So I'm pretty much having a full-on emotional break down today!!!
I am super sick and all of the mucus is resulting in a full day of throwing up. On top of all that, I called my mom because I was so miserable and she came over and pretty much made me feel horrible about myself.
In an attempt to make a long story short, it has been a really tough year. Everyone in both my and DH's family has had babies (like seven different couples) while we have been trying longer than any of them and have had to go through major trials just to get to this point. It has been very painful for me to be around all of the babies. Even now, I am still having a tough time. Emotions during pregnancy after infertility is more complicated than people might think. Anyway, even though I have been vomitting all day, my mom chose today to basically confront and chastize me about why I don't lather attention on my new great-nephew (yes, I'm a great aunt. Another long story). I have really just been trying to find some space in which to start my emotional healing process. We are ever so greatful for our pregnancy and for the two babies that are growing healthy so far. Even so, I still have a lot of fear and anxiety and emotionally, I'm just not "better" yet. I just wish everyone would just leave me alone and let me heal! No one in my entire family understands and now I am worried they have all been gossiping about me. Feeling aweful about myself, sick, and nauseous. Plus, it is DH's birthday and I am in no shape to do anything nice for him. He basically is just listening to me cry.
I know what a bummer that is. You have 6 frozen bundled of hope, so when you're ready, you can begin to focus on the next try.
First! Glad you are back to TTCing!
I'm going to ask.
Good luck and baby dust to you for this cycle!! I hope you get a BFP!! 
It is perfectly acceptable for you to be selfish right now and focus on YOUR babies and no one else's. Don't let anyone make you feel bad for have a difficult time with your infertility journey. I've watched countless family members and friends have babies (most without trying or even wanting them) since we've been trying and it's REALLY HARD. It's ok to not always be ok with it. It's ok to avoid babies. Family should be understanding, but let's be honest, often times they just don't understand. Try not to worry if they are gossiping about you. That's their issue...you've done nothing wrong. Sending you big big 
it's okay" really like what the hell?!?!?! I just about lost it! I threw my phone so far and hard that it almost shattered lol we all have these days, they aren't easy but know that ur not allow 
I started crying! I can't believe my eyes!!!! Beta is tomorrow morning!
