June Baby Angels

[angel2010]

So I've gotten very confused. Tuesday night we dtd. Yesterday he said "Maybe I shouldn't have finished inside you last night, just in case." I think he's worried about the stress of moving and being preg, but I just don't want to wait Anyway, we dtd last night and he finished inside me again, without a word about it.

I wouldn't worry all that much. I am sure you know he will be just as happy as you would be if you all got pregnant. We all get scared a little sometime. Sometimes we just think too much.

 

[vegasbaby]

Stef: I'm sure he's just concerned about you, but I doubt he's over-thinking it.

Went to the doctor to have my blood drawn today. Had to take Charlotte with me as she is not back in mother's-day-out yet (the lady who does it is on an extended vacation). She was fine until we were about to leave and then she fell backwards off the stool she was sitting on and banged her head on the floor pretty hard. Several people and nurses came running to see what happened. She is fine, but it was pretty embarrassing. After we went to the pharmacy because I needed cold medicine and to tell them AGAIN to take the prenatals off autofill. The stupid tech said, "So you don't need then anymore?" to which I responded by pointing to my belly and saying "no more baby, no need for vitamins". She then took an attitude with me while she finished checking me out. I went in person and told the pharmacist last month to take it off autofill and that no, I didn't need the pills for that month either (the autofill came in the day I found out I had lost the baby and I need to go get pads for after the d&c). I would have thought they would have followed through. I'm so peeved. I'm just so tired of the reminders. DH and I dtd for only the second time since everything happened last night. I was fine with it emotionally whereas the first time was pretty difficult. He wanted to know when we can TTC again, but I think that is because I am making him wear condoms and he doesn't like them, not really about his desire to procreate. Whatever, at least he will be on board when the time comes. Hope everyone else is having a better day.

 

[jennc]

I know how you guys have been feeling, every pregnant woman I see lately, I can't stop myself from feeling depressed and subconsciously (okay maybe not so much) asking myself if that person deserves that child. I know it is awful to feel that way but I can't seem to help it lately. Maybe it is just knowing that this may not be the year I get to have my own. Good news though, lucky number 37. Cramps were something fierce but my obg was good enough to call in a prescription. That means one done, one to go before I can ttc.

Meli- You will have to let us know how that test goes.
StefNjunk- How awesome! Congrats on the proposal.
Angel- Congrats on the normal test. I haven't gotten to catch up on all posts but maybe I will get to do that tonight.

Back to work for me for now. Later

 

[Middysquidge]

Stef: I'm sure he's just concerned about you, but I doubt he's over-thinking it.

Went to the doctor to have my blood drawn today. Had to take Charlotte with me as she is not back in mother's-day-out yet (the lady who does it is on an extended vacation). She was fine until we were about to leave and then she fell backwards off the stool she was sitting on and banged her head on the floor pretty hard. Several people and nurses came running to see what happened. She is fine, but it was pretty embarrassing. After we went to the pharmacy because I needed cold medicine and to tell them AGAIN to take the prenatals off autofill. The stupid tech said, "So you don't need then anymore?" to which I responded by pointing to my belly and saying "no more baby, no need for vitamins". She then took an attitude with me while she finished checking me out. I went in person and told the pharmacist last month to take it off autofill and that no, I didn't need the pills for that month either (the autofill came in the day I found out I had lost the baby and I need to go get pads for after the d&c). I would have thought they would have followed through. I'm so peeved. I'm just so tired of the reminders. DH and I dtd for only the second time since everything happened last night. I was fine with it emotionally whereas the first time was pretty difficult. He wanted to know when we can TTC again, but I think that is because I am making him wear condoms and he doesn't like them, not really about his desire to procreate. Whatever, at least he will be on board when the time comes. Hope everyone else is having a better day.

Aww Vegas, what a crappy rubbish day

How annoying that they keep trying to give you those vitamins, she should be lucky you were so polite some people would have told them to shove them up their arses after going in person to request not to get them, silly cow!

It's good that you got to bd and felt okay about it, hopefully it will gradually get better and you'll be raring to go by April/May! My OH is like that about condoms, although I never got round to making him wear them!

Stef, aww bless your oh, he sounds like a sensitive soul like my oh, I'm sure he'll come round by next week or that you can make him! Good luck!

