Here is a place to VENT! No negative comments please.

[lisaf]

Mini-vent.. only half kidding:
Why haven't they invented a time machine or a way to see/know exactly how this cycle is going to turn out? The 2ww is killing me right now. If I could just know that it wasn't going to result in a BFP, I could cope just fine, but its the torture of what if and wondering that is driving me crazy.

 

[awaitingrmb]

How many DPO are you and when are you testing?

 

[lisaf]

4dpo, not testing for several days still. I'll probably cave at 8dpo

 

[awaitingrmb]

Well keep us informed please. GL hun!

 

[cutsiecubbie]

Hey Ladies,
I vented earlier in my journal but still have some left in me since checking my facebook and finding out that 2 friends are now preggo AGAIN!!! I know my DH and I have not been trying long (going on month 4 now, since traces of AF showed up today!), but I have a gut feeling that for some reason it's not going to be the easy road that I'd hoped for, and there should be no reason why!! I've never had cycle issues myself and my DH is very healthy too.

Since being off the pill for 3 months now my cycle has been the exact same just like I was still on them. This makes me believe that I have a 28 day cycle and therefore plan to every other, if not every day during the right weeks. I told myself that I wouldn't get stressed out over it not happening but it just gets really discouraging after being so positive all month just to get a .

My heart really goes out to the couples TTC now for months and months, even a year or more!! I know it takes awhile for my body to revert back to it's old routine pre-pill but I thought a couple months might be enough. If there really is such a slim, slim chance that we can actually conceive in a month than how do people that don't want kids, or teenagers who shouldn't just magically get preggo without even trying??? Grrrrr. Thanks for letting me get it out.

Here's to month 4...

 

[lisaf]

I sometimes think that its harder to take when you're only 4 months in. I'm almost on a year now and you just get a little bit worn out with each failed cycle so you don't get as worked up each time... or at least thats how I feel about it today. I was wound SO tight earlier on with the hoping/anxiety etc.
Got my hopes all high again though, lol so what do I know?

If it makes you feel better, my best friend felt so frustrated at month 4, feeling like it was taking forever and like it would never happen to her. She got pregnant the next cycle.

 

[Feisty Fidget]

Lisaf I think you maybe right! First few cycles I was a nutjob completely but have now settled into the highly doubting that I will ever get phase and seem to be finding it a bit easier to cope.

Ladies it is difficult and we may not know the apparent ease that others seem to have ttc, but we do at least have the support of everyone else on here who truly understands just how difficult it is. There is the adage of good things come to those that wait; in our case we will appreciate our little ones so much more when we finally get them, because we have fought, stressed, cried and worked really hard to get them!

to all!

 

[CJSG1977]

Well I am going CRAAAZZZZZY!!!! saturday and the almost non existent faint un sunday!!!! This has happened with all of my m/c's!!!! But no sign of the I am now 4 days late. Bloods taken today and I cant help but feel they are going to say negative, which will really hurt cause I even had vomiting today....which will mean its all in my head! Hellllllp! I hate doing this....but after 2 and a half years I just cant give up! Hope you guys feel better. As for the MIL situation mine I'm sure is bred in HELL! She is a horrible poisonous b***h!!!! I wouldnt care if she dropped dead. She wont know about this baby (hopefully) or any other until its here...and then she'll never see it. She said she was glad I miscarried before because she never wanted to be a grandmother and certainly not to my child. Your own happiness is whats important and the other half. Never mind anybody else!!!!

 

[awaitingrmb]

totally agree with CJSG!

 

[lisaf]

today's vent:
They are keeping me too busy at work to come on here and get my fix!! Grr!

Oh, and my friend that I've shared my whole story with since the beginning was totally insensitive today. First she calls me over to show me some quote about motherhood.. thanks a bunch.
Then she tells me that even if I'm not pregnant this cycle, that I'm one step closer to an answer as to why I'm not getting pregnant.... ummm... yeah, there are people who they cannot figure out any reason why they aren't getting pregnant despite every test known to man. This is the same girl who was convinced every single cycle that I was going to be pregnant and wouldn't listen to any doubts. Its kind of obnoxious after the first 4-5 times... *sigh* I just keep chanting 'she means well' to myself.

 

[awaitingrmb]

IDK what to say lisa. Hope she can again gain sensitivity to your situation.

 

[lisaf]

nah, I've given up with women understanding unless they are going through it themselves! lol!

 

[glowingjo]

My vent for the day (ok it will probably be a recurring theme) it's not even about TTC!

I hate my new boss. Passionately, viciously and with every fibre of my being.
He is an ignorant fool who wouldn't know (or listen to) a good idea if it smacked him in the face - which I'm tempted to do.
He is a bully who doesn't listen, and who won't accept that he is ever wrong.
He obviously must have a really small penis because no normal man would be that obsessed with proving that he's always right.

