Finally decided to have baby number two!

[heaveneats]

Oh my gosh this made my day!! What a lovely Christmas gift!!

 

[MrsChezek]

Thank you ladies! They drew my blood yesterday and I'm supposed to get the results before noon today. Hopefully my progesterone isn't crazy low. They will redo the test on Monday and then the doc will decide if I need supplementation. I hope things go well...FX!

 

[PediNurseMom]

That's wonderful, Mrs. C. I hope you have a healthy and happy 9 months.

It looks like I'm the only one left who's not pregnant. Unfortunately, I received some very bad news last week. I went for a physical and my labs showed that I likely have one or possibly more than one autoimmune disease. I have to wait 4-6 weeks to see a series of specialists to confirm what I'm dealing with. This would mean a much higher chance of infertility, miscarriage, stillbirth, premature delivery, placental abruption, and growth issues with a baby. I'm terrified.

I was hoping for a midwife and a VBAC this time around and now, if I'm ever able to get pregnant and stay pregnant, I would have to see a high risk OB and be monitored constantly. I'm absolutely devastated.

I haven't even been on these boards or thought about this TWW. My entire life has been completely turned upside down in a matter of days. We're also dealing with financial stress and a huge issue between my brother and I, which is another significant source of stress.

I'm in a very bad place and having a really hard time trusting God and having faith. I'm sure that with the amount of stress I'm under, there's almost no way I could possibly be pregnant this cycle.

If for some strange reason I am, I'm petrified that it won't be a happy moment. Since I haven't seen the specialists, I won't know what's going on and will be sick with worry until those appointments. In the meantime, I would basically have to assume that I will most likely miscarry. That's an awful way to start any pregnancy. I feel like it wouldn't be a joyous or exciting moment. I really don't want that. So, in many ways, I'm hoping I'm not pregnant this cycle, since too much is unknown (and possibly untreated) right now.

Everyone around me is getting engaged, getting pregnant, and having babies around the holidays and here I am with all of this. I'm sorry, but I'm just really struggling.

 

[heaveneats]

pedinurse- i'm not even sure what to say, i'm so sorry, i had no idea. It sounds like they are doing everything they can though to make sure you are healthy. I understand you wanted to go with a midwife for a VBAC but it may be best to be very closely monitored, that may put your mind at ease once you do become pregnant. I so hope you end up having a baby soon. Lots of love to you in this difficult time

 

[MrsChezek]

Big hugs to you pedi. I'm at a loss for words but I'm thinking of you and sending my best. It's not fair that you have so much on your plate.

 

[wanting2010]

Congratulations Mrs Chezek!! Wonderful news right before Christmas!!

Pedi, I'm so sorry that you are having such a difficult time right now. That's not news that anyone wants to hear. Big hugs!!

 

[Sarah Lou 80]

Hugs Pedi Really hope everything starts to get better for you. I can't begin to imagine how you are feeling but really hope everything works out x

 

[preg_pilot]

Congrats chez, fx for a sticky!

Oh no pedi. I´m so sorry, I hope it´s not a serious condition. And I hope you get some answers soon

 

[Clarkeyness]

Hi all!! Just wanted to update you guys that I got my BFP on Dec 8th
I have had blood work twice and everything looks good We are over the moon and cant believe how lucky we are since our first pregnancy took year and a half.
We are 6 weeks today.

Congrats Mrs C!! Happy for you!!
Sorry Pedi

 

[PediNurseMom]

Thanks so much, everyone; I really appreciate your kind words. I'm trying to keep myself distracted and I'm hoping Christmas goes by quickly so that I can move on and find out what I'm dealing with.

 

[sharnw]

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I am sooo excited. Calling doc as soon as they open. Need to make this a sticky one!

Nice scan heaven!
Thinking about you pedi...

Omgosh!!!!!! Congrats MrsC

 

[PediNurseMom]

Tested against my better judgement this morning at 11dpo and BFN. I'm absolutely crushed. Part of me was still hoping for a positive despite everything going on. I was originally going to test tomorrow as well, but now I'm not sure. I know it will be devastating to see the inevitable BFN on Christmas day. I've already had to endure BFNs on Thanksgiving and Christmas Eve.

I've had sore, tingly boobs for 3 days, so it looks like AF will be here this weekend. If those symptoms were due to pregnancy, I would have had a BFP by now, but it was stark white on FRER this morning. Looks like we're on to month #5...

