IVF/ICSI/FET Cycle Starting November... Anyone else? - 4 BFN, 6 BFP, 1 angel!

[teapot]

...my injections/drugs kit arrived on Saturday. looks mostly quite innocent, there's an autoinjector which we'll learn how to use next Monday, But....

Some of the needles are HHHUUUUGGGGEEEE!! 18G! they're really quite thick & scary looking. I'm hoping they've made a mistake...

 

[Megg33k]

Yippee Megg, you don't have to wait as long as you thought. We'll be on a similar timeline then...
I'm on DR from 8th, scan on 24th & I assume if all DR'd ok, I start stimms that day???

So guessing EC would be w/c 6th Dec - it will be either a very drunk Christmas or a very sober one (fx).

One of my best friends' weddings is on 29th Dec, so that could be awkward...

I'm going away for New Year, part leisure/part work so at least if it fails I can walk on a nice cold beach everyday & blow the cobwebs away.

xx

Ooh.. Very similar schedule! Good times!

...my injections/drugs kit arrived on Saturday. looks mostly quite innocent, there's an autoinjector which we'll learn how to use next Monday, But....

Some of the needles are HHHUUUUGGGGEEEE!! 18G! they're really quite thick & scary looking. I'm hoping they've made a mistake...

18? Uhm... I'll check my stuff and see if I have 18's and what they're for! BRB

 

[Megg33k]

Oh... And, I think this proves that we'll ALL get our BFP right away!

Being stressed 'might help IVF women get pregnant'

 

[Megg33k]

...my injections/drugs kit arrived on Saturday. looks mostly quite innocent, there's an autoinjector which we'll learn how to use next Monday, But....

Some of the needles are HHHUUUUGGGGEEEE!! 18G! they're really quite thick & scary looking. I'm hoping they've made a mistake...

I do have 18G's... You won't be putting them into your skin! LOL They're to withdraw the progesterone from the vial. You'll switch to a much smaller needle to inject it!

 

[fluffystar]

Fluffy I hope that O has happened for you over the weekend. Let us know the latest

Nothing, not at all, zero, crap body. Im fed up, its day 28 and I feel quite a failure before I have even started. I do keep having ewcm on and off but it never leads anywhere. My clinic have cut off dates for starting a cycle because of christmas closing times. Knowing my luck I will finally be ready only to be told "oh sorry you are too late". I know that the more anxious I am about it the less chance I have of O'ing but I cant help it. If I feel this rubbish at the disappointment of my body letting me down and not O'ing I just dont know how I would cope if we go through this and its negative. Its giving me second thoughts and the only think that keeps me going is how I would feel if we dont give it a go.

I didnt even get a chance to ring the clinic either. Will hve to do that tomorrow. Sorry for being grumpy today

 

[Wallie]

I'm sorry Fluffy about not o'ing and maybe, possibly not going ahead this cycle.

I had my appt on Thursday and got bloods taken for HIV, Hep C,, AMH, etc and I just knew the minute the nurse said that it will take 3-4 weeks for the results, that we wouldn't be going ahead as I'd hoped. I'm so disappointed you wouldn't believe it. Spent Thursday afternoon in bed hiding. I just couldn't help it and I couldn't stop being so upset. OH seemed to just shrug it off too, which didn't help.

So looks like I won't be getting to do IVF until January. Sorry for being miserable, I don't really want to do IVF but I don't not want too either. It's just waiting, waiting, waiting all the time. I've had enough of it.

 

[teapot]

I do have 18G's... You won't be putting them into your skin! LOL They're to withdraw the progesterone from the vial. You'll switch to a much smaller needle to inject it!

Ooh, Thank God. I hope that's why Ive got them!! Thank you for easing my mind!

x

 

[Megg33k]

I'm sorry Fluffy about not o'ing and maybe, possibly not going ahead this cycle.

I had my appt on Thursday and got bloods taken for HIV, Hep C,, AMH, etc and I just knew the minute the nurse said that it will take 3-4 weeks for the results, that we wouldn't be going ahead as I'd hoped. I'm so disappointed you wouldn't believe it. Spent Thursday afternoon in bed hiding. I just couldn't help it and I couldn't stop being so upset. OH seemed to just shrug it off too, which didn't help.