I miss my old boss, he was the best boss EVER in the world. He listened, he told me to shut up occasionally. He CARED about me as a person. Why did he have to retire???

The new di**khead pisses me off so much I'm almost tempted to use the C-word to describe him. And I never EVER use that word.
I almost quit on Friday because of him - but the maternity benefits are amazing with my current job. I'd be an idiot.

But will I be able to conceive with this amount of stress and pressure??? ARRRGHHHHHH

Ok well it ended up being a bit about TTC

 

[Ghost]

I'll join in . My vent for today is that I'm 7 days late and all my tests are negative. My cycles are usually between 32 and 39 days, with the usual being 35 days . Which means I'm 42 days so far and nothing. Last year 3 months after I quit the pill (June) I had my longest recent cycle of 52 days but that was last sept or something and my periods have settled pretty much until now. I had what I thought were normal af pains about a fortnight ago but they just faded off. Getting the odd twinge but not like when I'm due. I tested this morning and not even a faint line. Only have one test left and they're eBay onestep pregnancy tests 10mui so I think it's not this
month. I've been trying since I came off the pill. I'm so sick of it and having that damn af appear to dissapoint me every month. 2 people I know are pregnant and 5 people I used to socialise with have had babies now who are over a year old. I work in a charity shop too and right next to the desk we have tiny newborn clothes for sale and everytime I serve I see them, it's like a knife in my heart.

 

[sequeena]

I must be very sensitive today!! I feel like my inlaws are flaunting the baby

 

[CJSG1977]

My VENT!!!!! After 2 positive HPT I had a blood hcg done and the results are NEGATIVE!!!! Spontaneous miscarriage and now I have to wait to actually miscarry! I would be almost 5 weeks now. EVERYONE kept saying this was it for me and I was soooooo happy. But in my gut something felt wrong. My niece is pregnant (4 weeks), one of our friends is pregnant (9 weeks) and they are both expecting their 3rd. My other niece is pregnant! And another 3 in distant family are pregnant! WHY NOT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why do I have to KEEP ON LOSING!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRGGGHHHHH!!!! I have to walk round carrying what would have been my baby until my body has figured out that its not anymore. Have to go for bloods monday if I havent had a bleed. MY LIFE SUCKS!

 

[NOMORENUMBERS]

my vent:


I HATE waiting to O
I HATE that feeling of oh god what if we dont time it right
I HATE peeing in a pot every day at 2pm
I HATE having to keep to all the silly things i do waiting to o and in 2ww JUST IN CASE
I HATE having sex when i dont want it but have to
I HATE, HATE, HATE WAITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

done . . . . .

 

[MrsPOP]

Im new to venting but feel the need so badly at the moment.

Im not even angry, Im just depressed. Im sick of not knowing where I am in my cycle. I had the Mirena removed 12 days ago and havent bled at all yet. I didnt have periods on the Mirena so have no idea of my cycles. All my OPKs have been negative so far. DH and I have been BDing pretty much every day since my coil was removed.

Even though Ive only been TTCing for 12 days, I just have a gut feeling this is going to be a long and arduous journey for us. And Im SS like crazy. Ive been nauseous for a few days and today Im REALLY badly nauseous but I just know its not because Im PG. I have a bit of heartburn and some cramping. But my boobies arent sore and I always get sore boobies during AF (when I used to have it).

Im going to POAS tonight just to get my head into gear. Ive ordered some IC ovulation kits otherwise Im going to be spending horrific amounts on the 'proper' OPKs Ive been using.

Im also pretty down because my DH didnt want to BD last night. Luckily he's been very keen to BD since we TTC, he wants a baby really badly too. But he was exhausted last night and stressed about a review he had in work today and I feel like a b*tch because I got upset he didnt want to BD. Im probably just PMSing and AF will show her ugly face soon.

*cries*

 

[sequeena]

Yet again I was told to not get myself worked up over the chemical - says the woman with a toddler and has had no fertility issues

 

[sequeena]

My VENT!!!!! After 2 positive HPT I had a blood hcg done and the results are NEGATIVE!!!! Spontaneous miscarriage and now I have to wait to actually miscarry! I would be almost 5 weeks now. EVERYONE kept saying this was it for me and I was soooooo happy. But in my gut something felt wrong. My niece is pregnant (4 weeks), one of our friends is pregnant (9 weeks) and they are both expecting their 3rd. My other niece is pregnant! And another 3 in distant family are pregnant! WHY NOT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why do I have to KEEP ON LOSING!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRGGGHHHHH!!!! I have to walk round carrying what would have been my baby until my body has figured out that its not anymore. Have to go for bloods monday if I havent had a bleed. MY LIFE SUCKS!