Jennifurball
Mother of 1 and a bump!
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Can't put pics up yet cos I'm on my phone and have to be kept in overnight cos she had meconium in her water. Basically I did it all with zero pain relief, not by choice. Woke up in AGONY at 1.50, went to hospital about 4ish and my waters broke in triage and I was pushing! They said I was fully dilated and tough luck about ANY pain relief. In the end I BEGGED for forceps, it was horrible, truly horrible but I just couldn't push hard enough, I was pushing for over 2 hours, and had her at 7.35am, she weighed 7lb 10oz and she is stunning, I can't wait to share pics. Seriously though, and I mean this, I am NEVER going through that again. Sorry for all the caps but it really was the worst experience of my life and I am only just coming to now. I feel in shock with what I had to go through. They didn't even let me have gas and air but offered it for the stitches, I declined, I had gone through enough. Honestly girls, don't delay in going to hospital if you are crying with pain like me, I threw up out of my bedroom window lol. The tens machine didn't even have time to work so it was truly traumatic.
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UPDATE!!
Well we only got home last night, was horrendous, I got really emotional because I thought I was getting depression and getting tearful, just wanted to get home then told twice I could go, then I couldn't, so only got home after 7pm last night.
She is a total doll, very cuddly and clingy though bless her. Feeding isn't too bad although I am combining at the moment because she doesn't latch long before falling asleep then ends up screaming with hunger. She loves her cuddles though.
Although I had a pretty quick labour, I had no pain relief at all because I just woke up in agony, there was no build up. I tried my tens machine but there wasn't enough time for it to become effective. I was home 2 hours in agony before I went to hospital. In so much pain I cried and was sick but still convinced they would send me back home.
I hid in the toilets in triage cos there was another girl there and felt I was being overdramatic and showing myself up, then I had a massive urge to push, my waters went everywhere, I was screaming in agony, came back out and told them I am pushing, the midwives were practically laughing at me like I was playing up, but then they got me on the bed, examined me and said sorry too late for pain relief, you are fully dilated and ready to push.
As I had been in pain from before 2, this was like 5am now and I was so tired from the pain so when it came to pushing, I was feeling weak and let myself down really, although her head was about half and inch from coming out but she still wasn't round the bend and I just couldn't do it although the doctor came in and said she can see her going down, I was just begging for help and she was saying you still need to push even with the instruments, I was so fed up by then I just said do it, and begged for forceps. I was pushing for over 2 hours and it was so important I got her out but I just couldn't do it unassisted.
So she cut me and got to work, it hurt a million times more but it was the only way to get her out. I felt her head stuck between my legs for ages before my next contraction and it felt so weird but knew there wasn't long, so I gave a few more pushes and got her body out, the relief I felt I can not explain, I was sooooooooooo glad it was over but felt traumatised so I didn't get the rush of OMG and I didn't cry or anything, but they put her straight on me and I could not believe how tiny she looked. She is stunning.
Took ages to be stitched up and it wasn't nice but I had her in my arms to distract me. I am getting all the rushes of love now I am home and relaxed with her. I didn't enjoy staying in and got treated like shite for wanting bottles (even a visitor from the bay across gave me the evils when he saw me with a bottle and said "SHE'S bottle feeding") - how I never kicked off with him I do not know.
She is happy at home now anyway. I am still trying to bf but got her some formula in, she has been so much more contented since.
Here is an album I made of her, there is also a video of her enjoying her swing lol, she loves it. https://s804.photobucket.com/albums/yy322/jennyburton/Scarlett%20Victoria%20Grace/
It will take a while to get over what I have been through, and I know I won't do it again, it was horrible. I was told so many times the pushing was a relief but to me it wasn't, it felt impossible and torture.
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UPDATE!!
Well we only got home last night, was horrendous, I got really emotional because I thought I was getting depression and getting tearful, just wanted to get home then told twice I could go, then I couldn't, so only got home after 7pm last night.
She is a total doll, very cuddly and clingy though bless her. Feeding isn't too bad although I am combining at the moment because she doesn't latch long before falling asleep then ends up screaming with hunger. She loves her cuddles though.
Although I had a pretty quick labour, I had no pain relief at all because I just woke up in agony, there was no build up. I tried my tens machine but there wasn't enough time for it to become effective. I was home 2 hours in agony before I went to hospital. In so much pain I cried and was sick but still convinced they would send me back home.
I hid in the toilets in triage cos there was another girl there and felt I was being overdramatic and showing myself up, then I had a massive urge to push, my waters went everywhere, I was screaming in agony, came back out and told them I am pushing, the midwives were practically laughing at me like I was playing up, but then they got me on the bed, examined me and said sorry too late for pain relief, you are fully dilated and ready to push.
As I had been in pain from before 2, this was like 5am now and I was so tired from the pain so when it came to pushing, I was feeling weak and let myself down really, although her head was about half and inch from coming out but she still wasn't round the bend and I just couldn't do it although the doctor came in and said she can see her going down, I was just begging for help and she was saying you still need to push even with the instruments, I was so fed up by then I just said do it, and begged for forceps. I was pushing for over 2 hours and it was so important I got her out but I just couldn't do it unassisted.
So she cut me and got to work, it hurt a million times more but it was the only way to get her out. I felt her head stuck between my legs for ages before my next contraction and it felt so weird but knew there wasn't long, so I gave a few more pushes and got her body out, the relief I felt I can not explain, I was sooooooooooo glad it was over but felt traumatised so I didn't get the rush of OMG and I didn't cry or anything, but they put her straight on me and I could not believe how tiny she looked. She is stunning.
Took ages to be stitched up and it wasn't nice but I had her in my arms to distract me. I am getting all the rushes of love now I am home and relaxed with her. I didn't enjoy staying in and got treated like shite for wanting bottles (even a visitor from the bay across gave me the evils when he saw me with a bottle and said "SHE'S bottle feeding") - how I never kicked off with him I do not know.
She is happy at home now anyway. I am still trying to bf but got her some formula in, she has been so much more contented since.
Here is an album I made of her, there is also a video of her enjoying her swing lol, she loves it. https://s804.photobucket.com/albums/yy322/jennyburton/Scarlett%20Victoria%20Grace/
It will take a while to get over what I have been through, and I know I won't do it again, it was horrible. I was told so many times the pushing was a relief but to me it wasn't, it felt impossible and torture.
.. Enjoy her and I can't wait to see pics. Well done chick.. x x
Congratulations, sorry it was awful for you xxx
Big congrats, cant wait for piccys xx