Meli, great news that your body is back on schedule!

Angel, I intend to do that this month to, just track everything really carefully even though I can't try Oh went away today, just as my ewcm arrived, doh! I tried to get him in the bedroom one last time this afternoon but he couldn't quite get there! We managed to bd last night though but that's it, once this cycle on cd9, no hope! God knows whats going on with the opks they are almost positive every morning and negative by afternoon?

Jennc - good to hear from you, I bumped into my pregnant friend at work today, even felt her bump, it was hard (my feelings not her bump like! That was soft of course!). We all have those irrational thoughts you describe it's all part of the healing process!

to all the girls on here x

 

[jenkb123]

Hello everyone!! I have been trying to keep caught up on posts but I haven't actually written anything for awhile.

Steph - I am super excited to hear about your engagement!!

Vegas - Sorry to hear about your bad day!! I hope af comes soon and you don't have to keep waiting!! It took me awhile to want to bd again after the m/c. It wasn't until after my first af came that I actually felt like I wanted to (and to be honest the fact that I wanted to start ttc again was part of the motivation). Things have gotten back closer to normal now. I'm glad the second time was better for you.

I have my fx'ed that your hcg comes back 0 this time!!

Jasmine - Glad you got at least one good bd in before he went away. It only takes one!! If it was too early this month I hope next month is your month!!
I know what you mean about not wanting to stress your husband out with all the ttc details. I don't typically tell mine exactly where things are at either. I don't want to put extra pressure on him. This cycle the day after I had my darkest opk (I didn't think it was fully positive but it looked really close) I started getting negative opk's. I figured I must have o'd and knew we needed to dtd that day. I had a bit of an argument with my husband that evening about something stupid which killed his mood and we didn't bd. I should have just said something about thinking I o'd but I didn't and of course couldnt sleep all night feeling like all of the bd'ing we did this cycle (we had managed to dtd every other day from cd8-cd18) was for nothing as we were going to miss o. We dtd the next day so I hope it wasn't too late.

Meli - Sorry af got you this month!! But I agree, its good to know your body is getting back on schedule. Next month will be your month!!

Angel - I hope o comes soon for you!! It is reassuring to know when our body is doing what it is supposed to. One step closer to getting back to normal!!

jennc - Glad to hear af has arrived and you are one month closer to ttc!! Sorry the cramps were so bad!

afm - I am at cd25. I think I might have o'd on cd19-20. I never had a fully positive opk. The top part of the line was really dark (the dark part of the line was thin). The bottom part of the line was still lighter than the test line. After two like that I started getting negative opk's so either I didn't o this month or I missed the fully positive. I am going to get my day 25 progesterone level tested today so I will find out Monday if I did o. My bb's are really sore so I am taking that as a good sign that I have high progesterone levels and actually did o.

So for now I am guessing I am 6-7dpo. I am going to try to hold out testing until next Wednesday (which would be cd32). My first af after the m/c came at cd 32.

 

[Meli_H]

Angel,

Sorry to hear of all the reminders in your face. We don’t do fb, and this is another of those reasons I am glad we/I don’t! I like vegas’ suggestion-temporarily hiding updates is a good idea…hugs~~I hope you o, just so that you can keep track of what’s going on with your body, like you said..

Vegas,
Yes, luckily, I am still on break. I work for a university. They give us a few days for winter break, and I added 3 vacation days to it, so I was off starting Dec 20 and returning Jan 7. I love academia LOL
I wish I was there!! Natural grapefruit juice has got to be the best-natural is always best—but I’m stuck with store bought juice. Wish we could grow a lemon tree—heck, I wish we could grow anything that I’d want to eat out here where I live!! I have been taking baby aspirin daily and a couple of days ago, started with the grapefruit juice. Will start taking robitussin a few days before O. I actually bought a thermometer to start temping, but I just *cannot* bring myself to start waking up early, before I have to. I’ll start temping when I go back to work on Monday, it will be cd9, but it’s better than nothing. My regular workday wakeup time is 5:10am, so I want to continue to sleep in as long as I can. Boy, will I be in trouble getting up in the morning when it’s time to go back to work….
I’m glad you are so patient. I would be going crazy by now if I hadn’t o’d yet. FX you O soon so you can feel like your body is getting back on track!!!
I think you made some very good points about fb, and about how nobody talks about mc’s!!!
Oh, and I have to say it again---everytime I see your avatar, I think, HOW PRECIOUS! Your daughter is SOO adorable!!
So sorry to hear she fell off the stool! Poor thing! But sounds like she’s just fine—kids are so resilient, aren’t they!
FX your blood draw come back with good (negative) results!
Your visit today with the pharmacist sounds horrible. Not only do you have to go through that, but then, attitude??How rude! What nerve! She could have at least apologized, and not given you attitude! Oh well..maybe she was having a bad day too, but still…..
Sounds like emotionally, you’re starting to heal more! Being able to dtd without crying, like you did last time, is progress…. Hugs…

