I've got my anti-witch spray!

[wishnhoping]

Today for the first time I actually cried at another fb pregnancy announcement... I usually get mad or jealous... Today I was just sad

It doesn't help that several people have gotten pregnant and are now ready to deliver their babies while I'm still trying

 

[LittleSpy]

Today for the first time I actually cried at another fb pregnancy announcement... I usually get mad or jealous... Today I was just sad

It doesn't help that several people have gotten pregnant and are now ready to deliver their babies while I'm still trying

 

[wishnhoping]

Haley great news on the hcg doubling!!!

I swear I'm not bitter about u, I just want to make that clear! U have been through such a hard journey to get here And I know u understand where I am coming from!

It's the oopsies and "it was our first try" that are making me so sad and not understand why...

 

[linz143]

Big hugs wishin. Just make sure when you go off on DH that it's at least 2 weeks from Ov so he has time to forget that you yelled at him... lol!

Haley - Exciting!!! I hope you are able to get a print out of the scan they do cause I will definitely want to see pics!! Also super glad to see your shiny new ticker up in your signature.

AFM I'm running around all crazy like getting ready for camping tomorrow, so if I don't respond till Sunday night that's why. Much love and luck to you all this weekend on your testing and BDing!

 

[nats77]

Today for the first time I actually cried at another fb pregnancy announcement... I usually get mad or jealous... Today I was just sad

It doesn't help that several people have gotten pregnant and are now ready to deliver their babies while I'm still trying

I know what u mean Hun, I'm going thru the same, a friend of mine has delivered and we thought we'd be having babies around the same time and I'm not even pregnant yet! so hard, our time will come I'm sure x x x

 

[nats77]

Congrats Haley, great news and thanks for updating x

Afm well I've lost my mojo! I think I've been kidding myself again this month, I just had a bit of hope because of my procedure, but I just don't think it's going to happen for me, feel sad but I am ready to accept it again, we're going on holiday in 3 weeks and I think the break will do us good, a bit of time to relax and spend time as a family. Can't wait actually at least we got something to look forward to, and you lovely ladies get a break from me so we all win lol x x x

 

[wishnhoping]

Bfn on $ store test.... Seeing as I am 12dpo... Well u know

The only other thing I can do is focus on my weight so whenever dh decides
He will do the stupid tests then the dr can treat
Me if need be. I go in for a us and
More blood work on cycle days 2,3,or 4 so kind of excited to rule out more things of possible

 

[LittleSpy]

Got an almost-positive opk this morning. Expect it will be positive after work. Guess I know what I'll be doing this evening.

Those of you who have been TTC for many months are so strong. I have a hard time imagining how I would react to thinking I was doing everything right each cycle and still getting bfns. Part of me hopes I don't have to find out how that feels and the other part feels terrible knowing and hoping that it may happen quickly for us when so many people struggle with it. I was on a BNB thread when TTC Maisie and 3 or 4 of us got a bfp the first or 2nd cycle and we had our babies and they were several months old before some people got their bfps. Maisie was 9 months old and I had baby fever again already when the last lady finally got her bfp. It makes me feel bad because it's so unfair. But at least, eventually, everyone on that thread did get a bfp.

 

[LittleSpy]

Cris - I still say you're not out until but I'm glad you're finding a silver lining even if she does show. I know you hate to lose to me in terms of weight loss, so.... I should probably let you know that I've lost 5.6 pounds in the last 3 weeks. I got off track with C25K so I'm starting week 2 tomorrow, probably, if you'd like to join me (unless you're already past that).

I should've said I'm taking the weight loss thing pretty easy this time. Now that I have a baby who hates sleeping and a full time job and truly understand what "I have no time to ___" means, I'm just going with whatever I can do without stressing myself about it too much. That mainly just involves frozen meals for most lunches and trying to eat no fast food or take out and not binging on candy. I've been eating pretty bad food like frozen pizza and ice cream, just small portions of it. Baby steps to really getting back on track. And I WILL count calories all the way through another pregnancy. Not gaining 40 pounds next time. Gross.

