first cycle actively trying (June 2015)

[Velathria]

Fertileflower I bet it wasn't your imagination.I can understand how you feel though. Last month I had all the signs and I was almost 100% sure I was pregnant and when I saw that horrible negative I almost started crying... but don't give up hope. I bet it will be one and if you need someone to talk to, we're here. That's what this forum is for go get that FRER. I've got my fingers crossed for you

@mini: god I remember morning sickness... yeah it can be a real bitch. XD but just think it's all worth it
Good luck on your appointment. I might actually start writing blogs and stuff too. They seem fun. Right now I wrote mostly books. Your job seems like my dream job.

Baby dust to all you girls...

 

[FertileFlower]

FRER was BFN yesterday.

I'm not sure what to think. If I ovulated as early as the solid smiley face indicated, and all other signs confirmed, then today I am 11-12dpo with an implantation bleed at 6dpo. I would think I would test positive by now.

The only other chance is that I ovulated like the online calculators says, on cd13 which would be more in alignment with my cycle. But I did not get a positive OPK that day and the symptoms doesn't match up as well for that ovulation date. However, if it did, that WAS the same day I had the bleeding, so could have been ovulation bleeding? Never had that before either. This last scenario is less likely, I KNOW I ovulated dpo7/8 . But grasping at straws now. Shouldn't have started testing so early.

If I'm right about ovulation date, then my period is due in two days, which I do have a/f cramps but that could also be a sign of pregnancy so who knows?

If the only calculator is correct, then my period is not due until the 12th. In which case all the testing has been moot because it's been too early.

I really, really felt like this would be our month. I still do but the lack of more symptoms and positive hpt's is getting to me. I have itchy side boobs and pimples though, which is extra terrible if it's NOT pregnancy symptoms! lol!

DH picked a name if it's a boy today. He is innocently ignorant of the torture I am putting myself through with this. lol Bless his heart.

 

[Velathria]

Oh dear fertileflower. .... I know how you feel... I had that last month. I hate it... the hope you get and the happiness already because think it's a 100% sure... itS frustrating to a point where you just want to curl up and cry...
Tell your dh what you are going through... you definitely need lots of affection right now...
But just think it's not over until AF starts or hopefully not.

I wish you all the luck!!! Hope it's just too early to tell... sometimes the egg can take a longer time to travel or there isn't enough hpt in your urin..

We are here for you though. Soo I am still thinking about you and hoping it's a bfp soon

 

[gina236]

Oh dear fertileflower. .... I know how you feel... I had that last month. I hate it... the hope you get and the happiness already because think it's a 100% sure... itS frustrating to a point where you just want to curl up and cry...

^ which is exactly what I did last night. Lol. I have a feeling we missed it. DH was refusing to even try to DTD Sunday because he said he "knew" he wouldn't be able to finish. Pretty sure I O'd then. Even tho all other signs pointed towards Friday. My cm and CP stayed fertile until Sunday so I feel like that's when it happened. We only DTD on Thursday. Other than that DH hasn't been wanting to. I try to be understanding but I feel like I'm starting to resent dh for it. Might be taking a break from it all. I just wanted it to happen so bad this month. This is the 6th month. Why does the world not want me to have a baby? Sorry for the down mood. Not feeling very good about this whole ttc thing. The one month I'm positive I got pregnant I lost it. It's just not fair.

 

[Velathria]

I'm sorry fertileflower.. I agree... why doesn't a person like you get a break and get what you want but some little nitwit who is 18 and can't even take care of it gets pregnant 'accidently'.
And no one blames you for slightly resenting your dh... it's just the disappointment and pressure of it.. maybe a break is a good idea.. try to find a way back together with your dh... and maybe then it'll work out Did you guys go to the doctor yet? If it's been 6 months then maybe they can help a bit.

Yeah I am pretty down too because I missed my O. Won't be pregnant another month...

