Disco Derail! - TTCAL/PAL Discussion and Support!

[NatoPMT]

That little monkey Eloise got me up at 5am today so my face has gone grey from tiredness

Hearty, as it at lengthened last time, lets hope its at worst stayed the same. You are only 2 days off V Day too!! Cervix kicks arent nice, eloise was expert cervix kicker and it used to make me jump. It felt like electric shocks, cervix kicks are the closest thing i can compare the feeling of the CVS to. Not that you needed one, in your face CVS!! (once more for good luck). Haha and ahh at 'cheeky baby'.

Ahh ta Jen, Eloise was grinning like a maniac at Paul, he defo won her over. So glad its put back together ok, i was worried it was going to disintegrate or combust or somert.

Happy 18 weeks!!!

Thats really lovely you have nominated your mw. let us know how it goes cos i want to watch if she gets on the telly.

Allie, i said in my eaten post that I have made Eloise cry twice in the last 4 days. I scared her with a puppet and i turned the shower on next to her and she burst into tears. Both the puppet and the shower were not new to her...maybe its their age a bit too. I think they get a bit more anxious around this time in preparation for separation anxiety or somert. I saw your rolling video on FB, Alastair is so energetic compared to eloise, she just kind of slow-falls into place whereas alistair throws himself around.

John was training for a charity swim and he turned in the pool oddly and has torn something in his knee and had on operation yesterday to repair it. He was away with the fairies last night.

Its funny you say about peaking at 18, i had the best year of my life when i was 18 and was thinking about that a couple of days ago, then yesterday i thought to myself show me something significant and looked at the digital clock (i do stuff like that sometimes to keep myself amused) and it said 18:40. And i though they are the 2 best years of my life so far. Best years pop up unexpectedly, but im also a believer in not settling too much for your lot. If you dont like it, you can change it within reason. Read this yesterday and thought it was interesting

https://apps.facebook.com/theguardi...b_source=feed_news&fb_action_types=news.reads

im worried about not having a routine after hearing all this - Eloise goes to bed when she wants and naps when she wants. should i be doing a proper routine?

 

[jenny25]

Awww Paul got all nervous he hasn't held a baby that small in a long time he said he can wait for ours too come along xxx the wardrobe is awesome very perfect hun xxx

Oooo to be 18 again I loved being 18-20 those years were perfect I was a right party animal now mind you don't think I could hack it boo lol xxx

 

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Nato in your tiredness, can you remember how long your cervix was with Eloise? I'm glad to hear the cervix kicks are normal.

I hated high school. I hated being a teenager. I think I was always meant to be an adult. I did love college and my 20's after college. I had a peak around that time. I moved to San Francisco and was a cute, fun party girl. But I feel another peak coming on as a cute, fun mom. I plan to always be cute and fun and let life hand me peaks. God know I've been handed enough lows for a while. It's peak time again! In a cute fun fashion!

 

[Allie84]

I like your attitude Hearty. I'd like to think I'm a cute, fun mom as well and should probably cherish this time more rather than always thinking "What's next?" I'm terrible for living in the future or the past (as in romanticizing both). I need to enjoy the present more! I have no doubt a 'peak' time is happening for you and you'll probably have a genius daughter or something to make up for what you went through.
Nato, I also like what you said about peak years popping up unexpectedly. 2011 was actually pretty good when I think about it...but yes, I hope to change the course my life is going in and am worried I may just 'settle' and I don't want that. I always thought I'd have an interesting life and it was very interesting until a few years ago when it got exceptionally dull (again, Alistair aside).

Oh, and I was up early with Alistair as well, who has since decided to nap now that he's gotten me wide awake. I've scared Alistair with some boistrous singing in the past lol. I think you're right about the anxiety being developmentally appropriate. Puppets are kind of creepy, anyways! But fun.

I would say 19 was my favorite year...it's the year I discovered travelling and went backpacking, moved to Scotland, lived on my own for the first time. It was a very giddy romantic time as well and I was in love with 2 men...one being Alex, whom I met that year.

Oh Jen,I meant to say, that's lovely about your midwife. I really hope she gets it!

Hearty, I remember my cervix was 4 cm at 19 weeks. That's the only time they gave me a measurement, but I also remember them saying it hadn't gotten any shorter at 30 something weeks (towards the end) and I was frustrated because I wanted labor to come on it's own before I was induced.

I was about to go read that article but now Alistair's awake

 

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4 cm would be a dream for me. That's a perfect length. I'm hoping for it to be 3 cm on Monday.

I think your life is still pretty interesting. You just met your sister. You just went to Scotland. And you are definitely cute and fun. This pregnancy has taught me to live in the present more. If I can get through today, then all is good. I think more peak years are waiting to pop up. You might not recognize them as such until you reflect on them later though. That's why it is so important to appreciate the present when possible. Though as we all know, sometimes the present is just shit. Those are the days that I dream about the future.

