It is definitely going to be a case of quality over quantity for us 
having a really hard time. feel like i'm having breakdown, i just can't stop crying.
bfn. they put my test date for sunday as that's the 12dpt, and the last possible chance of a positive. so that makes today 9dpt and there should be enough hcg to detect by now
i feel like my whole world has collapsed. i still have to take the shitty meds to be on the safe side and they are just making it worse as they're serving no purpose at all. the progesterone is really not helping the depression. and because i'm on the prog i won't start bleeding.
i don't know which way to turn or how to deal with this.
Mrs F-I totally understand what you are going through. I am 8dp3dt and though I have not tested I am so scared as I have no symptoms. I am 100% sure that its not worked. I can feel it in my heart. I have been crying since yesterdayMy OTD is 29th which is actually 16 day post transfer and it is so unfair that I will have to continue the meds even though nothing will come out of it. Has ur cramping stopped btw? I had major cramping till 5 day post transfer but now its all gone. Am totally symptomless. And in the one short pregnancy that I have had I knew I was pregnant even before testing. All this is so heartbreaking
Miss Monty - Congrats on being PUPO!!!!!!!!!! (will do updates tomorrow)
MrsF - Sorry you are feeling like this hun, its a nightmare i know. I had a BFP 2 days later than AF was due and amounted in nothing so i know what disappointment is like. Its not over until AF though so hang in there x
Glitterqueen - I understand what you are going through i was driving myself crazy about testing when i had all my cycles so i just did. I tested out the progesterone of 10,000 IU within 4 days (suppositories) but the injections take a lot longer and never really left my system until after OTD!
Feebee - Your very welcome hun.... yes i am hoping for a textbook thaw as well! It would be nice to have a bit of a break for a change! x
Doodar - I cannot believe your work colleagues... no actually yes i can because when i went back to work after my BFP the first time my stomach was still bloated and one girls said "have you seen the size of Sammy's GUT?" and the other said something similar. I was fuming! AT about 9 weeks i told them cos i couldnt stand the comments!!!
Britt - How you feeling hun? Apart from shocked, amazed and happy!!! ha ha x
Megg33 - Oooh all systems go hun, will update you on the first page shortly.... not long until your jabbing away now! Good luck hun x
Tory - I had to laugh about you taking your first injection in a Spanish petrol station... ha ha. Good luck hun x
Looknomore - Dont worry about the symptoms, i think that most are meds related anyway and there have been loads of people on here that have had symptoms and BFN and no symptoms and BFP.... there doesnt seem to be much consistancy! I had the same symptoms with both IVF's, one BFP and one BFN! Good luck hun x
ICI - Not long till EC now... bet you will be glad when thats over eh? I am always glad when i get to that stage as ET is pretty relaxing. I hate EC though but thats because I have always been kept awake, this time i will be sedated (probably so i dont knock the doctor out lol) x
DillyC - Nice to hear from you again! Same as ICI... good luck and not long now. A cycle buddy too! Great stuff!!!! x
MySillyGirls - Nice to see you are moving on and starting a new protocol next month... all the very best with the next cycle hun. We are all still here for you... x
Leanne - Welcome to the thread hun and good luck for EC tomorrow... i always dread it as well but really its all over in about 20 mins (thank god) Good luck for lots of eggies! x
Maxxi - Yes i do hun... hee hee....How you doing? x
AFM - Well the scan is tomorrow but im dreading it because OH started this new job about a month ago and has already said he cannot take me to the hospital Tues or Weds next week. The last FET was 6 days after the scan but i dont know if this will be the same this time or not? I dont know how i will get there if not... i dare not drive into the centre of Rotterdam cos the TomTom never works there and I have no idea where it is and there are no trains to that part of the city and no buses directly there. My apt is at 11.20am tomorrow. I will try and update after but it wont be easy as i am going straight back to work so it might be later in the day. I'm worried now about what day it will be on...I guess we will just have to see.
Good luck to anyone i have missed..... all those PUPO ladies and pregnant ladies and everyone in general. I promise to update the main page tomorrow!!!! xxx
Sammy- thanks for ur words of encouragement. I am seriously on the verge of giving up. Its just that in my last pregnancy which happened on an IUI, I had symptoms from day 5 post ovulation- majorly sore boobs and nipples, I was feeling super horny (which i still am but that must be because of the stupid viagra. ANyway its not as if I need this right now), Frequent urination- but I have it this time also because of the stupid meds. So- the only major symptom which I had was sore boobs and that it totally absent this time. Am so tempted to test but know there is no point as the meds will continue anyway and I will only feel more trapped in the situation
I know what you mean about the sore boobs... with my DD they were really sore and since we were not TTC it was 6 weeks before i tested. With my first IVF they were the same and was BFP and then with the second IVF they were again and i tested BFP. Then the next day I woke up and they were not sore and i panicked. The test got lighter and by the next day was BFN. I believe it was a chemical. BUT no pregnancy is the same and some people dont get any symptoms and thats what i keep in mind. I think the meds confuse people as well. I had the same symptoms with both IVF's and one was BFP and the other BFN. I hope you are feeling better today hun
, then I have ET at 3pm tomorrow all being well. I just want that phone call in the morning to be a good phone call! Until then I just have to switch off, relax 
and get through the day without mithering!
x x x looknomore x x x Please please please don't apologise cherub x x x i can empathise with how you are feeling. I understand that there is nothing i can say to help you feel better sweetheart. I can hear your pain and frustration. and again, please don't apologise x x x looknomore, thinking of you hun x x x i'm in a state of shock. i was 10 million % sure it hadn't worked. I've been feeling ropey for a few days, but just put it down to stress and depression. Yesterday, I even wrote a list of reasons why dh and i shouldn't have kids and all the things we'd do in our new-direction life...
