Welcome myheart! I'm sorry for your previous losses, praying for a sticky one and good news Monday. Nika - A friend of mine said that the anxiety got better once she got into second tri, but it stayed with her the whole pregnancy. I'm hoping our nerves will settle as we get further along I find myself doing the toilet paper check every time I pee or feel anything wet down there. I called the other clinic and they made an appointment for December 5th, I'll be 8w1d God willing. The lady making my appointment said that at 8 weeks it should be a good view on the ultrasound which made my heart flutter that they'll do one then! It feels ages away.