 

[NatoPMT]

hearty i did something really stupid. I had all my scan letters and results in my pregnancy notes folder, and when i left hospital after having eloise, they took it off me, along with all my pregnancy information. I am really mad about that. I just checked and i have nothing. I am even more mad now. I know it was too short, but not short enough for the nhs to do anything about. It must say somewhere in this thread. Only 2,319 pages to wade through to find it.

I am defo a silly mummy. I see the other mothers at play group and they are mostly so stony faced. whats the matter with them. There was a new girl last week (from Athens Vic, not that youd know her) and she was silly. Very rare breed silly mums, in my experience

Allie, some settling is necessary, we cant always be chasing dreams. This comes from the person who has changed career direction about 7 times. Its about being happy for me. If youre happy with yourself, i think most circumstances are fine. I used to seek change hoping it would make me happy, but realised that i was just the same person when i got the change and nothing had really changed. I think your parents, the weather in Fargo and the need for friends in a newish town will make things less easy for you.

Jen: Eloise is a right bruiser, she's 18 pounds now...no small babies for me.

 

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Vicky- I would have had a panic attack if Penny swallowed a bead. I'm glad she is ok. We both lie on the floor and at that point she knows it is bed time. Sometimes she will wimper a little when I sing because she knows it is sleepy time but she usually goes down right away


Hearty- I’m glad they are closely monitoring you. PAL is a scary time but it helps when you have the right support. Penny used to kick me in the cervix all the time and it terrified me until the end when I was praying she would kick right through it. The count down to birth is a million times harder than the 2ww in my opinion!

Nato- Thanks for the gossip! I really enjoyed reading it. I will have to get back on FB to see your nursery! Too bad about John’s knee… I hope he has a speedy recovery!

Cesca- That is heartbreaking. It is hard enough to have a MC but to actually hold your baby in your arms and lose them… I would never be able to get over that. I feel the same as you… if I were ever to get pregnant again I don’t think I would worry as much

Jenny- congrats on 18 weeks! It is pretty awesome that Paul got to meet Nato & Eloise

Allie- I am jealous too! You and I almost had contact when you came to Colorado last year but I was in New Mexico that weekend. I agree lets meet and have a baby play date at the Cheyenne Mountain Zoo!!! I believe Jaymes will be here over the summer as well so maybe we can include her in the action. There is no way you would catch me at my reunion. All my friends graduated ahead of me and my senior year I met Tim so I didn’t give much of my time to people in my high school. I will let you know what I find out about hypnotherapy

I loved being in highschool and always knew how to have fun but I much prefer the age that I am right now. After/during highschool I was young, naive and didn't really know myself. Now I am confident and know what is important to me. I think people get better with age.

I uploaded some pics of our trip to Pagosa Springs & Easter weekend in my journal if you would like to take a look

 

[Round2]

OMG, I've been trying to read along and catch up, but there's just no point now! I'm so far behind........

Cesca, I can't stop thinking about the SIDS story you told us. It's so disturbing when something like that hits close to home. You're not a bad mother in any way at all. We all have done things that other mother's wouldn't approve of. There's no right or wrong way, just what works for you.

Hearty, I have contractions all the time. They totally freak me out. I hate them! I know that they are normal, but I don't remember them with Maddy. I'm finding that early third trimester is just as nerve wracking as the other trimesters. I thought I'd be able to relax, but I still worry about every little ache and pain.

Nato, I'm amazed by all the SIDS info you know. It's really got me thinking. I really know very little about it, especially for someone having their second child. I really didn't take the risks very seriously last time, but I think that will be different this time. Oh and I love the pictures of nursery. It looks beautiful!!

Allie, I sometimes feel that way too...about having my best years behind me. I think it's true that good years just sneak up on you. I'm hoping this year coming is one of those for both of us. When I look back, the year I had Maddy was one of the best years...but I don't think I knew it at the time.

My all time best year was when I was 24. I just moved to a new city, had my very own apartment, started grad school and started dating my hubby. Oh and I was SKINNY!! Ah, that was good year!!

AFM I'm super, duper busy at work these days and it's probably going to get worse before it gets better. At home we're trying to get started on the nursery and get a bunch of other projects going. It's been pretty hectic to say the least. I'm feeling okay lately. Lots of contractions, aches and pain. I'm feeling particularly chubby and unattractive lately as well. But overall, just happy to have an active little man rolling around in my belly.

Phew....that update took me like 2 hours to write!!

