June...here we come!!!

[beaglemom]

Good morning ladies...I hope those of you fortunate enough to be near your fathers are celebrating today.

I tested yesterday with a negative. And then some pink/red when I went to the bathroom later that afternoon. Nothing since then except some minor cramping. So I decided not to test today. I was very tempted to use a frer...but know I have had what I thought was IB before & it ended up not being anything. The thing that sucks is I was hoping to start today so I could do my baseline u/s tomorrow morning & cut all day from work. My RE apt is tomorrow afternoon. But it looks like no such luck. So I will probably start later in the week so I will have to take more time off. I would have just preferred the full day to be with my husband. Oh well. Maybe we will get lucky with a BFP.

 

[sarahok]

Sorry about your BFN, Beaglemom! I know you were looking forward to testing today It is still early though!

 

[misaacs117]

Sorry Beaglemom

Just took a test and it was a BFN. I am to the point where I need a break. I can't do another failed monitored cycle. Dh and I are going to go on vacation in a few weeks. So maybe we will pick up again after vacation. Until then we will try another cycle of letrozole/femara or two.

 

[sarahok]

Sorry Michelle. I think sometimes a break is the best thing. I was feeling really stressed and down about TTC several months ago. We ended up having to take a break because of a polyp removal/removal of cervical dysplasia surgery I had to have. And we also went on a trip around that same time. I feel like it was a wonderful "reset" time and helped me feel more relaxed and optimistic when we started back up again. Also helped to just be able to have sex when we wanted for a few months rather than being pressured to "bd". I hope you can enjoy a little break and get back into a more sunny state of mind.

 

[ERosePW]

beaglemom, so sorry for the BFN. I know you said you weren't expecting much this cycle, but I'm sure you still would've loved to have had that Father's Day BFP for DH. I felt the same, even though by that time I knew I wasn't prego, there's always that little hope in the back of our minds. But you still have time, so you're not out! When are you expecting AF? Have you started your usual spotting?

Michelle, I'm so sorry... you sound SO disheartened, and I just know that feeling all too well, and it breaks my heart. I understand you needing a break. There were a few times in the last 18 months that I've felt the same, but with my age, I really knew I couldn't waste any cycles. Take the time that you need, enjoy your vacation, do a little rejuvenating if needed, and we'll be here ANY time you need to talk.

MissStacy, good luck this round w/ the higher dose of Femara! FXd that it's all you need to get your BFP! I agree w/ beaglemom that once you get closer to feeling like you may want to see an RE, schedule the appt ahead of time. We've seen some girls take a couple months to be able to get into one. You can always cancel it if you get your BFP before (and I'm thinking you will!).

Sarah, I hope AF is treating you OK. I'm sorry this last cycle didn't work out for you. Remind me, when is your RE appt? Is that coming up, or not until July?

FBG, your chart is looking good! Seems to have gone triphasic fast. I hope you'll be one of those girls that gets a BFP right after having an early m/c. I hear it happen ALL the time. I can't even tell you how many girls on one of my other threads said they got BFPs in the cycle following an early m/c. FXd!!!

Allison, how are you doing?? I'm thinking you may have needed a break from the forums for a while if you're stressed. Hope you're doing okay sweetie. I know everything is going to be fine. I know it's easy for me to say since i'm not the one in the middle of it, but I just know you and your little bebe are gonna be totally okay! Check in if you feel like it, and let us know how you're doing. Otherwise, just know we're here if you need to talk.

savvy, are you exactly 6 weeks today? How exciting! Remind me, when is your u/s?

Moni, any updates? Estrogen and cysts improving? How's your timeframe looking for the IVF? Are you still on track for Jul/Aug?

Haven't heard from SaraLou in a while... wondering if you're still lurking around! Hehe. Hope you're doing well.

Hi to Suzy, Amy, Jen, floridasian, and HPJ, and I'm sure I left someone off, but we have quite the group here now. So if I missed ya, it doesn't mean I don't love ya.

 

[ERosePW]

Thought I'd put my own update separate since my last post was a novel.

I had a little cramping yesterday, so thought I might wake up to AF this morning, but no such luck (I know that sounds weird, but since I know I'm not prego, I want to move on!). I did go in for another beta this morning, but I'm not expecting anything, because HPTs have all been neg all the way to yesterday. It's possible I could start any time today, because my temp did dive WAY low, and it is only day 30, and my last femara cycle was 29 days. But the cramping is barely there, and my usual spotting never even started. So I'm afraid the Lupron is going to delay things. I'll get a call from the nurse in a few hours, and I think they'll have me dial back my Lupron dose, because once the STIMs start, the Lupron dose is cut in half anyway, so it would make sense to just go ahead and do it now.

