Can I join you guys? (sorry for the long post, lol, I just read the whole thread and you guys brought up a bunch of thoughts I need to share/vent about)
I wanted to share my opinion about the guys attitude about not understanding what we're dealing with. I had to realize that while I'm elbow-deep (ok, knuckle-deep) in CM and OPKs and HPTs and symptom spotting each day, he usually barely knows when its time to test, lol. Its on my mind all the time and its my body going through these things. I also think its monumentally unfair of the universe to give us all those hormonal emotions right when AF shows and we have to give up hope on that cycle.
I did find a bright side to DH's attitude. Since he isn't as wrapped up in it or as concerned/disappointed each time, I don't have to feel like I'm letting HIM down and can demand all the comfort and pampering for myself!
He and I worked out an agreement where I tell him in advance so he can get himself excited by thinking about it all day then jumping me when I get home. It keeps him from working himself into a bad mood or getting his heart set on a lazy evening.
My rants:
I am a huge fan of apple products in general, love my ipod, iphone etc.... but I now hate them with a passion for their stupid iphone4 commercials with the video chat. The one where the wife calls and tells her husband that 'the little project we've been working on...' *smile* *nod* 'you're going to be a daddy' had me BAWLING. I would love nothing more than to tell my husband he's going to be a daddy.... and here they are throwing it in my face!!!! ARGH!
I won't tell most people we're TTC and when I hear the insensitive comments people get, I'm so glad I didn't tell people. Some friends know, and one who started trying when I did but is now 9 months pregnant still says some harsh things without realizing how much it hurts. The best thing she said to me lately was that she doesn't think its fair that she's about to deliver and I'm still not pregnant.. I laughed, teared up a little and told her I agree.
However, she'll still complains to me about a lot of pregnancy stuff with no awareness that I'd love to be in her shoes. It took her 5 months to get pregnant which she still feels was like 'forever' (not disagreeing with her or anyone else at that stage... when you want it so bad, it feels like forever no matter how long you've been trying!)... its just that now that she's fully pregnant, you think she'd let it go a little. She sat there and complained to me about a friend of hers who just got pregnant on the first time and about how mad that makes her since it took her 'forever'..... again... still not pregnant here... be mad on my behalf damnit!
She made some bad joke once about how if it was a girl, I could have it since her husband wants a boy.... I have a sick sense of humor but that was just mean.
I'm tired of being told to relax (but hey, I still changed my status to 'relaxed' in case it helps
). Relaxing will not make my ovaries magically work, and relaxing while you're on a fully monitored clomid cycle is just not possible. Though I did start acupuncture to help me relax because it was getting to the point that I was having high blood pressure at my doctor's visits from stress.
I'm tired of dealing with that last stretch of the 2ww and not knowing if I'm pregnant, driving myself crazy with symptoms, squinting and HPTs etc.
I cry when I think of how much I've spent so far on HPTs, OPKs, doctors visits, tests etc... when everywhere around me people who were SUPPOSED to have trouble concieving had no trouble at all and spent the price of one HPT.
And lastly, I just thought I'd share my method for not crying in front of someone when I find out they're pregnant.... I just imagine as strongly as I can.... vaginal tearing from childbirth and that this 'lucky' girl in front of me will be facing that. It stops the tears dead in their tracks!
I will attempt to talk to OH about it later but I've got a feeling he's just going to think I'm crazy or something.
my DH sees no wrong in the way my MIL treats me and always but always takes her corner!
af: ?
) talk about messing with my emotions 
We have been TTC for 6months now and whilst I know its not a massive amount of time we struggled TTC DS and at 22 yrs old I was told it would be a miracle if me and DH were ever parents! I was gutted and although I didnt expect THE smoothest path this time around I thought I might get a little break but we have been through so much in such a short time its a wonder people even want to reproduce 
I think the only thing that keeps TTC couples going is the hope that one day just one day their dreams may come true 
altering my life style and sticking to a bedding schedule we would never be successful. She claims that she was just trying to make me realise that I was causing myself a lot of stress over nothing, but I think that for someone who has 4 children already it was a rather callous thing to say. Especially as hubby agreed with her!
as hubby has done his usual trick of going off 
half way through the cycle and I am not a happy bunny!