 

[NatoPMT]

Roundy i didn't read that much, it was too scary but what i did read i remembered out of sheer terror - i mainly googled how to reduce the risk and i also tried to work out what the actual risk was, i think i worked it out to be 1 in 1000 or 2000 cant remember. If the infanticide assumption is true, the risk must actually be much lower. I'm ever so chuffed with the nursery now, it's so warm and snug feeling in there. It feels like a home for her. I feel your pain, im feeling chubby and unattractive 6 months down the line. Make sure you do proper ventilation if you're painting, better still be out when its done and dont come home till its dried. Nothing to be anxious about but it would just be better (just in case you dont know owt about painting fumes too)

Hopesy, you big gossiper. I was going to reply and got caught up trying to heave my old clothes on and failing and crying about it - will do after me tea. I loved the fb pics of Penny, she's got some seriously cool duds as well. i love the skeleton and spotty tights outfit the best.

stop all making plans to meet in america behind our british backs!! not fair. i want to be involved in everything dont i

i loved school too, apart from all the girls falling out. 16-18 years old was a brilliant time for me. and 32-35 was the 2nd best, but then with 40 topping everything. Eloise is like a squidgy chubby cherry on top.

 

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Round- I hope this is a good year for you as well Your little guy is already starting you off in the right direction.

Nato- I have to wait until I get off work to look at the nursery. Facebook is a no no at work That is one of my favorite outfits as well. It is a Nightmare Before Christmas onsie... one of my all time favorite movies. I am excited for summer so I can put her in rompers and pretty little dresses.

All of you are welcome to come out to Colorado as well

 

[Megg33k]

I'm failing at catching up too... no point in even trying. Just letting you all know I'm thinking of you and love you. I'm just super busy. Deadlines and whatnot. Sorry! all around!

 

[Jaymes]

I just caught up... Too much to comment on it all. I somehow managed to unsubscribe to DD. BOO!!

I'm a plum today! And officially in 2nd trimester! YAY!

 

[Dazed]

Still reading, just not posting. Cheering you all on

 

[Sassy_TTC]

Wow you lot have been chatty, I've been reading just too busy to post!

I wanna meet some disco girlies, feeling very left out!

Poppy's in a very strict routine, keeps me sane and helps me to know what she wants!

Best years of my life were 17-19, at 17 I packed my bags and left, text my dad that I wouldn't be coming home and I never did! Got myself a flat and partied way too hard for 2 years until Danny came along! Lol.

AFM I'm struggling pretty bad with SPD, things are totally unbearable now, even with strong painkillers I'm finding it hard to do anything! Accupuncture is doing f all, I've pretty much had enough right now! Takes a lot to get me down but I'm broken, hubby's having to enquiry with work to take some leave to help me, totally sucks

 

[jenny25]

I think my spd is back I ft something like rip in my right side right down my bum cheek when I move my right side clicks and freezes up and I e actually gotten stuck ins position and can't move it fecking hurts now I'm getting shooting pains certain ways I move I see my midwife next wed I'm in complete agony with it x

 

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Oh you poor girls with the SPD. Sassers, you are so close to the finish line. 33 weeks down. That baby is giving you a run for your money. You have every right to feel down. The pain sounds unbearable. I can't wait for your baby to be here so you can have some relief.

Rounders, thanks for the reassurance about the contractions. I'm glad I'm not the only one. They really suck, don't they? I haven't had any today. Watch, I'll get one now that I typed this. Congrats on getting to the 3rd tri. I have 3 more weeks in the 2nd tri! I'll be joining you soon.

Hoping, I'd love to meet up. Not sure it will happen, but I would love to if there is an American gathering. Maybe we could make Nato so jealous that she would have to come. And Nato, if you come, you need to pack one of those red squirrels for me.

Vicky, I was just watching the BBC about the Euro Zone and they were showing the riots in Greece. I've seen footage before, but I was shocked all over again. I know you were so close to them. They looked scary. The only kind of riots we have here are unemployed punks who light trash on fire for no good reason.

 

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Oh and hi Megg, Dazy and Jaymie!

Congrats on plumhood!!!

 

[Jaymes]

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I'm having a very emotional annoyed at the world time right now! Mostly it's about me... I put my daughter on the bus this morning in tears because she wouldn't put cream on her face. She has severe excema and is often on oral steroids as well as the daily topicals we use, and she still is in constant agony. I get so frustrated watching her scratch sores all the time, and she is always getting infections due to it! I had a hormonal morning and totally lost it. Now I feel like the worst mom in the world!

Sorry about the early morning moan, just feeling bad about my lack of control and bad behavior.

 

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What mom doesn't lose it with their kids at one time or another? We've all been on the receiving end of it. Losing it every now and again doesn't make you a bad mom. It won't have lasting effects on her. If you were doing it constantly, that would be a different story. Then I would encourage you to try and deal with your feelings. But you are pregnant, hormonal, and you are concerned for your daughter. That might not be exactly how she's thinking about you right now, but she knows you love her.

 

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Jaymes....you're not the worst mom in the world. If you were in any way a bad mom, then you wouldn't feel bad about losing your patience with her. Trust me, I've had 35 years experience with a bad mom....you and nobody on this thread is bad mom!!

I want to meet Disco girls too! I propose we meet at the top of the Empire State building on the 5 year anniversay of the start of this thread (June 1st, 2015). Doesn't that sound perfect? I have no doubt I'll see each and everyone of you there!! Ha, ha!