Jasmine,
So sorry to hear things didn’t go as planned when you bd’d, but FX FX FX you caught the eggy!!
How are you keeping yourself busy while OH is out of town? I completely miss dh when he has to travel (not often, but it happens once in a while), BUT, I’m not gonna lie, I do enjoy doing my own thing without consideration for anyone else. Do I eat dinner? Maybe, maybe not. Do I work out? Maybe, maybe not. Do I watch trashy reality tv or serious tv?..hee hee I’m sure you get the picture.
I don’t know when I will find out about being a liver donor, our first family meeting with the dr is Jan 14, Until then, just following the plan, and if I get pg, fine, if not, then oh well, onward with the liver donor process!
You know, I really shouldnt complain, although I guess I do. DH is always in the mood—and drives me crazy, but I guess it serves me well for purposes of trying to get pg. However, I do get scared—however will I keep him happy once I have a baby?? I cant imagine how tired I will be—it’s hard enough now, and I don’t have a baby !!

Stef,
I’m the same as you—I HATE being the center of attention!! But it sounds like with him having a large family, you may not be able to get out of having some sort of ceremony. Hope it works out how you’d like it to!! FX you caught the eggy!! Angel’s so right—sometimes we think too much about something. I am totally guilty of that myself!!

JennC,
Don’t feel bad. I have been doing the SAME thing! Women I see in person, women I see on tv, I question whether they ‘deserve’ their baby. I need to stop doing that—as a matter of fact, I will make that one of my new year resolutions!!

Jenkb123,
Like you said, it only takes one time, FX FX FX you caught the eggy! FX that you did actually o. Keep us posted, and I will wish the days away with you, and wish for next Weds to come quickly quickly and that you get your BFP!!!

 

[vegasbaby]

Jennc: Good luck this next month. Fx'ed for you!

Jasmine: Good for you for being able to feel someone else's bump. I even sort of backed away as I was hugging my pregnant SIL. Yeah, I'm still that warped. How are you enjoying your dh free time? How is he enjoying Vegas?

Jenk: Hope you caught the eggy this month. OPK's can be so darn confusing. That is why I use the cheap ones and then once I think it is positive I also test with the smiley face test (that is super duper expensive). Luckily I have a lot of tests left. Keep us posted!

Meli: Thanks for saying Charlotte is cute. Do you want her? She hasn't slept through the night since before we left for vacation. Now she has a cold (as do I) and is waking even more (like waking at 2:30 and not going back to bed). I love her like crazy, but I love my sleep too! Being up with her so much reminds me of how hard it is to have a newborn. I was not a fan of the newborn phase. I know I shouldn't complain, but being a parent is hard, yet here I am wanting to do it all over again. You live in Valencia, CA and you can't grow a citrus tree? Isn't that where Valencia oranges are from? You can grow a small lemon tree in a large pot on your patio as long as you have a sunny spot for it.

AFM: The nurse called and I am negative. I still have to go in for the next three weeks for blood draws and then once a month for six months. I was hoping they would just go directly to the monthly draws. As I've mentioned I have no intention of waiting the whole six months to TTC, but they can keep drawing as there is no guarantee I will get preggo before they stop testing. Heck, if I do get a BFP during the six months at least it means they will see what my levels look like, which is something they didn't do before (though my doctor in Vegas did check my hcg in the beginning with dd).

Hope everyone has a nice weekend!

