I've got my anti-witch spray!

[wishnhoping]

Oh and btw Linz and G- sometimes... If ur lucky... It continues to happene even after baby! Haha

 

[gemmy]

oh gosh my bladder has never been the same since I had my son almost 2 years ago..... am always almost tiddling out - can't hold on as long!!! I don't remember it during pregnancy though. Just reading the last few posts is making me do the pelvic floor exercises I should have done back then, but I still give up after a couple....

 

[wishnhoping]

hahaha gemmy, I lost quite a bit of control after my son too...I still have a accidents if I sneeze too hard

 

[linz143]

OMG /facepalm

What have I done?!

 

[giraffes]

OMG /facepalm

What have I done?!

Yes Linz, you guessed correctly - I sneezed and wee came out. Just amazing.

And Wishin and Gemmy, thanks for the words of comfort - I shall never be the same again....!!!

 

[wishnhoping]

OMG /facepalm

What have I done?!

LMAO!!!!!

 

[wishnhoping]

omg /facepalm

what have i done?!

omg /facepalm

what have i done?!

Yes linz, you guessed correctly - i sneezed and wee came out. Just amazing.

And wishin and gemmy, thanks for the words of comfort - i shall never be the same again....!!!

anytime!!! Hehe

 

[wishnhoping]

CD20....4DPO....booooring

Hows everyone?

 

[Haleytivet]

CD21 8dpo today! Nothing new - lots of creamy CM, sore nips and cramping here and there...

Hope Nats is doing great!! I know she said she wouldn't get on today but I think I speak for everyone in saying we are thinking about you and hope this is a start to "positive" things heading your way!!!

xoxo

 

[linz143]

Crossing my fingers for you two ladies! And also sending positive vibes to our Nats who is hopefully relaxing and recovering quickly.

AFM - my heartburn has gone to a new level. I can't even eat half a cup of food without getting acid reflux, and because of it the smallest amount of food is making me feel extremely stuffed and unable to eat! I emailed my doctor today to see if I can start on Pepcid since the Tums are no longer cutting it, and if anything they make my nausea come back at the taste. This is horrible! I can't possibly eat all the nutrients I'm supposed to when half a cup of yogurt makes me feel like I just ate a 4 course meal!! I thought this wasn't supposed to happen until 3rd tri or something???

 

[wishnhoping]

Haley- I am having another slow day at work so I was stalking the symptom thread and you have the three most mentioned symptoms (creamy cm, sore nips, and cramps). I have NONE...blah! But yay for you really hoping that after all you had to go through this is it and you get your BFP!!!!!

Nats- thinking of oyu hope it all went well!

Linz- I cant help I had no ms with DS and didnt have heartburn until 3rd tri..hope u feel better!

 

[wishnhoping]

I dont know where to post this so I am going to post it here jsut to get it out of my head.

I am torn.

I feel like if I am optimistic and hopeful I will jinx it and get another dreaded BFN

then I feel if I am convincing myself that it wont ever happen and being negative that I am "poisoning" my mind and body and thus that wont be healthy either

I am going ot have to find a way to stop all this craziness. I want to leave BnB because its just consuming my life and feeding my ttc obsession but at the same time I want to follow your journeys what do I do?? How do I relax? How do I convince my self to just let go?

 

[linz143]

You know there was a point where I had to take a break. And being healthy in the mind and letting go of the obsessiveness of TTC is more important than following our journeys. You can always check back with us every week or month or however often you feel works for you. There was a time where I swore off the forums completely. It was right before I gave up entirely. Because the stress of it was taxing my body, my mind, and my relationship.

I was so upset over having to go through this whole thing each month that it's what led me to have an "I don't give a ****!!!" month. Don't TRY to take a month off. It doesn't work. When you get frustrated, angry, and depressed enough... you WILL take a month off and not care.... AT ALL. But there's no way to ease into that (unfortunately). You will either get a BFP and luck out, or you will stress yourself into oblivion before you have a meltdown that makes you stop caring.

I know this all sounds horrible, but I really believe these are the steps of TTC, just as if it were a 12 step drug/alcohol program or the stages of grief. Some women luck out before hitting the final stages and some of us have to endure every step of the journey.

So I guess I don't have any words to advise that will make this easier except to say... what you're going through is totally normal and natural. And when you want to have a melt down and not talk to us for a month we will TOTALLY understand. And then when you are feeling better and do want to talk to us and the forums, we will be waiting here with open arms.

 

[wishnhoping]

Linz I think you are right in the sense that I WANT to get away from all the ttc madness but that I havent hit my rock bottom (yay for comparing ttc to an addiction lol) so I wont and I will subject myself to this stress, and chaos until I do have a meltdown.

With all the stuff that has happened to DH this past year and a half I have kind of taught my self to become numb to certain feelings...and I have seen it in ttc because I sometimes feel numb when I get my BFN. I never cry, get mad, or have the reactions I feel should. I feel detached but also overly attached. Ugh I hate this.

 

[gemmy]

hey ladies... hope you are all well..

wishin, I know how you feel, I feel I spend too long on bnb at times and worry I am not conceiving whilst I am obsessing with temping/ff/bnb but really like the advice of linz above about not needing to try to give up - because sometimes I tell myself to limit myself on here - only come on in the evenings - but then I feel like I am denying myself and that makes me feel worse so I am letting myself catch up on here when I want to but at the same time I am noticing myself naturally spend less time in the mornings/daytime as I am just finding other things to do. But anyway I do know where you are coming from - ttc is so frustrating. Your whole life is broken into stages of the month and you feel like you are repeating over and over the same things. It's good to get away from it when you can. GL

 

[nats77]

Thank you ladies so much, I read ur post's late last night and they made me feel so emotional ( in a nice way ) so so nice to know you were all thinking of me.

Well I have great news they found and treated endometriosis! I had it at the back of my ovaries and on my cervix, but they managed to laser it away so now hopefully I have none! The doctor said once recovered I should be out of pain and ( here's the great bit ) I should conceive within 6 months! if I haven't then I have got an appointment with the specialist to look into why.
So I'm really happy with that outcome, I'm in a lot of pain which I hope will pass quickly but it was so worth it if it helps towards my bfp.

So ladies I am feeling positive for the future and I now think its a case of when I get my bfp not if!! Thanks again for all your kind words and thoughts it means so much. Love you guys lol x x x x x

 

[gemmy]

That is fantastic news nats, good luck with your bfp. and what a little cutie in your profile pic

 

[giraffes]

That's great news Nats, make sure you take it easy and look forward to getting the BFP in the next few months xxxx

 

[wishnhoping]

YAY NATS!!!! Thats great news! I am glad they found out the problem and you will see that bfp soon! HUGS


cd21, 5dpo...nothing but gas ...im sure u all wanted to know that

 

[nats77]

That is fantastic news nats, good luck with your bfp. and what a little cutie in your profile pic

Thanks Gemmy thats my youngest and he is pretty yummy, one of the many reasons why i want another soooooo badly lol xxxx