silmarien
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Thank you guys for your support. I truly appreciate it. I promise I will do the readings as soon as I can. I'm stressing out MAJORLY today because my apartment is getting inspected and I haven't unpacked everything yet, I'm afraid they'll get pissed.
I'm also having financial issues as I'm temporarily on disability (had a bad back injury in Feb) and they messed up my check for this month - making it difficult for DH and me to pay our rent.
I've called about 6 people trying to sort it out and get a reimbursement, but they said it will take 30 days, which means we'll have to pay rent late, with late fees.
So I cried on the phone to 6 people and one of them was a real bitch.
Sorry guys. I promise I'll do your readings later in the week. The weekend is usually less stressful, so I will start on them by Friday or Saturday.
DH and I got into a fight because he yelled at me for "always losing things" - I lost my 25 pregnancy tests I bought online for $8, and the last time I lost something was like 5 months ago, so it was an asshole comment. And he is the one who lost our apartment keys about 5 times in the past 3 months, and his ex wife got ahold of our gate card (it is a gated apartment complex - so she can drive in to follow him whenever she wants now! She literally stalks him.).
DH went to his ex and his old house (she got their house in the settlement) to pick up furniture and some clothing, and DH let her grab his keys. He just left without them. F-ing IDIOT.
His ex is BPD and NPD (borderline personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder) as well as EXTREMELY bipolar and physically abusive. She has called the cops to report a fake domestic violence threat on him. DH had to appear before a magistrate to get the case dismissed. So him going there is ALWAYS STUPID. :doh:
DH also continues talking (=fighting with her) to her on the phone, since she's bringing up a bunch of post-divorce issues (mainly alimony), even though he could do it via email (and have her BS AS EVIDENCE AGAINST HER, ugh).
She verbally attack me, call me a whore, and tell him that I'm cheating on him (wtf, totally false!), and DH doesn't even defend me, probably (I don't know, but he gets all angry at me every time they talk/fight and then he accuses me of cheating). All DH has to say to her is "it's none of your business, I'm hanging up the phone if you continue talking about this." and then HANG UP THE F&*^KING PHONE IF SHE KEEPS TALKING ABOUT IT! :doh:
So, LOTS of drama. I'm sorry guys. I also might be pregnant - I missed AF (I think), and got a faint positive preg test. But I have long, irregular cycles so it's hard to tell - I don't even know when to test properly! So it's been really rough for me. I'll probably go for a blood test in a couple weeks if AF doesn't show up.
Sorry to dump all that on you guys! I needed to vent.
DH and I got into that stupid fight over me losing stuff. Then DH threatened to abandon me for two months (?!) because I pointed out his comment was mean ("you always lose stuff" - not helpful, and mean, and untrue). He fights dirty - learned it from the ex wife - I don't think he knows how to have a constructive discussion about issues at all. She was his first relationship ever, and I'm his second. He's 36!
He fights with me like I'm HER, literally. It scares me. DH also gets paranoid and delusional when angry - once, he convinced himself I quit BC six months before I told him I did (I quit in March! Why would I lie about that and then tell him I quit it later?!). We weren't ready for a kid until NOW!
So basically DH accused me of trying to get "oops pregnant" to f*&k both our lives up, six months ago? It's totally irrational. He told me he wants to have kids really badly and wanted to TTC now! He changes his mind whenever he wants to TTC or not when he's in a bad mood. He tells me "You're not ready to be a mother! You'd be a terrible mother! You're too selfish and depressed all the time!".
I do have depression, but haven't had problems recently. I'm on Pregnancy-safe medication for depression and I'm stable on them. It wouldn't affect me taking care of a LO. I really want a baby and it hurts so much when he says these things. It hurts really badly when he changes his mind too.
Ok, that was all waaaay more than you guys ever wanted to know or care about. I'm really sorry!
Thanks again for all your support and I SWEAR I will do your readings when I am calm (I meditate, which I'll try later tonight). I wish LOTS of baby dust to ALL of you who are TTCing or NTNPing!
