I am so sorry.

We had our boys two years (short 3 weeks or we could have fought it in court, we hired a lawyer but couldn't even get to see a judge) and were almost finished our adoption process when CAS decided to move the kids. We think they may have went to family but aren't sure. I may change my mind but after that I don't ever want to risk my heart like that again. Mind you we had the boys for years and I thought there was nothing that would take them away from me, so maybe if I didn't actually have the children I would feel different.
I feel for you. It is so hard to have your heart filled up and then just crushed. It will take time to heal and then you will be able to decide what your next step is. I wish you luck.