I'm really sorry fetileflower.I hope it happens soon for you

 

[gina236]

We have not gone to a doctor. I don't think it's a fertility issue. I have definitely been pregnant 3 times in my life, 2 of which were by my dh. It's more of a sex drive problem. We used to have sex every time we saw each other, now it's more like once a month that we fully have sex. If DH's hip is bothering him at all he can't finish so we will have sex but he won't be able to finish. He will need a hip replacement in his 30s but we are trying to wait as long as possible because 1 it's crazy expensive and 2 they only last so long and can only be replaced 2 or 3 times. So it comes down to timing. As much a we want to DTD as much as possible when I'm fertile he can't always do that. Medically we are a mess. Lol. I have tendinitis in my arms so being on top too long makes my arms kill and he has hip and knee issues so he can't always finish on top. I know this was way tmi but use wanted to explain what we are dealing with.

 

[Velathria]

Sorry gina xD thought you were fertileflower. That's pretty rough when you have to go through with that..there has to be some position you guys can do that will benefit both of you... maybe ask a professional?

 

[gina236]

I figured you put the wrong name lol. Hopefully once hurricane season is gone it will be easier (well hopefully we don't make it that long and get a bfp before that but still) lol. His hip acts up more when it's rainy so hurricane season doesn't help that.

I've been having crazy metallic taste in my mouth today. I get that every once in awhile but usually only when I rub my tongue on my teeth that used to have the end of my braces on them lol. Hoping it's a good sign. Very conflicted about how I feel this month. But not knowing when I od makes it so I don't know when 10dpo is so I won't be tempted to test too early.

 

[Velathria]

Oh I bet that would be harder with the rain.. that's kinda like My scars. They hurt when it's stormy here.

I really hope you have a bfp this month. So so much
Just try not to symptom spot. .. I know it's hard but it'll just make it so much more harder when it's a bfn... which I hope its not. :-*

 

[gina236]

I always try not to symptom spot. I more notice something odd and look it up to see if it could be a symptom. Like i knew metalic taste is a symptom but i thought it was later on. But lookd it up and says it could start a few days after conception. Its probably nothing but i need to have a little hope. If I tried to feel symptoms I would make everything up in my head. I have a very stong mind body connection. The month of my CP I knew it at 1dpo. Having doubts now makes me feel I will get a bfn. :/

 

[Velathria]

Well if you are good at noticing it then believe in what your body is telling you. I have stopped trusting my body xD I have been betrayed twice so I don't believe it until it gives me a postive but I bet I won't be able to not hope xD atleast this month I know for sure it's nothing cause it's not.possible. but let's see what I'm like next month xD you'll see me going crazy

 

[gina236]

See in your case I would start the, we'll what if I was pregnant from last month. not sure if you have it over there but there is a show here pregnant and didn't know it where these women go 9 months without having any idea they are pregnant. Used to freak me out. I always had hpt on hand because I would always freak out thinking maybe I was pregnant even though I had my period haha. I used to test every few months regardless of how I felt

 

[Velathria]

Hahhahah I have actually had that a few times. XD especially after I had that happen with first child. I had my period the first month and it kept coming up negstive... even at the doc... but then after another month and my period not coming.. it came back postive and I had Ben pregnant for 2 months already. So I actually really think that every month. Lol

 

[gina236]

Haha anything to obsess over

 

[Velathria]

I think we ttc ladies can find anything to obsess about. My bf can't understand why I need to buy ovulation kits...xD men.

 

[gina236]

Lol they will never understand what we women go through.

 

[Velathria]

Oh god I know... He keeps saying it'll happen and that I should have patience.. but I am the most impatient person ever xD when I want something... I want it now.. xD

 

[gina236]

Exactly. Isnt 9 months long enough to wait!?

 

[Velathria]

I know right? ? Totally long enough

 

[Lawes1987]

Anyone else experiencing yoyo emotions in their first cycle? I came off the pill a month ago, I'm on 11 dpo and my emotions are all over the place. I think the hormones are kicking my arse.