that it was a problem for us for a very long time. So, people ended up shocked with what we're doing now. They thought we'd spent years not interested in being parents and then suddenly decided it had to be now. I'm ashamed to admit that almost no one knows we were trying when we lost our 1st. I still haven't told anyone. I just tell them that getting pregnant was really exciting once it happened, and we were devastated to lose it. So, we realized then how important it was to us. I can't admit that I lied for all those years. Anyway, I'm proud of you girls for being stronger than me.

 

[heart tree]

Thanks Megg. What I have to say in response to how you handled it is that we do what we have to do to survive. There is no right or wrong way to to handle it. Don't be ashamed. The last thing we should feel is shame. You did what was right for you at the time and don't owe anyone an explanation. xoxo

 

[Sparkly]

Amy and Raz - I'm so sorry for your losses girls

 

[Megg33k]

Thanks, Hearty! I'm just bothered that most people think my first loss was an "accidental" pregnancy. I mean, no one thinks we were trying to prevent it... but they don't know how much we wanted that little one. I just hope no one thinks it must be easier for us to deal with because "it wasn't planned"... ya know? But, its a bit late to backtrack now. So, onward I go.

Oh, how I hate seeing that CD3 in your siggy, Gaynor! Ugh. It fills me with rage for you. I was so sure!

 

[Sparkly]

Meg - Your embie twinnies are beautiful babe, I had a sob when I saw them In a good way you understand

I've had a really bad day, and seeing your news and little babies has made my day x

 

[Megg33k]

Thank you, Gaynor! I just read in your journal about your day. I'm so sorry! That little picture of my embies is the only thing that drives me to get a shot every night that I know will hurt like hell in the morning... wake me up at night... hurt me to walk... and shoot miserable amounts of pain through me every time I bump something with either hip. Those little blobs of cells are the only thing that make anything worth it. And, just because you girls won't likely get photos of your little blobs of cells... They have to be the reason you all keep going to!

 

[Dazed]

Raz, I'm so sorry babe! It truely sucks!

Well, I got my hopes up today and what happens???!!! THE DAMN WITCH SHOWS!

Oh well, cycle buds with Hearty

Off to go see the nephews and maybe have a few cheap drinks after.

 

[Megg33k]

Sorry for the witch, Dazed!

 

[heart tree]

Damn it Dazed! Well the bitch is getting me good today. I've been on the couch all day. We'll be cycle buddies for sure and we'll get our christmas sticky beans.

 

[yogi77]

sorry the stupid ho-bag got you Dazed

 

[Dazed]

Yeah, she's getting me pretty good today too. Was at my parents visiting with my nephews before they leave tomorrow and the cramps were getting bad. You would think we would be use to them by now, but its just something you never get use to.

 

[Megg33k]

You definitely never get used to it, Dazed!

So, progesterone up the foof... I could live without it...

 

[Razcox]

Morning all ladies how is everyone doing today?/

Meg - Hope those little embies are getting good and cozy in there for you hun xx

Dazed - Sorry the witch is being such a cowbag to you sweets

Sorry to those that had rought nights and I hope its going to be a better day for you

AFM - Well i have a plan and plans help me to deal with things, though this time i havent been as upset because i never really let myself think it was going to happen. The losses have hardened me in a way which is great for now but i morn the loss of the bright and shiney me that was so blissfully unware of MMCs, D & C's and recurrent MC's. But back to the plan. Monday we are having bloods done at the hospital to get the testing ball rolling. They said it will take about 3 months to see a MCS so one month of that will be me waiting for my body to get back to normal. I am also going to be booking in for a D & C on monday ASAP. Bit scary as i have never had a GA before but my body doesnt seem to want to let go of this one and i just want it over with before xmas now.

So if i get it sorted this week i should have AF before the end of Jan going of last time, i will be going back on the diet after xmas and feb we will NTNP to give myself an extra month to lose weight and get back to normal. March i will be back TTC with soy and the rest and we should hear back from the consultant by then. I doubt we will get pregnant right away anyway. So thats the plan in the mean time i am going to research as much as i can what to expect as knowledge is always power when it comes to the NHS.

Thanks so much for all your support ladies it really does help to have you guys to talk too and know you understand xxx

 

[vickyd]

Raz its good o have a plan, helps get through the pain and makes it possible to look to the future with some optimism.
The GA they give you for a D&C is very light and you wake up very quickly without feeling groggy or sick. Actually you feel like you do when youve had just a bit too much to drink but not wasted.

 

[Razcox]

Raz its good o have a plan, helps get through the pain and makes it possible to look to the future with some optimism.
The GA they give you for a D&C is very light and you wake up very quickly without feeling groggy or sick. Actually you feel like you do when youve had just a bit too much to drink but not wasted.

Thanks hun! Dave is worried about me going for this option but i had a horrible time with the last natural MC and cant face going through it again really. I think a D & C is going to be the best way to go for me now.

How is she doing today?