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cazza22 said:
Megg I was totally there babe, had the worst ultrasound dreams always with the dreaded words that I don't need to repeat on this thread because we've all heard them :cry: I also dreamt of bleeding and having negative preg tests I swear there fuckin nightmares is what they are!!! It's all anxiety babe it's hard to switch off even in sleep when those thoughts are very much at the forefront of our minds! Ur babies are gonna be fine meggles just keep positive ok xxx lov ya
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I'm trying so hard... and I'm bad at failure. I feel like no matter how hard I try, I just can't overcome this. Although, it does help to know that you felt the same and are very much still pregnant with your forever baby.

Thank you all for your responses. I'm going to get through this somehow... I don't have a choice. And, you're the only people keeping me sane right now! Love you!!!
 
ps Megg, she's an assisted fertility twin. Apparently they are the cutest.

(apart from the bogey i had to retouch out of the photo)
 
NatoPMT said:
ps Megg, she's an assisted fertility twin. Apparently they are the cutest.

(apart from the bogey i had to retouch out of the photo)
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She's gorgeous!!! I'd love one or two just like her... bogey or not! :)

In the one positive dream I've had re: the u/s, everything was perfect and they were able to tell me at 6 weeks that it was a girl! LOL
 
Oh Megg...I wish I could say that the fear and anxiety subsides. Some epeople say as soon as they feel those first kicks they feel better and are able to relax but if I dont feel kicks for an hour I am running to my doppler. It seems that for women like us we can never quite get unwound from the things that have happened to us in the past. We spend our whole pregnancies worried and confused and never able to have a happy glow etc. Because even if you have a great ultrasound you know the next sad story to keep in your mind about something that happened to someone else and that is the thing you focus on. I am all for positivity, but sometimes it seems so very far away. I have one month left of this pregnancy and all I can think about is my crazy SIL who lost her baby at 39 w. Now I didint smoke 2 packs of cigarettes a day, or smoke drugs, or drink heavy liquor my whole pregnancy like she did, but it still makes me nervous. I think the best thing you can do is just go with your gut and your heart. If you are feeling scared one minute then feel that scare. If you are feeling hopeful then go ahead and feel hopeful. The one thing you can never ever do is allow someone else to make you feel badly for having feelings. For instance, I got many a nasty note on FB telling me I should "quit bitching" about pregnancy symptoms because I was being "insensitive" to those who had not yet got pregnant. When I wasnt complaining at all, I was just sharing my symptoms with my friends and family and my feelings towards them. You have a lot of people rooting for you kid. Your pretty lucky that way. So just take a deep breath and feel scared if you want to, feel happy if you want to, cause if you didnt want to be feeling that way then you wouldnt be, and your brain would feel something else.
 
Neurotic Emotional Sometimes Hopeful Sometimes Despondent TTCALer

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You hit on something REALLY important, Virginia... REALLY important! I was just telling Kevin about it the other day too! Let me rewind... My real life IVF bump buddy has been pregnant twice... now 3 times... and she has 2 kids already. So, each time has yielded a child for her. She was saying how she didn't know why I would be scared about my ultrasound. And, I had to explain. I was saying how she knows very little about TTC and pregnancy complications (she even admits that)... and what a disservice it is sometimes to know so MUCH about it. Because, there really is an endless barrage of stories... one after the other... to take the place of the last worry. I have them all lined up in my memory and ready to take over as soon as I reach a milestone. WTF is wrong with us? Why do we do that? I mean, its ONE story here and ONE story there... We know that MOST people go on to have a baby after they've seen a heartbeat... Like, seriously, almost everyone... Its what... 5% that experiences loss after a HB is seen? But, we can find ONE story to focus on at even 39 weeks to tell us that it could still go wrong! :dohh: That's ignorant! No offense, btw... I'm talking about myself mostly... But, its just stupid to torture ourselves that way!
 
TTCAL and PAL, specifically... I think the 2 month TTC success stories have a lot less stress than us! :dohh:
 
Of course they do Megg and then they winge all through their pregnancies they wanna try a day in our shoes xxxx
 
Yep! Precisely, Dawn! "OMG! I'm so sick! My back hurts! There's a foot in my ribs! I can't wait to get this out!" FUCK! Give me misery! BRING IT ON!

I totally allow all PAL girls to whinge all they want... Its different, because I'm biased! LOL
 
I think we are all in a crazy post Xmas, pre New Years funk....I say buy yourselves presents!
 
Megg33k said:
Yep! Precisely, Dawn! "OMG! I'm so sick! My back hurts! There's a foot in my ribs! I can't wait to get this out!" FUCK! Give me misery! BRING IT ON!

I totally allow all PAL girls to whinge all they want... Its different, because I'm biased! LOL
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Funny that you say this....the main reason we started the Cautious Club is for this reason alone. And now our little club is all within 5 weeks of d-day. Funny how things turn out.
 
Lord, Im poor too. Well kind of my OH is a very wealthy guy. But I am buying my damn iphone today if it friggin kills me!
 
I had a can of Guinness last night I know I probably shouldn't have but Guinness is meant to be ok in pregnancy (if I'm even Pregnant!!!!) as it contains Iron but I'm thinking sod it baby doesnt take from blood stream til 6wks ish anyway thats why I'm testing new years eve with FMU that way if its :bfn: I'm going to get drunk :drunk: and console myself xxxx
 
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