Jessie's Journey

[PrincessTaz]

I always say I'm going to try and relax more with ttc but it never happens. It's so hard to relax when you're so aware of your own and body and fertility signs. I am deffo relaxing this cycle seen as we're not taking clomid this month. Not even buying opks etc because if they're in the house I will pee on them lol x

 

[jessieles]

That is a good idea! Are you having a break from clomid? i had a nose at your journal earlier, you must be all over the shop!

 

[fairyy]

Jess sending for you.

Relaxing is not possible I know. But let's not stress about it. You are doing good. It will surely happen soon hun.

 

[PrincessTaz]

Yeah the assisted conception unit nurse said they don't advise taking clomid after a mc as your hormones aren't settled and can throw everything off. Also at the moment I'm not sure if it's an ectopic or not with still getting positive tests even after 4 days heavy bleeding.

I'm just totally confused if I'm honest! I think I really need the break!

 

[jessieles]

back to you pal, has your fertile time started yet?

Taz- i agree, your body needs a break, i really feel for you, ttc is the worst time!

 

[fairyy]

Not yet Jessie. I have no cm. Last cycle also I didn't get any. Hopefully this cycle be a normal one.

Cd10 today. Thinking of starting EOD from tomorrow.

 

[jessieles]

im cd 13 today, we started eod from yesterday but it wasnt that much of a success. we are really struggling now to keep it all motivated. i think dh is feeling pressure and most of the time dreads bd. so this eve im going to get a nice bottle of alcohol and think of something to get him going! He said last night straight after, i cannot wait for this all to be over and for us to just be pregnant. 2 years of this is really hard going!

 

[fairyy]

hun. I know how it feels. is no more fun.

Try to not discuss about TTC when in fertile window and just have
Be loving and show that you want him.

I am on cd11. Aiming to BD today but no ewcm yet. I wanted start from tomorrow but friends are coming. So not possible tomorrow. I have a headache, DH is tired too. Let's see how it goes.

Seriously we all should get pregnant soon and stop all these madness

 

[fairyy]

How are you Jessie ? Hope things are going good for you. I can do nothing but just pray for you TTC is freaking hard and I seriously don't want you to go through all these for long.

I am on cd13 today. We had nice time on cd11. But I tried some for this afternoon and DH was not in mood. I was pissed off. He said still we have time to BD today. But I think I don't want it now. Still no ewcm which is super strange. One cycle can be bust but another one in a row WTH !!

 

[jessieles]

Hiya Pal!

I cant wait for the madness to be over!

How did it go after what days did you manage to bd?

Its so difficult isnt, its like forced sex now all the time! and so hard when neither of you are in the mood!

We have managed to bd on 6,8,12,13,14,15. Im cd16 today and dh says tomorrow is our next. I havent had the usual ovulation pains though and havent opk'd so that i try and relax so time will tell!

 

[Teeny Weeny]

I understand the forced sex issue! I took Clomid 2-6 and hoped to ovulate around CD14. Hence, we pretty much BD from CD6-18. However, I didn't get confirmation of ovulation from FF which is telling me I have had an anovulatory cycle.
All that BDing for nothing it seems. I just want to enjoy sex for sex again. In my head it's always about baby making. Soooo frustrating.

Jessie, what day do you usually ovulate? I am CD24 and as I said, no ovulation detected. Have you ovulated late on Clomid at all?
It seems you have all bases covered with your BD and I hope you get that BFP soon honey. Xxx

 

[jessieles]

How do u usually try to confirm o? dyou have bloods taken or anything? i will have bloods done friday now, ive stopped opking as i find it too stressful! I usually o around 15 i think but im not too sure. i just have bloods done every cd21 to check what levels of progesterone i have. xx

 

[Teeny Weeny]

I was meant to have a day 12 follicle scan but the consultant was on holiday. He didn't give me forms for day 21 bloods as he thought I would be tracked by the scan.
So, I've been left all on my own this month without knowing what the hell is going in in there. I do OPKs and bbt. The OPKs were positive but my temperature didn't show this. Apparently, without bloods/scan, the only way to know definitively is by bbt.
On 50mg my ovulation day was 15. It seems this is quite normal for Clomid as you do too. I guess I can safely say this cycle is a bust.
How long before you test again? Are you now in the TWW? Xx

 

[jessieles]

Thats rubbish that you dont have a clue whats going on!

You never know, dont lose hope, you may hav still o'd! will you see the doc now to see if you need to up the dosage?

Im cd16 today, i dnt tend to class myself in the tww until after cd18 just incase i o late! im defo getting tired of it all now though!

 

[Teeny Weeny]

I am on 100mg this time already. In 2009 I had ovarian drilling and 50mg.
I did take some leftover Clomid in December and that seemed to make me ovulate too. Perhaps the dose is too high.
I am absolutely and truly fed up with TTC now. I keep swaying from giving up to just carrying on as we have tried so long already. I hate TTC and the stress it causes.
FX'd for you this month, and this torturous journey can be over. Xx

 

[jessieles]

I know hun its the most draining, emotional time ever! so stressful!

My obgyn wants me to have ovarian drilling in oct, how was it? sounds awful!

 

[Teeny Weeny]

It was actually fine. The thought of what they do is far worse than the actual procedure itself. I was up and about the next day.
I have another 2 months of Clomid and then the consultant wants me to have it done again, which would put me at October too. Let's hope neither of us need it. Xx

 

[fairyy]

Jessie your BD timing is just perfect

Don't worry you tried your best and now we can hope nothing but the best

What is ovarian drilling btw ?

 

[jessieles]

Fairy- god i hope this is the last cycle of ttc!

How are you doing?

Ovarian drilling- Laparoscopic ovarian drilling is a surgical treatment that can trigger ovulation in women who have polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). Electrocautery or a laser is used to destroy parts of the ovaries. For women who do not respond to treatment with medicine, such as clomiphene, about 50% of them may be able to become pregnant after they have ovarian drilling surgery.Ovarian drilling is usually done through a small incision (laparoscopy), with general anesthesia. The surgeon makes a small cut (incision) in the abdomen at the belly button. The surgeon then places a tube to inflate the abdomen with a small amount of carbon dioxide gas so that he or she can insert the viewing instrument (laparoscope) without damage to the internal organs. The surgeon looks through the laparoscope at the internal organs. Surgical instruments may be inserted through the same incision or other small incisions in the pelvic area.

Teeny - lets hope neither of us get to oct without a bfp!!!

 

[Teeny Weeny]

Kind of good news here.. FF puts me down as ovulated! CD20 mind you so pretty poor show on Clomid, but I am 5dpo and nearer to trying it again next month. I was worried that my cycle would be super long without ovulation so I have 11 days hopefully until my next round. Xx