 

[beaglemom]

Not really sure when to expect AF. I think Wed at the earliest. That would be CD 29. Only on femara this cycle, so not sure what to expect. I did start the brown spotting a little yesterday, but more today where I need a pantyliner to be safe. I do have a few more days, so who knows? I also have an appt today to talk to my dr about the plan over the next few months & talk to the money lady about what to expect from IVF. I will update you guys tonight.

Oh & off & on cramping for a few days now.

 

[beaglemom]

Michelle, a break would probaby do you both some good...emotionally & financially. This past cycle has been great for me. But now I am ready to move on to the next medicated IUI. I know the IUI is stressful...all those meds in your body making you crazy...thinking about how many follicles, what sizem sperm count...it can be too much sometimes.

I hope you find some rejuvenation on your break.

 

[ERosePW]

Not really sure when to expect AF. I think Wed at the earliest. That would be CD 29. Only on femara this cycle, so not sure what to expect. I did start the brown spotting a little yesterday, but more today where I need a pantyliner to be safe. I do have a few more days, so who knows? I also have an appt today to talk to my dr about the plan over the next few months & talk to the money lady about what to expect from IVF. I will update you guys tonight.

Oh & off & on cramping for a few days now.

Well, still hoping for a BFP for you, but it's good that you have an appt to chat with them today, just to get your plan in place, just in case. The finance lady at my clinic was really great. She gave me a sheet of everything that takes place for IVF, and it sorta had things separated into categories - like office visits, u/s, and blood tests, etc. were in one category. The egg retrieval was a category of it's own. And then embryologist fees and what it would consist of. Etc, etc, etc. I'm sure you get the point. It had the regular cost of each, and then she was able to tell me what Cigna's contracted rate is for each service, which was really what I needed to know, since I pay 10% of the contracted rate, not the regular rates. Anyway, it was really helpful. Even if your insurance doesn't pay, it's good to get that all squared up so that you can feel more prepared (I know you are like me in that you feel much better once you know these things!). My sheet didnt include meds, but probably because I already got those a couple weeks ago.

 

[floridasian]

CD2 and I'm having a hard time dealing with it today.

I've never really felt the need to grieve after my mmc but this morning my anal-retentive boss was yelling at me and I yelled back and I could feel the tears coming. After I got off the phone I just broke down and cried for a good 10-15 minutes. Just all the emotions and the TTC road blocks of the past six months (the m/c, the D&C, the slow-dropping HCG lead to cancer scare, the hysteroscopy, two failed cycles) came out and hit me hard today. I was fine for the most part for a CD1 yesterday - DH was home and was busy shopping all day so I didn't really had time to think about it. But today it was hard.

Ovulating way too early last cycle definitely meant not getting a chance to thicken the lining enough. AF was heavy yesterday at CD1 and almost down to nothing at all today at CD2.

Time to pick myself up and get prepared for the new cycle.

 

[savvysaver]

Hugs floridasian, I broke down about a week after my m/c. We were home from our vacation (yep, my m/c started the 2nd day of our vacation) and I just sat here and cried the entire day. I think we all have to grieve in our own time and way...sometimes when the days get rough I still cry either about my m/c or losing my grandparents this winter. Thinking of you.

 

[amygrrrango]

beaglemom, so sorry for the BFN. I know you said you weren't expecting much this cycle, but I'm sure you still would've loved to have had that Father's Day BFP for DH. I felt the same, even though by that time I knew I wasn't prego, there's always that little hope in the back of our minds. But you still have time, so you're not out! When are you expecting AF? Have you started your usual spotting?

Michelle, I'm so sorry... you sound SO disheartened, and I just know that feeling all too well, and it breaks my heart. I understand you needing a break. There were a few times in the last 18 months that I've felt the same, but with my age, I really knew I couldn't waste any cycles. Take the time that you need, enjoy your vacation, do a little rejuvenating if needed, and we'll be here ANY time you need to talk.

MissStacy, good luck this round w/ the higher dose of Femara! FXd that it's all you need to get your BFP! I agree w/ beaglemom that once you get closer to feeling like you may want to see an RE, schedule the appt ahead of time. We've seen some girls take a couple months to be able to get into one. You can always cancel it if you get your BFP before (and I'm thinking you will!).

Sarah, I hope AF is treating you OK. I'm sorry this last cycle didn't work out for you. Remind me, when is your RE appt? Is that coming up, or not until July?

FBG, your chart is looking good! Seems to have gone triphasic fast. I hope you'll be one of those girls that gets a BFP right after having an early m/c. I hear it happen ALL the time. I can't even tell you how many girls on one of my other threads said they got BFPs in the cycle following an early m/c. FXd!!!

Allison, how are you doing?? I'm thinking you may have needed a break from the forums for a while if you're stressed. Hope you're doing okay sweetie. I know everything is going to be fine. I know it's easy for me to say since i'm not the one in the middle of it, but I just know you and your little bebe are gonna be totally okay! Check in if you feel like it, and let us know how you're doing. Otherwise, just know we're here if you need to talk.

savvy, are you exactly 6 weeks today? How exciting! Remind me, when is your u/s?

