I want it even though I have the sleepless nights with my son. Before he was born I heard everything about rest now, you won't get it later but honestly I did not think I would get to have a healthy pregnancy let alone hold my child (4 MC) so because he was so wanted it was not a big deal to wake up in the middle of the night to feed him or to wake up early because he did. It was all worth it and I think that the harder you try for a baby the more you appreciate the little things. That is not to say that women who just get pregnant right off the bat do not appreciate it but even the temper tantrums of my son are appreciated because he is here for me to see them. Does that make sense?
It sure does!!! I was persuaded to have an abortion the 1st time I got pregnant and I tell you.... it was the TOUGHEST most HORRIBLE thing I've ever done to myself. I was sick with panic attacks and guilt for months and months so when I became pregnant again I out and out refused to hear anyones advice against my keeping my baby. I was single and having a very hard time with my son's father but I cherished the sleepless nights, the tender breastfeeding, the exhaustion, the crying, EVERYTHING! I did it all by myself and still can't take help from others because I want to be the one to experience it. Now he'll be four in December and I'm amazed by him everyday. I figure I owe it to myself and my son and my baby I never had to be the best mother I can be. So when I'm tired, beat down, lonely I remind myself how lucky I am to have my little man and I buck up, smile and relish being a mom.