Adorable pic Lesh!
Mushy, so sorry you didn't get your girl. I understand your feelings all too well, and fear going through it, and being disappointed again! It's ok to be upset, disappointed, guilty, because in a way you are dealing with a loss, the loss of a dream of having a little girl.
Btw, just wanted to mention that red raspberry leaf tea isn't supposed to start labor if you are low risk and have a healthy pregnancy, that's actually a huge myth. What it does do is strengthen the uterus and bring more blood to it. It's great for women to drink pregnant or not pregnant because it keeps the reproductive system healthy.
I started drinking it while pregnant with my son from 20 weeks until I went into labor at 40 weeks exactly. Red raspberry leaf tea helps make labor more smoothe, and pushing easier on your part, so I definitely plan on drinking it again. Though I wouldn't recommend this to the ladies who are high risk until you are full term.