My husband and I have been together for 9 years. We never used protection, we were on and off TTC and letting nature take it's course. Neither of which were working. My husband wasn't wanting a baby as bad as I was! Every single month I over analyzed every single symptom I had. I would convince myself that "I gotta be pregnant this time!" But I always had this "feeling" that I really wasn't. Period came right on time every month and every month I would cry.
very heartbreaking not knowing whether or not you will ever have another baby (I have 1 by another man). I felt like I didn't have control over my life and my future. Also, just about every month I would take pregnancy tests, I would hold them up to the light, take them apart, you name it, I did it! Lol I was beyond obsessed!!! Well, a few weeks ago I started having Back pain, leg and hip pain, nausea, vomiting, headaches, mild fatigue, gagging during brushing teeth, sensitive teeth, sore boobs, weird ache in ovary & uterus, increase in sex drive, waking up at night to pee, hard time sleeping, and I craving A1!!! One night I drank a whole bottle!!! lol. I've had these symptoms before and WASNT pregnant, but this time it was different, I wasn't in a rush to take a pregnancy test. I never had that awful feeling that I was just setting myself up for a big let down (like I did every other month). When I did actually go to the store I tossed 3 pregnancy tests in the buggy without a problem. Normally I feel guilty waisting money on a test that's just going to be negative. I got home, took one of the 4 days sooner dollar store tests, I put it on the sink and I ACTUALLY WALKED AWAY this time lol, when I came back.....BAM!!!!! BFP! I automatically bursted out in tears, I was shaking so bad I couldn't even dial my husbands phone number. As I was on the phone with him I took the other 2, and each time I cried more lol. So I rushed to a clinic near by and got a 10 minute blood test. POSITIVE! I am now 5 weeks
got my first OB appointment in a few days.
I know many women out there have had a much harder time during TTC, a lot if different methods, procedures, fertility doctors and a lot of money forked out! And I know that their pain and heartache is a lot worse than mine!!!!! but DONT give up hope!!!!!! Don't allow yourself to believe that you will never have a child because miracles DO happen!!!!! The ones who have tried and tried are a lot braver than I am! I never wanted to put that much effort into it because I was afraid of an even bigger let down! You all are very strong! Stay strong because one day, you will be holding your beautiful baby reminiscing those days that you were so hurt and devastated, and you will wish that you didn't let your pain go that far.