 

[StefNJunk]

So I've gotten very confused. Tuesday night we dtd. Yesterday he said "Maybe I shouldn't have finished inside you last night, just in case." I think he's worried about the stress of moving and being preg, but I just don't want to wait Anyway, we dtd last night and he finished inside me again, without a word about it.

I wouldn't worry all that much. I am sure you know he will be just as happy as you would be if you all got pregnant. We all get scared a little sometime. Sometimes we just think too much.

Stef: I'm sure he's just concerned about you, but I doubt he's over-thinking it.

Stef, aww bless your oh, he sounds like a sensitive soul like my oh, I'm sure he'll come round by next week or that you can make him! Good luck!

You guys are probably right. He hasn't mentioned it again since. I know he's stressed out about all the house stuff, I think he's just worried about having me stressing while being pg and scared of something happening again.

Stef,
I’m the same as you—I HATE being the center of attention!! But it sounds like with him having a large family, you may not be able to get out of having some sort of ceremony. Hope it works out how you’d like it to!! FX you caught the eggy!! Angel’s so right—sometimes we think too much about something. I am totally guilty of that myself!!

I'm absolutely guilty of thinking too much! Always and for pretty much everything! I also have a large family, but they are all 1000 miles away, so the only family that would be able to be there would be my parents and brother (which I'm completely fine with, I'm not very close with the rest of my family). Even his immediate family is large, though, so even if we did just parents / siblings and their OHs and kids... Counting ONLY his immediate family and mine, and our closest friends, we're up to... ugh I think over 3 dozen. *hides* I'm thinking Vegas wedding?

jenkb,

vegas, you handled that situation much better than I would have! I have yet to call the mgr at PP yet because I know I'm going to blow up!

I wanted to share a song I love love love that I heard for the first time in awhile yesterday, I can relate to it sometimes, especially right around the time of the mc. "Falling Off the Face of the Earth" by Matt Wertz https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jaN7AXwduQ

 

[jennc]

I am trying to work on the negative feelings but sometimes it's just automatic. I did post on facebook when I had my m/c. I found that everyone was really supportive. I think if women talked about it more, the healing process would be easier. That's why I joined this in the first place. We wouldn't keep it to ourselves if any other relative died so why should we keep it to ourselves when something so tragic as our baby dies. Even if it wasn't born, it was still a child and a member of the family. My husband worries that things like a memorial necklace or a website, or keeping things from my pregnancy aren't helpful but I think, like any loss, the more that it is talked about, the easier it actually is to deal with. He is of the mindset to just forget that it even happened, like his mom did with hers but I can't just forget that it happened whether I have something to remind me or not. I really think he does it because he wants to be strong for me but he doesn't seem to understand that I don't need him to be strong, I need him to be okay with me being sad. I still wonder what my baby would've looked like or whether it would've been a boy or girl. I'm not sure those thoughts are all that helpful but I don't think remembering my baby is a bad thing. There, I have vented for the day.

Jasmine- I'm sorry that ttc hasn't been going so well for you. I've always found it helpful to remember that God knows when that baby is supposed to be conceived. I actually wish that my doctor had never told me the signs that I was ovulating. Then I can truly let God do his job because Lord knows he is better at it than I am. It always helps too to just be honest with your husband. Even when mine doesn't like it, I tell him like it is. We are kind of a weird couple though. Most people find out they are pregnant, then tell their husband. Mine wanted to be there for the test and even woke up early to do so. He worries sometimes that we don't fight since studies show that relationships don't tend to last when the couple doesn't fight. I try to explain to him that we don't fight because we communicate and we are generally able to compromise before it gets to the fight stage. Nothing wrong with that. Make it easier on yourself and your hubby and just tell him whats going on.

Stef- I know this might sound harsh but if I could give you any kind of wedding advice it would be elope. I really wish someone had told me exactly how stressful weddings can be. It turned my family really ugly too, especially my mom which was very surprising. I look back just the eight months ago it was and if I hadn't have picked out everything myself, I wouldn't have even remembered any of it. Because when it comes down to the day, your guy is the only thing you will care about. And it is just not worth the stress, on either of you or your ttc.

All studies show that stress can negatively impact conception.

