No worries. I assume nobody is being judgey on here. One of the things I like about BnB.
I'm Team Healthy. A girl or a boy is fine with me. It's everybody else that wants a boy, and I want everyone to be happy. This would be my mom's first grandchild, and in Thai culture boys are more valued than girls. Girls take care of you in this life, but it's the boys who become monks and guide your soul to the afterlife/heaven/whatever. My older brother definitely got the full on first born son treatment. SO and I had always talked about wanting two boys and a girl for him in that order. We talked bout gender selection, but buying a house was more important so we opted out. But I know he really wants a boy. His parents had two boys, and they are just trashy and value boys over girls. They are also a**holes, so if it's a girl they won't want much to do with it, and they'll use it as another reason to attack me for not having a boy.
A boy would also just be easier for me I think. I am the middle child of otherwise all boys. I was the first girl for two generations until I was in college. I'm a teacher, so at the end of the day I'm sure I'll be fine with either sex. But boy drama (stereotyping) is a lot easier to manage than girls, and I helped raise my younger brothers since I was 9 when they were born. I just get along better with boys.