first cycle actively trying (June 2015)

[gina236]

Im sorry everyone is feeling so down For the first time this month I have hope. Idk why. I've been so moody all morning. Just 15 mins ago I got really nauseous and dizzy. More so than ever this month. I feel like if it was due to the progesterone I would have felt it before. Idk. Have a little hope now but scared to get my hopes too high. I did drink a monster this morning for the first time in a week so maybe that's what it is. Either way happy to not be in such a bad mood anymore. I think I will be able to hold out until Saturday no problem. First month I will actually not test early.

 

[Velathria]

Sounds promising I hope at least you get a happy ending FX that you get a bfp

I didn't test early either lol thank god... or I would've really hated it more when AF came...

Just hope next month will finally work out.. anyone heard of evening primrose oil?

 

[gina236]

I've heard of it on here but I don't remember much about it.

I'm so excited to test tomorrow. AF will most likely not show until I stop taking the progesterone cream. My temp went up the slightest bit today so happy that it's not just plummeting. FF says af is due tomorrow but that would give me an 11 day LP and I know I have a 13 day LP. I O'd 2 days late so not sure why FF didn't push back af 2 days but tomorrow I will be 12 or 13 dpo so test should be accurate. Worst case I've heard taking progesterone for one cycle is actually good for your body. It creates a thicker lining so in a way it helps clear you out. So if AF comes, she will most likely be heavier than other months.

I am helping my mom out all weekend so I won't be on here much but I will definitely update as soon as I take the test in the morning.

 

[Velathria]

I think I will try it.

I got my fingers crossed for you gina.. so you feel like it could be this month? I hope so.

Have fun with your mom

Can't wait for your result

 

[gina236]

I go back and forth whether I think it happened or not. I have like a glimmer of hope that I'm clinging onto. I feel like I could be pregnant but every time that happens I just lose it so it makes me lose that hope. If I get a bfn I am going out and drinking tomorrow night! Haha.

 

[gina236]

Well pretty sure it's a BFN there is a hint of a line but it's mostly white. So either I implanted late or its another negative cycle. Next cycle will make 9. I think 9 is harder to reach than 6. If I had conceived first month I'd be giving birth soon. Telling my mom that we are trying today and that this cycle is a bust so even if it turns around in the next few days she won't be expecting anything for christmas

 

[Velathria]

I'm sorry gina... I hope it still happens.. maybe it's still too early.. got my fingers crossed for you

Good luck telling your mom. this is our 5th month trying now... I never thought it would take this long let alone 9 months... I really hope it works out for you

 

[gina236]

Thanks hun. I looked at the pictures of the 10 miu cheapie I took that never had a line when my wondfos were having lines and there is a line on it. Idk why I go through this every month. Maybe it's an evap? Idk. But there is definitely something there.

 

[Velathria]

I Def see a line. maybe this time it will stick FX for a sticky bean

 

[gina236]

I think that was a bad test. Checked my cervix and I started spotting. But I told my mom and she is very supportive and said she will come with me to the doctor to get checked out.

 

[FertileFlower]

Just checking in to see how you all are progressing.
I know your test dates was around now.

Sorry that the mood is gloomy and baby dust for next round!
We all will get there!!!

I've been a bit down too. Period started on time, a bit early maybe even. I'm on cd8 now but not really focusing too much on it. (trying not to)

I'll check in again later and see how everyone is doing.

Baby dust and baby miracles!

 

[Velathria]

I'm sorry gina... that's horrible... atleast you have your mom's support now. and maybe the doctor will finally have something to help..

 

[Velathria]

Stupid phone making it post twice... can you delete posts?