Vegas- I am so sorry about your vitamins. I am having the same problem with a pregnancy planning website that I had signed up for. I have unsubscribed too many times to count and yet every week I get a reminder of what my baby would be like in my belly without the mc. It makes it harder, knowing what might have been. My husband is the same way with the condoms but I am too. This is actually the first time in our five year relationship that we have actually had to use them and for both of us it sucks. Before too long though, it will work itself out.

I haven't bothered trying to track my ovulation because I'm not sure what it is really like after a mc. That may be why ovulation tests are hazy, your body may just be different than usual right now. Don't fret girls! I know it will happen for each of us. Putting too much stress on when may actually cause it to happen later than you want. Conceiving is actually the one thing that I can truly leave to God without worrying that I should be fixing it myself because it is truly the one thing that I really have ABSOLUTELY NO control over. I'm okay with that because I know God's plan for me and that is to have a child. When is really up to Him so it is something I know, I don't need to worry about. You guys shouldn't be worrying either, you should be praying. I'm sorry I had so much to say today. I didn't even think I had that much when I sat down at the computer today. Good thoughts are being sent everyone's way.

 

[StefNJunk]

jennc, oh believe me, I know! I was married once before, and it was A LOT. I don't care so much about the wedding itself as I did then, but I think that's because I just want to spend my life with him and don't care how that happens. With my last marriage, I knew in my heart before the wedding, and even at the wedding, that it wasn't right, but I went through with it anyway. This time, it doesn't matter to me if we do it at the courthouse, honestly. I can almost guarantee he's also going to want something small, since he hates being the center of attention as well.

I'm glad that everyone was supportive of you when you posted on Facebook. I couldn't bring myself to do it. I messaged a few people who I don't see in person (family that still lives where I grew up), and told everyone else except family through text. I hate the sympathy people give, I know they mean well, but it just makes it hurt more. My co-workers thought I missed work for a stomach bug, I was a few days from telling them I was pg (was waiting until 12 weeks) when I lost it. They knew about the last time and everyone was really nice and they got me a card and a plant, but it also was mentioned a few times after when they kept checking up on me. I appreciated it, I really did, but I just wanted to not be reminded at all.

 

[angel2010]

Vegas, sorry your appointment didn't go so well and that the pharmacy keeps screwing up. Hopefully you won't have to deal with it again. But great news on your results being neg, I don't think I would wait the whole 6 months either. I know what you mean about the condoms. Mine would rather go without than wear one.

Jasmine, it only takes once!

Jenk, fx that you ovulated and you get your bfp!!

Meli, Good luck with temping!

Stef, we started planning our wedding last Feb. Come April, I said forget it and we went to Florida in Aug without family and got married on the beach. The planning was just too stressful. The only advice I have is to make sure you get a good photographer.

Jenn, you are completely right about being open with miscarriages. If we all were it wouldn't be so hard.

Afm, ff says that I ovulated, but I don't think I have. I guess we will find out in about a week and a half. Nothing else new really. Tonight we are going out to dinner to an Irish pub. I have always wanted to try some Irish food, so I am hoping it doesn't disappoint.

 

[vegasbaby]

Jenn: You are absolutely right about how sometimes you just need your husband to understand that you are still sad and just be there for you. Our angel babies are a part of our families, we may not think about them all the time, but I don't think we can just forget either. I also agree about trusting in God to conceive. I was impatient this past time and I think He got His message across to me that it was not the right time. I just wish the message could have come through differently. My grandmother always said that timing is always off in life. I guess this means I just need to stop planning and go with the flow. Easier said than done!

Stef: Perhaps you could have a small wedding for just the two of you and then plan a reception for either later that day or perhaps even weeks or months after. My mom runs a wedding chapel and reception hall and she even tells the brides that it is not about the party it is about marrying the right person. She's had several brides who have gotten married elsewhere and then have a party later on. She's also seen weddings where a few people are invited to the ceremony and then everyone else is asked to join after for the reception. There are so many options you can choose from. Again, as long as you have the right person the rest does't matter.

By the way, when we all get pregnant again, when do you plan on telling people? I swear if I could wait until I send out birth announcements I would do it. We had told our families at nine weeks this past time only because my in-laws were in town and we thought it would be obvious since I wouldn't be drinking. Once we told them my dh thought it was OK to start telling other people too. I never made a FB announcement, but more people knew than I would have liked.

