WILSMUM
Mum of 2
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hi
i don't really know what to say or how to start, its all still very raw, i lost my baby over the weekend i was 18 weeks but baby only measured 15 weeks.
I had no idea anything was wrong until i experienced some slight brown bleeding/discharge on saturday morning that was only there when i wiped after going to the toilet. I was convinced it was nothing and was just going to ignore it but so glad i didn't and that i did tell my dh and phoned the hospital and went and got checked out. it was then that they told us there was no heartbeat and we arranged to go in on monday for me to be induced but nature had other intentions, around half 5 sat night i started getting pains they came and went, contractions i guess, i kinda just thought it was normal and just got on with looking after my 2 other children but come half 9 i started shaking uncontrollable so dh started phoning round people to get someone to babysit just in case, he literally had been off the phone 2 minutes when i guess my waters broke, he got straight back on the phone i went up to the bathroom where i felt this kinda whoosh looked down and there was the baby, i called for dh he took one look and called for an ambulance, we had to wait over an hour for it to arrive during which time i delivered the baby and the afterbirth sat in the shower cubicle. i don;t think i will ever get the image of my tiny baby laying on the floor between my legs looking up at me out of my head. i had to have a scan at the hospital to make sure i had delivered everything and then stay in overnight. baby is being sent off for chromosone analysis and we'll get the results within the next 3 months.
i don't really know how i should be feeling or whati should be doing, i have 2 children already so have to get on with "normal" life for them and for a few seconds i feel like everything is "normal" and ok and then i remember and start welling up again!
I had an early mc at 5 weeks about 2 years ago and that was nothing compared tothis, this is the most awful thing. and the most ironic thing is that it is and will be the only time i have given birth naturall my 2 previous were c-sections.
i don't really know what to say or how to start, its all still very raw, i lost my baby over the weekend i was 18 weeks but baby only measured 15 weeks.
I had no idea anything was wrong until i experienced some slight brown bleeding/discharge on saturday morning that was only there when i wiped after going to the toilet. I was convinced it was nothing and was just going to ignore it but so glad i didn't and that i did tell my dh and phoned the hospital and went and got checked out. it was then that they told us there was no heartbeat and we arranged to go in on monday for me to be induced but nature had other intentions, around half 5 sat night i started getting pains they came and went, contractions i guess, i kinda just thought it was normal and just got on with looking after my 2 other children but come half 9 i started shaking uncontrollable so dh started phoning round people to get someone to babysit just in case, he literally had been off the phone 2 minutes when i guess my waters broke, he got straight back on the phone i went up to the bathroom where i felt this kinda whoosh looked down and there was the baby, i called for dh he took one look and called for an ambulance, we had to wait over an hour for it to arrive during which time i delivered the baby and the afterbirth sat in the shower cubicle. i don;t think i will ever get the image of my tiny baby laying on the floor between my legs looking up at me out of my head. i had to have a scan at the hospital to make sure i had delivered everything and then stay in overnight. baby is being sent off for chromosone analysis and we'll get the results within the next 3 months.
i don't really know how i should be feeling or whati should be doing, i have 2 children already so have to get on with "normal" life for them and for a few seconds i feel like everything is "normal" and ok and then i remember and start welling up again!
I had an early mc at 5 weeks about 2 years ago and that was nothing compared tothis, this is the most awful thing. and the most ironic thing is that it is and will be the only time i have given birth naturall my 2 previous were c-sections.