So looks like I won't be getting to do IVF until January. Sorry for being miserable, I don't really want to do IVF but I don't not want too either. It's just waiting, waiting, waiting all the time. I've had enough of it.

That's PRECISELY how I felt when they pushed me back a month! Why on earth does it take so freakin' long to get your results? Mine come back same day!!! And, big to you for having to wait again!

I do have 18G's... You won't be putting them into your skin! LOL They're to withdraw the progesterone from the vial. You'll switch to a much smaller needle to inject it!

Ooh, Thank God. I hope that's why Ive got them!! Thank you for easing my mind!

x

No problem! I thought I remembered seeing HUGE ones that I didn't have to use to inject myself!

 

[Blue12]

Not to scare you but I had to use huge ones to inject progesterone. Hopefully you don't though. Sometimes there is a larger needle just to draw up or mix an injection.
xo

 

[caroleb73]

Fluffy I hope that O has happened for you over the weekend. Let us know the latest

Nothing, not at all, zero, crap body. Im fed up, its day 28 and I feel quite a failure before I have even started. I do keep having ewcm on and off but it never leads anywhere. My clinic have cut off dates for starting a cycle because of christmas closing times. Knowing my luck I will finally be ready only to be told "oh sorry you are too late". I know that the more anxious I am about it the less chance I have of O'ing but I cant help it. If I feel this rubbish at the disappointment of my body letting me down and not O'ing I just dont know how I would cope if we go through this and its negative. Its giving me second thoughts and the only think that keeps me going is how I would feel if we dont give it a go.

I didnt even get a chance to ring the clinic either. Will hve to do that tomorrow. Sorry for being grumpy today

Hey Fluffy I am so sorry to hear that your body is being a complete pig and not playing ball. I know how upsetting all of this is as we build up so much hope on our next line of treatment working and when things don't go to plan we crash.

I am not sure if you have tried acupunture? I am a real believer as had this when I first started TTC to balance my hormones and regulate my cycle and it really worked and got rid of my painful periods that I had suffered with all my life!! I am also having this down when I am in London for my IVF. I would see if you can find a good practioner in your area and go see them they maybe able to bring on the O that you so desperately need to happen to get the IVF started.

But please do ring the clinic first as they may tell you that you can start anyway.

Keeping everything crossed for you honey and please let us know how you get on

 

[caroleb73]

I'm sorry Fluffy about not o'ing and maybe, possibly not going ahead this cycle.

I had my appt on Thursday and got bloods taken for HIV, Hep C,, AMH, etc and I just knew the minute the nurse said that it will take 3-4 weeks for the results, that we wouldn't be going ahead as I'd hoped. I'm so disappointed you wouldn't believe it. Spent Thursday afternoon in bed hiding. I just couldn't help it and I couldn't stop being so upset. OH seemed to just shrug it off too, which didn't help.

So looks like I won't be getting to do IVF until January. Sorry for being miserable, I don't really want to do IVF but I don't not want too either. It's just waiting, waiting, waiting all the time. I've had enough of it.

Hi Wallie

Sorry to hear the news but you may want to double check with them. Sorry I can't remember if you are going private or NHS funded? If private then all of your bloods should be back within 5 days. I had my AMH done privately and it only took that time but I managed to get my HIV and Hep tests done on the NHS through my GP and those only took 1 week to come back. I really cannot see why it would take 3-4 weeks so please push them on this. You are still in with a chance of it happening before Christmas.

As for OH, sometimes they just don't cope with all of this as well as we think, he may seem to be shrugging it off but deep down he may want it to start immediately like you but guys can sometimes feel so powerless and removed from the whole process. After all everything is happening to us and they just have a couple of tests and then give their "donation" whilst they have to watch us go through everything medically and emotionally and they feel there is little they can do to help us.

Stay strong my friend and push for the results so you can start asap, a very good saying is "if you don't ask you don't get" so being assertive can pay off.

Take care

 

[Nvr2Late]

Fluffy, that really blows... So sorry to hear your body is going rogue this month. I know it doesn't help now, but when you do get pregnant, none of this will matter in the slightest. Big, big hug to you!

I had my sono yesterday and everything looks fine. I was upset to find out my antral follicle count is really low this month. It looks like my age is catching up with me. The main thing keeping me cheerful is the fact that I went to a Psychic Fair last weekend and two different psychics told me I would have 2 children. I so hope they are right!!!! One child would be fantastic. Two would be divine.

