Hiya Ladies!
Sorry i'm only just replying, we go on hols early hours of the morning and yesterday was complete chaos!
Ok, well here goes.
Went in for EC on 9th Feb. As you would expect I was a bit nervous as I really didn't know what to expect. I was taken in to the EC theatre and the last thing I remember was talking to this lovely anesthesist........ then it was all over. Woke up in the recovery room with a big smile on my face, in total relief that i'd done it. My mind was racing with happy thoughts of finally getting the much longed for BFP.
After a few minutes I was wheeled back in to my room where DP was waiting. It was about this time when it all started to go down hill.
I had some pain in my lower abdoman, but just assumed this was beacuse the anesthetic was wearing off. I mentioned it to the nurse and she just said they'd keep an eye on it and it was nothing to worry about. The pain just got worse and worse and before I knew it it was going all up my right side. The only was I can describe it is like having mega mega painful trapped wind from right under my boobs, all down right side, in to my pelvis. I actually though I just needed to trump (TMI I know). The nurse tried to sit me up and I immediately nearly passed out. Before I knew it I was hucked up to a drip and being given morphine injections. I had doctors and nurses in the room trying to figure out what was wrong. The pain had now spread up my neck, I remember everything that was said but didn't have a clue who I was taking to. My blood pressure was very low and I felt the worst I have ever felt in my entire life.
An ultra sound scan showed massive internal bleeding, so it appears that when they went in to collect my eggs, they nicked an artery too and the blood was leaking up in to my body.
I was rushed to hospital were I stayed for about a week. It took me over 2 months to get back on my feet, was a very traumatic experience for DP and I and it took me a really long time to get my head around what had happened.
I can't really explain the emotions I went through but I almost felt like all that was for nothing as we weren't able to have ET. I was angry with the clinic and to a certain degree I still am. not so much at the clinic, at the doctor who conducted the procedure. I have completely lost all confidence in her abilities as a consulant. Rightly or wrongly so, this is just the way I feel. Our consultant (who is different to the one who did EC) has assured us that the chance of this happening are very small but unfortunately for us it happened. I have been toying with the idea of the the clinic and going else where but I still haven't come to any decision on this..... any of your views would be greatly appreciated.
DP has been my absolute rock, I really couldn't have pulled myself back from this without him!!! As we haven't really told anyone about the IVF it's almost like non of this has ever happened as I've not spoken about it to anyone other than family. It has been very hard trying to explain why I haven't been well and there have been times when i've just wanted to talk about it but I've been so worried about scaring/ worrying anyone who's having IVF that I just decided to keep it all in.
I really want say a massive thank you to you all for allowing me to tell you my story. I am actually crying writing this as it have been a massive weight lifed to be finally able to talk about it! I hope I haven't totally scared you all now!!
Well, as I said I will be jetting off tomorrow so will do my best to get on here whilst I'm away. So you all will know know why i've chosen to have a little holiday before we have FET. DP and I will certainly be making the most of what will hopfully be our last holiday as a 2.
Sending you all massive sprinkles of baby dust and I hope you all do well with your cycles whilst i'm away.
Love Chesca xxxx