Jessie's Journey

[Teeny Weeny]

I'm okay thank you. 11dpo and BFN on FRER so I know I'm out.
The horrible part is that Clomid gives so many 'symptoms' just to mess with our heads. FF also said my chart was triphasic so that made me use the FRER! What a waste of money and I was rather upset too.
Onwards to next month. If I really am 11dpo then I have my next round of Clomid starting Saturday which I guess is something to look forward too. Hopefully this time around I will get a follicle scan too.

Are you not tempted to test at all? Those numbers are great. Xx

 

[jessieles]

awww im sorry u got a bfn!

sounds like you are positive for your next cycle though!

well im only 7dpo so i know itd b pointless. im not expecting a bfp anymore though, funny isnt it you just lose any hope!

 

[Teeny Weeny]

I have lost all hope as of this morning. Even said out loud 'I GIVE UP' and DH heard. He asked if we really had! What i meant was I give up on seeing a BFP. We will still try of course but I cannot get any hopes up of falling pregnant if you know what I mean. I feel ready to throw in the towel.

I hope the next week passes quickly. Xx

 

[jessieles]

I feel the same! Cant wait for it all to be over!

 

[fairyy]

Yes Teeny Weeny I feel exactly like what you said. Don't expect BFP anymore but can't give up trying.

Jessie, wow that seems a strong ovulation and your BD timing is great too. Can't wait for you to test.

 

[jessieles]

Thanks Pal, i feel the same as you two these days, dont expect a bfp anymore!

 

[TinyLynne]

Sounds like a good strong O Jessie! Stalking to see you get your BFP and sticky baby!

 

[jessieles]

Hi TinyLynne! I do love new stalkers

I hate the tww! Im driving myself nuts, af pains started yesterday, and thats a big confusion isnt it, because you get them whether your pregnant or not! im trying my very best not to symptom spot but its so hard!

 

[jessieles]

TinyLynne- whats your sory? have you started clomid? xx

 

[TinyLynne]

No, I will start it when I get AF, my OB wanted me to wait a non pregnancy cycle. And I get it, it's textbook, but my HCG has never been above 23 (that I've had blood tests for anyway) so I have a hard time believing that the loss will affect my cycles at all.

I realized this morning while symptom spotting (metal taste in mouth is getting awful, nipples seemed really huge this morning) that I probably don't even know what a pregnancy cycle feels like, I wouldn't think that HCG that low would cause symptoms. Just symptoms of progesterone!

I didn't temp this cycle either, and didn't get a peak on my monitor, but I think I Od early for me on CD18 as opposed to CD21 (I have never Od early) but I can't really pin point it without temping. But I know I Od because of the metal taste.

You are right though, AF symptoms and Pregnancy symptoms have been the same! When do you plan to test?

 

[jessieles]

Aww, well im hoping clomid does the job for u! Or that you wont even need it and af doesnt arrive!

I have a feeling im out as my af pains feel like af pains and not stretching! but i remember the night before my bfp i sat n cried as i had af pains. argh im turning crazy ! i plan to test saturday as then ill be cd29 and thats when i got my bfp in feb! and also im out saturday night so ill know whether to drown my sorrows!

 

[TinyLynne]

I will be testing Saturday too, I have a bachelorette party to go to. And yes, drown sorrows or be the DD! I was DD at the last bachelorette party I went to as I was pregnant, but started bleeding the next day, so I hope that if there is a BFP it is a sticky one for us!!

Good luck!

 

[fairyy]

Yes Jessie I do remember that you complained about AF cramps before your BFP. So I am hopeful for you. No need to be sad this early. Hold on sweetie. Only few more days to go !

 

[jessieles]

TinyLynne- lets hope we are both DDs on saturday and that we have sticky bfps! ive bought some ic's, they should be at home when i get in, i thought i may test each morn rather than build all my hopes on saturday n then b devasted if its a bfn!

Fairy- thanks hun, i HATE the tww! im losing my mind, constantly googling ' bfps after af pains' even tho ive had that myself, it makes u crazy xx

 

[TinyLynne]

I was thinking the same thing about testing early. I went to the grocery store on Monday and they were completely out of FRERs! I couldn't believe it! So I guess I will stop on my way home from work today if I don't get any spotting. I usually spot a few days before AF comes, so that would start soon I would think.

Good luck! I'm excited to start seeing your tests!!!

 

[jessieles]

me too! let me know when u start testing xxx

 

[TinyLynne]

I'm not sure I will. Had a small brown spot this morning, so if there is anymore, I won't test because it's probably AF.

 

[jessieles]

Awww hun sometimes that doesnt mean anything!

Mine havent arrived so i cant test which is prob a good thing!

 

[TinyLynne]

Well that's no fun! Lol. Hopefully they come today and you can get your fix! I'm rooting for you!!!

 

[jessieles]

I also just had a bit of brown spotting so i think im out too! Im starting to wonder if i will ever b a mum!