 

[Velathria]

Hey fertileflower... sucks that it didn't work with you either... I'm sorry... let's hope we all get lucky next month

Lots of babydust I am CD 5... so we are kind of still cycle buddies fertile again

 

[gina236]

Copied from my journal:

Well CD 1 today. I have told my mom we are trying. Had a great talk with her. It was so nice to be able to confide in her without constantly watching what I was saying. So at least that's something. She said she will come with me to see the doctor if I want. Just kept repeating that it wasn't the right time. 'She thinks I may need a D & C or something. That I might just need a cleaning out. She told me it took my grandma 2 years with her first and then ended up having 8 kids.' But she is really excited we are trying. Going to be on here less. Focusing on getting g back to the gym and eating better again. My size 7 pants are starting to get tight and I was not happy to be in them as it is so getting back in shape. Will continue to track and BD but not going crazy anymore. This is month 9 now. When it is going to happen it will happen. I'm just going to stop worrying about it.


So if I don't reply right away I am sorry guys. I just can't do it anymore. Going on 9 months is terrible. I did find out last night my friend that I was upset she was pregnant is only 11 weeks. They told people at 6 weeks because someone saw them at the doctor and started telling people for them. So I was happy she wasn't too far ahead of where I would be if we succeed soon. I was looking forward to having kids together. BUT found out her best friend is also pregnant. And they are due 4 days apart -_- her husband is being deployed next month so we were spending time together last night (my DH and hers are good friends). We planned to tell them what had been going on with us but never got an opening in the convo to tell them. Trying my best to be supportive and happy for them even though it eats me up inside lol. But anyways I hope you guys are all doing well and we all get our sticky bfps soon!!

 

[RexMom2Be]

Aw Gina, I totally understand the stepping back and taking it easy. I find myself doing that. Reading these forums gets me all worked up and antsy to get my own BFP.

AF started today, right on time. I know it's only been a few months, but being 31, it's a bruise to the ego to feel like you're doing everything you can (BD constantly oughta show some sort of result!) and get no results. I'm starting to feel like something must be wrong, and that's difficult to start to acknowledge.

I may be jumping the gun feeling that way, but it's hard not to!

 

[FertileFlower]

RexMom I totally understand you on the bruise thing. I'm turning the big 40 in less than a month and have yet to become pregnant. This is month 7 of trying, month 4 of really, REALLY pulling all stops and remedies.
Spending hundreds if not thousands of dollars on supplements, tools etc. 31 still gives you many years though. My friend had her little boy at age 39.

Gina, please check in and update us though! I'm taking some space too, but will check in with you ladies and also share any hopeful news.

Vel, yes, almost cycle buddies again! Wishing you baby dust and please keep in touch! How are you feeling about this month?

Magicalmom, thinking of you.

 

[lesondemavie]

Rex...right there with you...I started in August too...33 here and now kicking myself for not starting sooner. There was always a reason to put it off, and now I want nothing more in the world than to be a mom. I'm trying not to put too much pressure on this cycle, but it's going to be hard. For the early 30s it can take an average of 8 months...which means plenty of healthy couples get their sticky beans after 1+ years of trying. Really hope it doesn't take that long for either of us, but the thought does help when I start to feel like it's just never going to happen.

Fertile - While age might make it harder/take longer it's definitely still possible. My mom had my youngest brother when she was 39 too. Keep at it, squeeze some lovey dovey time in, and cry if you need to. Sending lots and lots of fx your way.

Gina - Totally get it. Glad your mom is so supportive. All the best to you, and looking forward to updates when you pop in.

Vel - Sounds like you're feeling hopeful again. Enjoy the break and all the luck and fx for you this time around.

 

[Velathria]

Gina I'm so sorry you are going through all this but at least you have your mom's support now and we'll be here if you still need extra support but I understand that you need some time for yourself

Rex and lesonde- I started in august too lol.. Lots of babydust for you two

Fertileflower- yay cycle buddies I don't really know how I feel about this month but I'm hopeful especially with all this stuff I'm taking hahah...

AFM at CD 6 and I got myself a thermometer to do temp's this month.. even if I don't get pregnant atleast I'll get an idea for it.. might have lots of questions though hahaha

 

[gina236]

Thank you ladies! You are all so amazing and supportive! I will definitely still be stalking and checking in here and there. Just need to focus my energy on other things. Hopefully it will give me some luck! Baby dust to you all! Can't wait to see the BFP's!!