i just want the innocence back.

[alysedelovely]

i am happy i am pregnant, but i cant get excited about the baby because i miscarried last time. everytime i go to to the toilet, i am thinking this might be it.. i'm just waiting for the blood..

i know its horrible and i've heard the heartbeat twice.. a very healthy 168! but i cant seem to get over the fact that i could lose this one too..
how do you all cope? i'm driving myself nuts.

 

[Lexi mummy]

my baby was stillborn in december 2008 and i am right at the stage in this pregnancy where she died. i am not coping but have no choice but to continue on

got no advice im afraid but no you are not alone x

 

[banana1975]

sadly for those of us who have suffered loss, the innocence really is lost. I have had a miscarriage and I have suffered the loss of my 7 week old full-term born son to a birth defect, so I am on eggshells every minute of the day not only thinking that I am going to miscarry (and I too have confirmed a heartbeat!), but I am afraid of everything else that can go wrong with the baby...a heartbeat doesn't gurantee a healty baby....at least from my experience....all we can do is try to be as positive as possible for our little bun's...so they don't feel our stress...take good care of our bodies, eat healthy, get exercise etc...and pray for the best....good luck to you.

 

[alysedelovely]

i just hate feeling like this, you know? i wish i could not worry and just float along like all the other pregnant people i see

 

[Mrs Doddy]

I wish things could be different too it sadens me to think that we somehow get through the mc's and then we still go hell now I just want to be happy

 

[alysedelovely]

me too

I want to stop freaking after every little thing ugh!

 

[goddess25]

I know how you feel I had a miscarriage then I got pregnant with my son and I threatened to miscarry but thankfully all was well but i spent the entire pregnancy doing knicker checks and expecting something to go wrong. It never and I have a wonderful son. I had another miscarriage in Jan and I know I am just going to be the same again. You are not alone in how you are feeling... i wish the same that you could just enjoy being pregnant without having to think these thoughts all the time. I imagine all mums who have experience a loss are exactly the same.

Hang in there, everything will be fine.

 

[Mummy2Asher]

i feel the same hunny, i wish i could enjoy being pregnant!
i always wish i could fast forward time and it be september and i could have this baby and to know everything is okay.
i *think* its normal to feel like this after a loss, well i hope so even though i drive myself crazy with this worrying! xxx

 

[rainbows_x]

I'm really sorry for your loss I know how hard it is, it's normal to be scared & worried.
You are almost 12 weeks, a big milestone, when I reached 12 weeks I felt I could relax alot.
I'm sure everything will be fine

 

[Jox]

like others have said the innocence is truely gone.

My son was still born 9 weeks ago at 36+2 weeks. Im only on week 7 of my second pregnancy so have 31 weeks of hell to live through first.

xxx

 

[TeenMommy410]

Alyse, i miscarried at 19 weeks
and now im pregnantt again, and am 33 weeks along
i am always freaking out over small things, thinking something still could go wrong

im here if you need a chat okay?