If it doesn't happen next cycle, I think I may need to take a month off TTC because this is becoming too much for me. I feel like this is deja vu from TTC my daughter all over again (BFNs for all the holidays, depressed for all the family gatherings, etc.). I'm literally experiencing the exact same thing as last time. I just don't understand why I can never have happy news for the holidays like so many other people

I know I should be counting my blessings and being thankful for all that I do have, but I'm really struggling. The waiting and hoping every month, followed by disappointment over and over is just awful. I want to have faith and trust God's timing, but it's getting harder and harder. I believe He's in control and ultimately knows what's best, but I just can't understand His reasons for all this disappointment right now. I can't see how anything could possibly be better than having a BFP for Christmas

I'm reaching a point where I honestly can't imagine ever seeing a BFP... ever. It's as if I'm destined to always see that horrible, stark white FRER for the rest of my life. That may sound ridiculous but it feels very real. I think I might need to take a break from these boards for a while; it's just too painful

I don't know what to do from here. I'm feeling really depressed. Christmas is my favorite holiday and I want nothing to do with it now. I don't want to see family (just more stress and more babies to see). Yet again, just like Thanksgiving, I have to fake a smile and pretend like everything is ok. Tomorrow is going to be absolute torture

Now I'm crying and I have no choice but to just suck it up and go on with my day, not to mention handle a 2 year-old's temper tantrums at any given moment. I just wish I could fast-forward time. I feel very alone (my husband will never understand the pain). All I want to do is crawl into bed and wake up a month from now.

 

[PediNurseMom]

Hi ladies,

The BFNs continued through Christmas, which was absolutely devastating. AF arrived like clockwork early this morning (CD 28). I think I need to take a break from these boards for a while. It doesn't seem to be helping me, if anything, it's making things more painful because everyone else is pregnant and here I am feeling depressed. I feel very alone.

I'm not sure what kind of approach I'm going to take this cycle in terms of TTC. I'm thinking of ditching the OPKs because despite 4 months of perfectly-timed BD'ing, +OPKS, pre-seed, and being very healthy, we have yet to conceive. I know it hasn't been a while of TTC, and I'm hoping that month #5 will be our lucky one, (as it was with our DD) but I just feel like I need to take a step back right now.

As it turns out, I may not have an autoimmune issue per se (praise God), but gluten intolerance. I eliminated gluten about 10 days ago and my symptoms already 90% better. I still have further testing scheduled and I'm not out of the woods yet, but we'll see...

Thank you so much for all your input these past few months and best of luck to all of you ladies.

 

[heaveneats]

Pedi if that's what you need then by all means take a step back. We all care for you here. I sincerely hope to see you back here soon. If you need anything pm me and I will help in any way I can.

I agree these boards can be hard, for me they are hard seeing all the miscarriage stories has got me so stressed that I've actually stopped logging on for days just because i don't need the extra stress. Again, lots of love to you

 

[MrsChezek]

pedi! I wish you the best of luck and hope to run into you on the expecting boards soon! I have everything crossed for you

 

[FallBabe]

Hi ladies I would like to join you too. We have a 15 month old and are trying for baby #2 in January. AF should be starting on Monday.

 

[PediNurseMom]

I know it's been months since anyone has posted on this thread and no one will likely come across this, but I just had to say....................... I'm pregnant!!!

BFP today!! After 6 months of very diligent trying, baby #2 is on the way

I know the rest of you ladies got your BFP long ago and have moved on from the TTC boards, but I just felt like I needed to make a post. Hope everyone is doing well! I'm praying for a healthy, sticky bean

 

[heaveneats]

I know it's been months since anyone has posted on this thread and no one will likely come across this, but I just had to say....................... I'm pregnant!!!

BFP today!! After 6 months of very diligent trying, baby #2 is on the way

I know the rest of you ladies got your BFP long ago and have moved on from the TTC boards, but I just felt like I needed to make a post. Hope everyone is doing well! I'm praying for a healthy, sticky bean

i'm still here OMG I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU PEDI!!!

how wonderful your going ot be a mama again!

 

[PediNurseMom]

Oh my gosh! Thank you SO much, heaven!!! I feel so far behind all of you ladies, but the wait was worth it. I can't believe it!! DH doesn't know yet. I'm praying that all goes well and that this bean sticks. I hope you've been having a fantastic pregnancy!!

 

[kissesandhugs]

OMG pedinursemom!!! So happy for you, congrats!! keep us updated!