 

[angel2010]

I want to wait until 12 weeks at least. I am a member of a moms group and we have a monthly mommy night. They all know I have a drink or two at them, so I will have to lie and say we are ttc so I don't have to tell them. I have AWFUL bloating from the start though, so I don't know. I really don't want to go through telling everyone about our loss if it were to happen again. Like Vegas, I would like to wait longer, but I know I won't be able to hold it in.

 

[StefNJunk]

angel, yeah, the photographs are definitely important to me, if we do anything other than courthouse.

vegas, those are thoughts, too. A friend of mine got married at the courthouse and had a casual "reception" in his mom's huge backyard that weekend with bbq and a water slide for the kids.

I WANT to wait 12 weeks this time, not sure that'll happen. It's just so difficult to keep it a secret, and he has an even harder time than I do.

 

[jenkb123]

I don't think I will wait to tell people when I get pregnant next time. My reason for this would be that if something went wrong again and we had another m/c I would want people to know. I would want to talk about it. When I got pregnant the first time we talked about waiting or telling people right away. We decided to tell people right away for that same reason. While it is awkward and tough to have to tell people about losing the baby it was harder for me to tell people about the m/c who didn't know I was pregnant to begin with. I wouldn't tell everyone, but close friends and family I would still tell right away. I have been pretty open about my struggles to get pregnant. When people I haven't seen for awhile ask me what is new or how things are going I find that my m/c is always on my mind. It feels so wrong to say to people that things are great or nothing new has happened since I saw them last. I know I will be worried about something happening and having my mom or my sister or my best friend to talk about what is going on will be helpful. I would also want their support if I had another m/c. I think its different for everyone. Some people would rather not talk about it. Since I have told my family and some of my friends about the m/c I have been shocked to hear how many people I know have also miscarried. It really is such a common thing and its so sad that so many people suffer without talking about it. If you lose a parent or a grandparent or anyone its ok to talk about it. It is sad that when you have a m/c it is such a taboo subject and people get so uncomfortable when you bring it up.

 

[Meli_H]

Jasmine,
I know you’ve posted about stupidly light af, and I’ve experienced the same thing. The heavy flow has been cut in half-2 days instead of 4 days of real flow, not only that, I have not had af cramps that I am used to. Before my mc, I would have to take so many otc pain killers it was ridiculous, and I;ve already had 2 af’s since mc and not once have the cramps been so bad to require painkillers. That’s weird. Another thing that I’ve noticed is that after the first day of brown spotting, the flow changes to an orange/red color. I’ve never noticed an orangey/red color before my mc. The next day flow is bright red and dark red, and then the next day, when the flow is starting to slow, it goes back to a red/orangey color. Really weird…anybody else notice the same (orangey red color)?

Vegas,
You are so funny! Poor Charlotte (and you) not getting your sleep. Hope you both get better soon!!
Yes, I do live in Valencia, and Yes-you are correct when you say Valencia oranges are grown here. As a matter of fact, the growers used to mail all residents a package of oranges each season—come to think of it, it’s been at least 2-3 years since I remember receiving them. HEY! We’re getting gypped lol~
On our 4th try of lemon trees: dh finally listened to me and left it in the pot we purchased it in. Now I need his help to transfer it to a pot I bought for it. We have stupid clay soil and it’s killed all my other lemon trees, even though I’ve amended my soil to prepare it. If the stupid squirrels, raccoons and rabbits don’t eat my garden, the clay soil kills it, so……….I can’t plant anything besides geraniums, rosebushes, and dianthus. I am so bored of them!!
That’s great news that your levels finally came back negative!! Finally!!!
Afm, if/when I get pg again, I’m not going to wait, like last time (although I did tell my mom, dad, brothers and sil, and mil right away). I cannot keep a secret so I’m going to tell the whole world right away! To me, keeping it a secret til end of first trimester was more of a superstitious thing for me, and see how well it worked out for me last time…,

Stef,
Vegas wedding sounds like a good idea! They’ve really come a long way in having nice and classy weddings in Vegas. I’ve been to a couple and have been impressed. It’s a great way of having a nice wedding, but keeping it small and more affordable.

