Im starting to get wedding nerves now i know its creeping up on me. I am so worried and panicky about how im going to look and feel, I know its so silly and shallow but i have such low self esteem since having children. I started on a diet, which i was doing great at, excercising loads, then i stopped taking my anxiety tablets (im back on them) but i just cant get back into the swing of things..instead ive been binging on sweets, chocolate galore! Im so angry with myself! I tell myself every night tomorrow will be different but it isnt
I picked my dress up last week, and took it to my old dressmaking teacher to see if she could or knew anyone who would change the neckline of my dress and alter it and basically it sounded hopeless, because the dress has lots of hand sewn beading its very complicated to even fit it, and she suggested i keep it just how it is, but i dont want to wear it that way
I love how it makes my hips and waist look but the other parts i hate!
Ah im just feeling down, i never wear makeup anymore, or do my hair, or wear nice clothes and i feel like everything is gearing up to me looking amazing for this one day and im putting so much pressure on myself that im not going to live up to my expectations :/
On the plus side, i have bought my bridesmaids gift, mil's gift, our little boys suits, lots of pom poms, striped paper straws and sweetie bags