 

[gemmy]

ah Thats great that everyone got their bfp in the end little spy, hope the same can be said for this thread

Maybe it will happen on holiday nats!

Well 2dpo so in my 2ww! Spray me with the anti witch spray ladies! Fx for you wishing !

 

[nats77]

Bahaha 40 pounds try 60 plus lol I actually put on 4 and a half stone with my last baby! still carrying 2 stone of it 16 months later! Maybe I should focus on weight loss too! X x x

 

[nats77]

Pssst pssst psssst psssst hope that reaches you gemmy, good luck x x x x

 

[LittleSpy]

Good luck and , Gemmy! Looks like we'll be spending the majority of our 2ww together.

Nats, the part that's so frustrating for me is I had just lost 81 pounds before TTC. I gained like 7 pounds while TTC... (yes, 7 pounds in like 5 weeks) and then 40 more while pregnant. And..... I gained almost nothing during my 3rd trimester, 5-6 pounds if I remember correctly, soo.... most of the 40 was just due to me stuffing my face full of way too much food the first 6 months. And starting about 23 weeks, I'd get BH contractions when I exercised, so I used that as an excuse, too.

 

[wishnhoping]

Julie- Im sorry for venting...if you do get preggo on your first try I promise I will be jealous..but will be excited and happy for you just the same. What I feel is more of a 2 yr tantrum "its not fair" type of thing. Thank you for understanding. Not sure if you saw the posts where my sister recently got pregnant her first try. I am having more trouble dealing with it now then I did when she actually told me. I knew she started ttc becasue I figured out her fertile period for her and told her when to BD...I figured with my luck shed get pregnant first try and sure enough she did. I am totally happy for a new niece or nephew but I THINK what is bothering me about her pregnancy was that even though she knows I am struggling TTC and am going to a fertility specialist she never talked to me about how I was feeling in regards to her announcement. I guess my feelings are hurt at her lack of sympathy

Gemmy- hope your tww goes quikly and you get your BFP!

Nats how you doing hon?

Oh and I had a big crying session with my mom this morning after my BFN. This has been the first time that I have actually cried over a negative...I think its a combo of my sister getting pregnat, a bunch of fertilebook announcement, and several friends giving birth or about to give birth. I just recently started to tell my mom all this stuff and i could tell her heart was breaking for me and she told me I need to relax (***face palm**). I wish I could....oh I wish I could...

 

[nats77]

I'm ok wishn, a bit cross with myself for letting myself think that this was going to be my bfp. I went and bought a 5 pack of frer hpt's today and needless to say bfn!
I've also made a fundemental cock up by telling people that we were hoping for another soon, over a year ago now! So I constantly get asked "your not pregnant yet then" and "when you gonna have this next one then" and " I spose you've given up trying now" I seriously feel like screaming at them, then there's the close friends and family with their " just relax it will happen" " your probably trying to hard" " maybe it's just not meant to be"
I mean seriously " feck off" I'm sorry I know it's my fault for telling people but I've never been thru this before, but please just mind your own business! If and when I fall I will tell you in my own good time! Rah

Sorry ladies but it's good to get it off my chest x x

 

[wishnhoping]

BIG HUGS NATS

I seriously need to punch the next person who tells me to relax though...dont they think I WANT to relax? SHEEEESH!

 

[nats77]

I know it's so annoying! I'm like oh yeah why didn't I think of that! Lol x x

 

[LittleSpy]

Cris, please don't be sorry for venting. Maybe I'm wrong, but I think that's kind of the point of being here. I know if I was in a long-term ttc situation I would feel the same way about births and announcements. I so hope everything works out for you soon.

 

[nats77]

Wss^^^^^

 

[LittleSpy]

Hmm. My nearly-positive opk this morning turned into a definitely negative opk this evening. Blargh! Guess we'll see what tomorrow's temp says. Either that was the shortest LH surge ever or it was a fake out.