Ok ladies, I've been testing for a week and getting positives so have been out and bought a selection of different brands to use in the morning. If I still have dark lines on the frer I'm going to try to believe that this isn't a chemical and will tell Dh. Terrified!! Tomorrow will be 13dp3dt so even though otd isn't until Thursday that has to be long enough!
Aurora, I really hope this isn't too insensitive chick, if it is feel free to say so and I'll pipe down until we know that flopsy and mopsy are still ok xxx
Ok ladies, I've been testing for a week and getting positives so have been out and bought a selection of different brands to use in the morning. If I still have dark lines on the frer I'm going to try to believe that this isn't a chemical and will tell Dh. Terrified!! Tomorrow will be 13dp3dt so even though otd isn't until Thursday that has to be long enough!
Aurora, I really hope this isn't too insensitive chick, if it is feel free to say so and I'll pipe down until we know that flopsy and mopsy are still ok xxx
Lizzie! Yay!!!!
Bebe, I hope you're not being stoic for our sakes. If you happen to be upset, roar away. If not, perhaps you are very focused on moving forward? That is great if you can do that. If not, totally fine too.
Aurora, has the bleeding worsened or light lightened?
AFM, I am breastfeeding all three, but I only do it three times a day so that I get skin time w each girl. Otherwise it would be too much. Obviously I can't really do it unless I have help, so that's a factor. Right now I'm just trying to get my milk to come in.
So, it seems I have postpartum preeclampsia. I was worried this would happen. My BP shot up right after delivery and then came down w medication, but now all the sudden it's up and and staying. I had a headache yesterday and I've been seeing spots so I'm back on medication. So far no change. I may have to stay in hospital on a mag drip one more day. I'm mostly just worried that I'll be too sick to take care of these girls. I already feel I can't keep up w their progress, and this will only slow mine. And I'm really worried that I'll be holding a babe one day and have a seizure or worse a stroke. Ugh, here's to the best for each of us. ��
Bleeding worsened, test lightened. My life is a TTC version of Groundhog Day. Four chemicals in 18 months. No more money so that's the end of it. Plus there's clearly no point. My body won't stop killing it's babies, or my babies all have some inbuilt self-destruct. I've had all the tests there are, so until there are new scientific breakthroughs nothing is going to help. Best of luck to everyone else on your journeys. And massive hugs for Lizzie, I'm so thrilled for you, sweetheart
Redbean, so sorry that everything that can be thrown at you is thrown at you. i can completely understand why you are worried and just want to be well enough to look after your beautiful girls. Hoping that the medication does get you back on track quickly and other than that i feel useless!
Bebe - I too hope you aren't putting a brave face on things for us. If you want to rant and rave please do! I think you are doing amazingly well through something heartbreaking xxx
Aurora - i just dont know what to say sweetie, I'm so sorry that it hasnt worked, that science is letting you down and that we are so dependent upon money for how many chances we can have at something so priceless. Im crying for you
As for me, I was worried i was going to jinx things by talking about it and am now terrified that's true. Tested this morning and got a BFP on a clearblue, a clearblue digital and a FRER but the FRER was more like the like I had on 9dp3dt not the most recent one on 11dp3dt so now i'm scared and upset that it is still going to be a chemical but just a later one. I've tried to tell myself that maybe this batch of FRERs just has a different dye concentration but its hard to believe. OTD is Thursday so I guess I'll keep hanging on. I'm sleepy, still have backache and some mild cramping in my stomach and feel dizzy and a little tiny bit nauseous but am so scared that my HCG levels are going down not up. This is our last chance so i'm praying that minnie and/or mo is in there still fighting.
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Emmi and Amy: You are both up soon!!! Are you getting excited/nervous???
Lizzie: IVF is so stressful. You feel like you can never relax. Amy's right though, the lines can vary a bit. Everything crossed for a great beta on Thursday.
Redbean: You have had the most exceptional pregnancy circumstances, but you have done a great time managing and you are doing an amazing job with those sweet little girls. Do you have help from family or anyone when you get home? I hope you can call in every favor!
Aurora: Oh sweetie, I am so, so sorry. This process is so unfair, mentally, physically, and financially. How maddening that they can't identify a scientific reason and way to address this recurring problem. Sending you lots of hugs. Take the time you need to take care of yourself.
AFM: Doing alright today. Knock on wood, I haven't had any pain/cramping. For me, it really was hardest a couple weeks ago when we found out. It's really awful to feel pregnant (and technically be pregnant) but know it's not viable, no heartbeat, etc. I've had a couple weeks to process it. This weekend was also hard to have to re-face it and because I didn't know what to expect with the procedure. I'm tired now and still recovering, but I feel better (more like my usual self) and it's actually good to have some closure. I go in next Monday to check my HCG levels and make sure they are going down like they are supposed to.