thank you all so much for all your thoughts & prays
im hurting so bad right now/im so lost/so confused/and just anything else you could ever feel!
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idk how & idk why this happen to me,it took us two years to get pregnant
TWO YEARS and now its all over just like that,just that easy,just that fast
you know what is crazy is if i would of never had that scan or of seen different doctors
then I would of never had a clue until my next appointment that would been JAN 7th because i wasnt having no bleeding at all only time i had the bleeding was in the begging around 3-4weeks!.
I had no cramping at all,I mean there was nothing nothing at to make me think that something was wrong with the baby
And i found out when i had that scan at the hospital baby heart beat was only 87
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I can not believe the doctor didnt tell me that and then i also found out at the scan with the mean teach the heart beat was low too and they told me when i called everything was fine *******s "sorry for the lauage".
You know i realy thnk i need to call that damn doctors office up and cuss them OUT, I mean why didnt somebody let me know the baby might not of made it
When the obgyn finally came to talk to me in the FASTTRACK of the ER,meaning the place where they get you right in and then right out fast!
like i was saying though he finally came downstairs and when i seen him i busted out crying,i didnt even wannaspeak to him at first but he try to explain that having a m/c is a way of god saying that if you wouldve carry baby full term something very wrong could have of been wrong with baby:cry,he the was telling me after this that i more likely to get pregnant then before,that it shoudnt take two years again
and also told me about how him and his wife went threw 3 their selfs
then he tells me that he needs to exam me do i get a gown on because all that time i was down there only waiting for the ob i had some jeans and a tshirt on! tshirt wasnt that bad but my jeans were.
Ok so im thinking he just wants to exam me?!
Well so they took me into this small exam room and you know everything look normal but before i know it i was in so much pain and was yelling that it hurt so he stop,come to find out he was trying to pull the baby out.
Without putting me to sleep or giving me any pain meds i mean just nothing! i just couldnt believe he would do that without telling me:
He then told me when he stop that he would need to do a dnc
because he said that the baby was still inside of me dead still
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i was then taken to the *OR* bt i got up n left,i havent been back yet ill probably go back tonght
but its got to be done