 

[Megg33k]

Sorry to hear we have some bodies not cooperating! Perhaps they took lessons from mine? I know it was similarly frustrating in Oct!

 

[Wallie]

Thanks Caroleb, yeh we're paying for our treatment as I can't wait but it is through the NHS. They have been pretty useless all the way through and I've chased and chased for results in the past, IUI appointments etc, it's hard going. I do hope that the test results will come in quicker and they will phone and say I can start before Christmas but I doubt that very much. I do hope however I get the results through by the end of November and depending on my cycle I could start down reggin before Christmas, at leasy that would get the ball rolling and I'd be happy. I'm actually thinking I could be depressed or I'm just not happy with my situation. I'm quite okay at work but when I get home I'm so unhappy, very quiet and I just don't want to do anything. I'm even putting on some weight but I'm determined that's not going to happen.

Anyway I hope I am depressed and once I get that BFP I'll be so happy, otherwise I'm in deep trouble!

 

[fluffystar]

Wallie - sorry to hear you are feeling so down Its so hard when we have such expectations for timescales etc and then you are left hanging. At least when you have a date you will have something to work to. I have no idea what is happening right now and its really getting me down . I thought I would have started down regging now but my body is having none of it and wont ovulate. Im too terrified to ring the FS incase they just say I cant do it this cycle as my body is playing up! In my head we are starting this side of christmas and I cant accept that that might not be the case - not yet anyway.

This whole IVf thing and the not knowing when things will happen, let alone whether they will work, really messes with your head. I hope that you feel better soon

 

[Blue12]

Any news on the ov front fluffy? What are their plans or next steps hun?

I go tomorrow/today lol to find out if I get to start DR tomorrow. Yikes fxd.

 

[Megg33k]

Yay for DR'ing!

 

[caroleb73]

Hey Wallie I totally understand on the depression, earlier this year I really was not in a good place at all. I would just cry and get upset the whole time about TTC and why things were not going my way and thought that it would never happen for me. It started affecting my relationship with DH as he noticed I was always miserable and felt useless in trying to lift my mood. I felt inadequate as couldn't do the most natural thing in the world and get pregnant. Then I realised that the only people suffering was me and my poor DH. I took charge and pushed for treatment paths to happen and read a great deal so that I felt like I was more in control and informed. I know that it is so so hard and there are times when you feel totally crushed by it all but please try to do a small thing each day that will make you smile and remember that you have come such a long way on this journey. You are nearly there honey you are in the final straights and you need to remain positive and believe that it will happen for you very soon. IVF is really tough on you physically and mentally and you need to gather all your strength so that you can succeed. Remember we are all here to support you through this

Blue hope the appointment goes well today and you start DR

Fluffy I am so sorry your body is still not playing ball, this TTC journey is just so tough and makes no sense at times. I pray that your ovaries sort themselves out very soon and you get to start your DR.

AFM today is my last day at work and I will now be flying to London tomorrow. Really can't wait to see my family and be around them and my friends when going through the IVF treatment. I think that being at my family home will really help with achieving a positive outcome. I will make sure I check in most days and keep updated with everyones news.

Take care and have a great day

 

[Wallie]

Thanks Carol, that's good advice, I just now have to let myself get on with it I suppose. I need a good kick up the arse afterall it's not the end of the world is it.

 

[fluffystar]

I have been terrified of ringing the fertility clinic in case they said I couldnt go ahead this cycle as im already on cd30! Stupid I know, but I plucked up the courage today and they were lovely! First the nurse I spoke to said to wait a few more days then ring on mon if no ov and they would get me in for a scan. Then she rang back after checking with the consultant and he said just start the suprecur to down regulate today!!!!!!

OMG I have suddenly started to panic now! I have been concentrating so much on trying to ovulate that I completely forgot that after I have O'd I will start injections! Ahhh. He had said that seeing as a week ago I had a 14mm follie I may either have missed O or that starting the injections sometimes jump starts it!?! Cant quite see how but hey im not the specialist. So tonight it al begins and then if AF hasnt come in 10 days they will scan me to se what im up to. Finally it is falling into place!

Hope that everyone else is doing ok Blue, how did your appointment go?