Moni, any updates? Estrogen and cysts improving? How's your timeframe looking for the IVF? Are you still on track for Jul/Aug?

Haven't heard from SaraLou in a while... wondering if you're still lurking around! Hehe. Hope you're doing well.

Hi to Suzy, Amy, Jen, floridasian, and HPJ, and I'm sure I left someone off, but we have quite the group here now. So if I missed ya, it doesn't mean I don't love ya.

Hi there! Catching up with everyone's posts now, and so sorry to read about the BFNs, but I have so much hope for everyone for the next cycle!

Erin, hope AF arrives soon for you so that you, too, can move on!

I finally got my positive OPK last night, so the SMEP BD commenced. I have had quite a bit of ovulation pain the past few days, some nausea and diarrhea, and the chills, but I think it's probably just from the Clomid.

It's even a little painful to walk, but if this means that I am actually going to ovulate this cycle, I will take it!

Hope everyone is having a great day.

 

[beaglemom]

Floridasian, I always feel like the thing to make a bfn worse is having to follow it up with AF. So emotional all around. Hope you feel better in a day or 2.

 

[moni77]

Erin - I'm not losing hope for you...but I would be feeling the same way in your shoes.

AFM - cyst check today - the one on the right is gone and the one on the left shrunk from 41mm to 17mm - so on the right track. Doc thinks that I would be able to start the iVF cycle (the BCP) at my next day 3. I am going to wait one more cycle though - due to my vacation and I want one fully natural cycle without cysts before going through with the IVF - just in case!

Moni,
Do you have to do bcps every single time your doctor finds a cyst? Mine said as long as they are under 9 they are ok...mine were at 28, then last week at 13. I have another scan Thursday and I'm hoping they are gone. I'm hoping to have my first and only iui after I get to finally have a period. This birth control pill is making me nuts!

No - the BCP is just how they start the IVF cycle - 3 weeks of it. They actually were not happy with my labs so they had me take a trigger today to hopefully get rid of the last cyst. Good luck to you!

 

[moni77]

Sorry for all theBFNs - our time WILL come ladies!!

 

[beaglemom]

So I had my dr appt today. Basically I wanted her opinion on my game plan & to get a head start on the IVF process. It was a short appt but very much worth the co-pay. Basically my dr started out disappointed in me. She asked me if I was jumping ship on IUI already. And I said no, no, no. I still want to do 2 more if you think it is smart. But I want the IVF information. She looked relieved & seems very hopeful & optimistic that IUI is all I need. She also stressed how young we were (32 & 36). But my thing is we know we have an issue & we have been going at this thing hard for almost a year. So I am not just going to lay off because I am young. She said I have a high egg reserve which is great. But I did not respond to the femara & follistim the best way she had hoped. I only had 1 dominant follicle & no others even close. She was hoping for 2. So for this next round, I am going from 150 IU to 225 IU daily of the follistim CD 7-9. She hopes this will mean more dominant follicles. I was so happy to hear this. I was happy she wasn't just going to say oh no let's just do the same old thing. So this coming up cycle, we are pumping up the juices! Lol! I will also still be taking the femara. I also asked about back to back IUIs & she does not think they are beneficial. She thinks they are just a waste of money & that the trigger is all we need for good timing. We received pricing for IVF & we have a lot to consider. I am glad if needed we have 2 more months to think about all that. We also found out the IVF process would start with 2-3 weeks of bc pills which kind of sucks, but I know is standard. What is the harm in 3 more weeks, right?

So it was a good day. Me & my husband spent the rest of the day shopping & dream house hunting. We love the area near my dr & hope to be able to move there in a few years.

Sorry for the long post. I think I covered everything. I am feeling very hopeful for the next couple of cycles. I was also glad my husband was there. He tends to listen more when other people tell him things. He was overwhelmed & I think having the pricing on paper really hit him today on how serious & complicated it all is. He is reading the paperwork again right now...and has out the calculator...lol!

 

[Suzy18]

I'm sorry you feel bad Floridasian

 

[misaacs117]

So I had a temp spike today went from 98.14 to 98.49 but had a - test yesterday. I'm so confused because I am supposed to start tomorrow so I figured my temp would be going down not up. Guess I will see if af comes tomorrow.

 

[misaacs117]

Floridasian I hope you are feeling better

Erin I do feel that way. I just can't keep doing this! And everyone is like you are so young (26) it's going to happen. And then it doesn't over and over again. So frustrating and depressing.

 

[SarahLou372]

Im nervous and on edge right now....

CD 15 and 16 I had a little amount of EWCM. So im wondering if metformin is working. I hate having PCOS and not know if I am ovulating

CD 18 today and still beding too..