wlovew
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So I had my donor sample in my instead cup in my left hand, preseed in the right. Positive OPKs all day (except FMU). EWCM, cervix is high, soft and WIDE OPEN, tonight was my night. I was getting ready to insert the softcup after inserting some preseed first..... and I DROP THE SOFTCUP, SPILLING MY SPERM ALL OVER MY BED. I am just beside myself with disgust, anger and disappointment with MYSELF. How could I be so DAMN STUPID and CARELESS!? DUMMY!! I tried to quickly scoop up what I could but the damage was done, my huge sample was dwindled down to literally just the goo left on the sides of the cup. I frantically got the softcup inserted anyway but I am fucking screwed this cycle, pardon my french. I am so fucking upset. I can't believe I just did that. I get way too damn tense and excited about this shit and I feel like I have to HURRY, HURRY, HURRY to keep the swimmers alive. I was sobbing hard for a good minute like someone had died. I was SO EXCITED that I may be getting to inseminate at the PERFECT TIME this cycle! FINALLY! And I knew for sure the softcups would be my savior and help me conceive!! I thought this was it for sure. I just can't believe I did this and I could literally punch myself in the face There is no chance in hell that what was salvaged was enough. I went from a HUGE amount to almost nothing. Next month my donor will be out of town for a couple of weeks and guess what, my predicted fertile window is right in the middle. I know I could look at this as a break from this emotionally distressful shit but I am just so upset.... I know you guys understand because you all want this too... I wish I could say I felt like there was a chance still but I just don't. I feel like I am going to throw up