Tsia
My MyloMan - he turned 1!
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Hi all..
an unsure post here..
Before I got pregnant I wasnt a real hermit but I wasnt out every weekend either.
Maybe once a month with the girlies etc..
the OH and I usually go for meals or sit in blah blah..
Now since becoming pregnant I have been out a few times with the girls.. stuck to the coke or J20.. they all understand.
However.. I have noticed that since I have started showing .. well.. I feel when your showing.. people stare at you.
And I can tell their thinking "what you doing out etc" even tho they can clearly see juice in my glass!
But also.. I am starting to feel strange too.. the places have loud music and the baby must wonder what the hell is going on as the beat from the dancefloor vibrates through my body! AND I am feeling a little embarrassed to dance.. like there is a thought in the back of my mind thats telling me its a little inappropriate to start girating the hips like I used to do.
lol
Its not that I am not drinking as there has been many times before we have all gone out and I have been designated driver etc.. but can have a laugh without getting a drink.
But lately I end up with tremendous feeling of guilt.. and go sit in the corner watching my friends from afar.. and having a crap night cos I cant feel happy or comfortable joining in.
Last night for example, I was so low.. that I ended up ordering a shot of vodka to accompany my last bottle of J20 as I thought it may cheer me up a bit. Cant say it really did anything.. but then I felt guilty I had drank the vodka!
Cant win!
DO you lot go out and have these thoughts?
an unsure post here..
Before I got pregnant I wasnt a real hermit but I wasnt out every weekend either.
Maybe once a month with the girlies etc..
the OH and I usually go for meals or sit in blah blah..
Now since becoming pregnant I have been out a few times with the girls.. stuck to the coke or J20.. they all understand.
However.. I have noticed that since I have started showing .. well.. I feel when your showing.. people stare at you.
And I can tell their thinking "what you doing out etc" even tho they can clearly see juice in my glass!
But also.. I am starting to feel strange too.. the places have loud music and the baby must wonder what the hell is going on as the beat from the dancefloor vibrates through my body! AND I am feeling a little embarrassed to dance.. like there is a thought in the back of my mind thats telling me its a little inappropriate to start girating the hips like I used to do.
lol
Its not that I am not drinking as there has been many times before we have all gone out and I have been designated driver etc.. but can have a laugh without getting a drink.
But lately I end up with tremendous feeling of guilt.. and go sit in the corner watching my friends from afar.. and having a crap night cos I cant feel happy or comfortable joining in.
Last night for example, I was so low.. that I ended up ordering a shot of vodka to accompany my last bottle of J20 as I thought it may cheer me up a bit. Cant say it really did anything.. but then I felt guilty I had drank the vodka!
Cant win!
DO you lot go out and have these thoughts?