JennC,
My dh is the same way!! I can completely relate to when you said “I really think he does it because he wants to be strong for me but he doesn't seem to understand that I don't need him to be strong, I need him to be okay with me being sad”.
Like you, I also wonder the same things, what my baby would've looked like or whether it would've been a boy or girl. I have to think that it’s normal, or else you, and I, and other women who feel the same thing would be certifiably crazy!

Angel,
Have fun at the pub tonight!!

Jenkb,
You make some very good points about telling people right away. My thoughts exactly!

 

[StefNJunk]

Meli, I didn't have the orangey red color with af, but I did have some with the mc bleeding itself. I asked my midwife about it, but she don't think she really knew what it was, said she didn't quite understand what I meant when I told her.

As for a Vegas wedding, I think it would be awesome, but may not be the best idea for OH. He likes Blackjack quite a bit, but he's not so great at it, lol.

 

[Middysquidge]

Hello everyone, happy Saturday

Hello jenkb123, good to see you back! Yeah, I hate it when it's THE day and you have a row with OH, I hate having to suck up to them sometimes, the pressure gets too much for both if us! If only the egg stuck around longer than a day, fussy egg! Hope you managed to catch it this month though, it sounds like you're in a with a very good shot! It's difficult to gage those cheapie opks at the best of times!

Meli - Ha you're totally on the same level as me there with regads to keeping myself busy while oh is away! That's how I have been, it's been quite novel these first few days, I am missing him of course but it's also nice watching tashy tv (celebrity Big Brother, celebrity wedding planner, one born every minute) and eating what I want as we have total opposite tastes in food! I'll really start to miss him soon, he only been gone since Thursday! Managed to skype today though, it's great isn't it, skype! About AF, mine was brownish watery at first, hardly any and like 2 days of bright red, didn't see any orange? Not sure about that hun? I had hardly any cramps either, it was a poor attempt from the silly witch really.


Vegas - I petty much shocked myself feeling a pregnant belly, she didn't even offer I just felt it? It was only afterwards I kind of thought it was a bit strange and kind of upsetting but not half as bad as I would have thought! Have heard from OH today, he's pretty overwhelmed by it all, The Luxor has a roller coaster going around it he says! He's literally on his first day there so will be more to report soon! I'm soooo happy that you are negative now! Go you! What you were saying about being happy for everyone on here when they get thei BFP, I feel like that too! I can't wait to see some BFPs on here! If I get mine I'll probably tell people at the 12 week mark but all of my family and close friends straight away this time as it was really awkward telling family I'd lost a baby when they didn't even know I was pregnant!

Stef - Thanks for sharing that song, it's really beautiful. My favourite song at the mo is 'Laura' by Bat for lashes, beautiful!

Jennc - That's so cute about your husband! I'm such a POAS addict, he'd get seriously bored with me, it wouldn't be special at all! I guess their is a romance about leaving ttc to chance but it's so hard even when it's all planned out, I'm totally too obssessive to do that!

Angel - I know what you mean about doubting ff, I'm doing that myself right now! It drives you nuts! How was the irish pub? What did you have?

AFM - We managed to bd once on cd9 (after the failed attempt on cd8) and fertility friend tells me I ovulated on cd9! Crazy though, I don't believe it but i had all the signs, positive opk, correct cm, so it's a slim chance as we only did it once but it was on the right day. FX girls! For all of us! Phewf, that was a long message! annnd breathe...

 

[StefNJunk]

Jasmine, I'll have to look that song up!

Got to go out with my friends last night for the first time in quite awhile. 9 of us went to dinner then across the street to the theatre to see Wicked. It was awesome! My ticket was an Xmas present from one of my friends and his partner.

I got a call from my mom that put a smile on my face. I think I mentioned this in the June thread before the mc - she was able to tell me the day and time that I first got the BFP last time without having a clue. Today she called me and said she's had a strong feeling for the last few weeks - I'm going to tell her I'm pregnant in February. FX

 

[Middysquidge]

OMG Stef, that's so weird about your mum, my Aunty's like that! That's exciting, I hope she's right! I really want to see Wicked, I'm going to read the books on my Kindle next!

Here's my chart so far this month if anyone is interested!

https://www.fertilityfriend.com/ttc/index.php

It was probably too late by the time we managed to get a successful bd in but I'm still hoping!

x x x