I don't know much yet, it's the weekend but I have an ultrasound tomorrow straight away in the early morning. I think I am the first patient my doctor sees tomorrow. I'm a nervous wreck, on the verge of tears, and I'm trying to stay positive but it's hard. I have only had mild cramping, nothing that would send me to the emergency room, and no bleeding. But, when I lost my son at 14 weeks last January - I had no cramping or bleeding either. His heat rate just dropped and then his heart stopped. I almost died, I was in the hospital and had five blood transfusions that worked, total of seven but my body rejected the first two.
I can't say I'm not sad I'm not getting a girl, but at this point I guess it's proof that deep down all that we should want is a healthy, happy baby. When your child dies inside of you, the gender never matters. It's so heartbreaking. I'm really, really nervous for tomorrow. I'm 16 weeks.