I'm also having financial issues as I'm temporarily on disability (had a bad back injury in Feb) and they messed up my check for this month - making it difficult for DH and me to pay our rent.
I've called about 6 people trying to sort it out and get a reimbursement, but they said it will take 30 days, which means we'll have to pay rent late, with late fees.
So I cried on the phone to 6 people and one of them was a real bitch.
Sorry guys. I promise I'll do your readings later in the week. The weekend is usually less stressful, so I will start on them by Friday or Saturday.
DH and I got into a fight because he yelled at me for "always losing things" - I lost my 25 pregnancy tests I bought online for $8, and the last time I lost something was like 5 months ago, so it was an asshole comment. And he is the one who lost our apartment keys about 5 times in the past 3 months, and his ex wife got ahold of our gate card (it is a gated apartment complex - so she can drive in to follow him whenever she wants now! She literally stalks him.).
DH went to his ex and his old house (she got their house in the settlement) to pick up furniture and some clothing, and DH let her grab his keys. He just left without them. F-ing IDIOT.
His ex is BPD and NPD (borderline personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder) as well as EXTREMELY bipolar and physically abusive. She has called the cops to report a fake domestic violence threat on him. DH had to appear before a magistrate to get the case dismissed. So him going there is ALWAYS STUPID. :doh:
DH also continues talking (=fighting with her) to her on the phone, since she's bringing up a bunch of post-divorce issues (mainly alimony), even though he could do it via email (and have her BS AS EVIDENCE AGAINST HER, ugh).
She verbally attack me, call me a whore, and tell him that I'm cheating on him (wtf, totally false!), and DH doesn't even defend me, probably (I don't know, but he gets all angry at me every time they talk/fight and then he accuses me of cheating). All DH has to say to her is "it's none of your business, I'm hanging up the phone if you continue talking about this." and then HANG UP THE F&*^KING PHONE IF SHE KEEPS TALKING ABOUT IT! :doh:
So, LOTS of drama. I'm sorry guys. I also might be pregnant - I missed AF (I think), and got a faint positive preg test. But I have long, irregular cycles so it's hard to tell - I don't even know when to test properly! So it's been really rough for me. I'll probably go for a blood test in a couple weeks if AF doesn't show up.
Sorry to dump all that on you guys! I needed to vent.
DH and I got into that stupid fight over me losing stuff. Then DH threatened to abandon me for two months (?!) because I pointed out his comment was mean ("you always lose stuff" - not helpful, and mean, and untrue). He fights dirty - learned it from the ex wife - I don't think he knows how to have a constructive discussion about issues at all. She was his first relationship ever, and I'm his second. He's 36!
He fights with me like I'm HER, literally. It scares me. DH also gets paranoid and delusional when angry - once, he convinced himself I quit BC six months before I told him I did (I quit in March! Why would I lie about that and then tell him I quit it later?!). We weren't ready for a kid until NOW!
So basically DH accused me of trying to get "oops pregnant" to f*&k both our lives up, six months ago? It's totally irrational. He told me he wants to have kids really badly and wanted to TTC now! He changes his mind whenever he wants to TTC or not when he's in a bad mood. He tells me "You're not ready to be a mother! You'd be a terrible mother! You're too selfish and depressed all the time!".
I do have depression, but haven't had problems recently. I'm on Pregnancy-safe medication for depression and I'm stable on them. It wouldn't affect me taking care of a LO. I really want a baby and it hurts so much when he says these things. It hurts really badly when he changes his mind too.
Ok, that was all waaaay more than you guys ever wanted to know or care about. I'm really sorry!
Thanks again for all your support and I SWEAR I will do your readings when I am calm (I meditate, which I'll try later tonight). I wish LOTS of baby dust to ALL of you who are TTCing or NTNPing!
Hope this is your 
hun, it will a big positive to all the things you have on your plate right now x
I'm so sorry to do that to you guys!
I would also love a reading if it isn't too much trouble ,mine would also be if I will get pregnant again and if I were to have a healthy baby and if it is a boy or girl ,thanks so much in advance ,
