Just thought i'd explain my journey & say hello!

[tag74]

I am hoping my doctor is wrong. How could I just have a baby 2 years ago (and get pregnant on the 1 month TTC) and all my eggs are depleted in that time? I have a specialist appt at the end of April. I am def getting a second opinion.

I think regulated periods is a FANTASTIC thing. Have you considered taking chinese herbs? I found a great site: https://www.radiantwonder.com

FX this is your cycle!!

 

[fluffet521]

Louisa, yay for being back to your 28-day cycles!!! Hopefully this will be your month, girlfriend! How are Cody and Sky doing? Are they getting along well? And how about your horses? Especially Saskia, since she was having trouble with her health there for a while.

And Tara, I'm glad to hear that you are giving TTC another 6 months. I couldn't agree with you more about how you just had a baby 2 years ago, how could your egg supply deplete that quickly? It doesn't seem possible.

AFM, we finally decided on a name for the Little Monkey! Here's the back story: Shaun's middle name is Craig, which is his dad's first name. I've always thought that if we had a son one day, it would be cool to start a tradition and pass Shaun's first name down as our son's middle name. However, we were having trouble coming up with a first name that sounded good with Shaun as a middle name. We narrowed it down to Carson Shaun and Connor David (my dad's name is David). Connor was my absolute favorite, but as soon as Shaun realized his initials would be CDC, he nixed it. (Louisa, CDC is the acronym for "Centers for Disease Control" in the US.) Those 2 names have been our finalists for a couple of weeks now, and then this morning Shaun texted me "What do you say we just do this thing and decide on Connor Shaun Colonna!" I seriously almost started crying, I was so happy! Y'all are the first people I've told! So Little Monkey can now be referred to as Connor. I'm absolutely thrilled!!!

 

[fluffet521]

Also, Louisa, you asked for a bump pic a while back and I just never got around to it. Here's my most recent pic, 24 weeks!

 

[LoolaXx]

Tara I'm very glad you're waiting another 6 months and not calling it a day so soon. I'd almost put money on the fact it will happen before those 6 months are over, because as you guys said, I just don't see how your fertility can just deteriorate so quickly. I doesn't seem possible and as I said before I'm still hopeful

Kim... YAY!!!!! Connor is a lovely name, and I'm soooo glad you settled on one you both like! That has made my day and your bump is amazing, you look very pregnant I can't wait to see what Connor looks like, and I love the fact we're the first people you've told (SSM's and all that, hehe)

A friend at work told our home manager she's pregnant yesterday. I'm happy for her but it makes me wonder what I'm doing wrong. She started trying last month, smokes like a chimney and drinks a ridiculous amount - so in a way I resent her for it! It doesn't seem fair and I don't know why it is taking so long but I know my time will come I guess patience is the key in this game..

Saying that, I wonder how jodie is, and kika. I really hope she has looked into her condition more at a fertility clinic.. I really loved her I would be so so so happy if she came back.

As for my cycles, I'm happy! I worked out in the end it was something like 29 days my last cycle was, so I don't know if it was just coincidence or what, but I may have more of a chance now atleast!

Thanks for asking about my girlies kim. Saskia is doing really good and just had her follow up vet visit yesterday after her surgery and she was really pleased with her progress and recovery! My little fighter. The baby foal (Ellie) is now completely weaned from mum (my amber) so they're now all happy! Cody and Skye are really good too, she is copying him with the toilet training etc so it has been really easy actually and she can start being walked at the weekend so I can't wait!

I've been off ill from work the past 2 days. I have pharyngitis which HURTS, I was nearly to the point of tears the other night. I had furious period pain, along with the throat pain (so red it looked like it was bleeding!) and a horrible cold to go with it. I just felt like death but I'm going back tomorrow since it's the last day before Good Friday and then we have Monday off too, so a nice 4 day weekend! I need it.

Oh some more news ... I'm handing in my notice at work tomorrow. Now I have got all my qualifications for nursing and care, I'm going for a job change for the time being. I want something with a little less hours because I think tiredness and stress is a huge factor as to why I haven't fallen pregnant yet. I have been offered an 8-4 reception job in a vet surgery which is based inside a huge pet store so I'm bound to meet a lot of little puppies which is right up my street! I will 100% go back to nursing, I haven't put all this work in for nothing but I had a rough idea that once I had qualified, I would take a break for a while and I'm happy with that choice. I'm kind of excited for a job change that doesn't involve working nights, since I've never really done anything other than elderly people (I love them to pieces don't get me wrong) plus it's Monday to Friday and I've never had the luxury of weekends off work, I cant wait! 💗

Kim has there been any news on a house yet? Have you managed to sell yours?

Shara I hope you and romeo are coping, you're both still in all of our thoughts sweetie, and your angel(s)

 

[fluffet521]

I'm so glad to see such a chatty reply from you, Louisa!!! I love hearing all of your updates! I am not able to write back in full today, but I will tomorrow!

 

[fluffet521]

Shara I hope you and romeo are coping, you're both still in all of our thoughts sweetie, and your angel(s)

I couldn't agree more. Shara - you, Romeo and your precious angel(s) are on my mind and in my prayers daily. I know how tough things are right now, but I also know what a strong woman of faith you are and that you WILL get through this. Love you tons, sweet lady.

 

[tag74]

And... NO hb... I'm crushed... Good luck and fingers crossed to all of you

I don't know how I missed this. I assumed she was taking a break. This is terrible.

I am so sad for our girls!

Kika and Shara, hugging you from afar.

 

[tag74]

Kim, your photo is amazing and I love the name Connor!! How awesome! You're almost on the home stretch!!

Louisa! I love your job change...you were made to be with animals I swear.

And darling, you are doing nothing wrong...you will be a mama soon! Who knows why our bodies deliver when they want to but I have high hope.

 

[fluffet521]

Girls, I'm sorry I've been absent. Work has been getting the best of me. Luckily, Shaun and I went on our "babymoon" over the weekend and it was fabulous! I came back to work today refreshed and ready to get into gear!

How are you ladies? I can't remember if I told y'all, but I didn't get my supervisor's old job. And I'm actually OK with that. It would have been too stressful with little Connor on the way! I did apply for another one, though (my "dream job", actually) and word is I've been recommended and approved for the position! The director (the guy I'd be working for) hasn't officially offered me the position, but hopefully soon. I'll let you know!

What did you guys do for Easter? I'm happy to report that Shaun and I were on the beach soaking up some rays! It was so nice to get away.

Sending lots of love and hugs to all of you.

 

[fluffet521]

Louisa, I hope you're feeling better and your pharyngitis is all gone! How are you? How did it go when you handed in your notice at work? When do you start the new job, if you haven't already? How is Jess doing?

Tara, how are things with you, honey?

Shara, I think of you daily and hope you and Romeo are doing OK, all things considered. Love you, girly.

I hope everything is OK with Jodie and her baby girl! And that Kika is OK, too.

We close on our new house this Friday! We still haven't been able to sell our current house, so we decreased the price some. Hopefully that will help. I start my new job on May 1st, I can hardly wait! I'm so excited to be in a less stressful position!

 

[tag74]

to you girls!

Kim congrats on the house?

Louisa, what's your update mama?

 

[LoolaXx]

Yay congrats kim that's good news!!!

Hey tara- my update isn't great. For some reason last night some mood came across me and I deleted every fertility app off my phone, my FF and Ovia etc etc.. I guess I got bored of ttc and I couldn't even tell you what cycle day I am today. I don't think I'm cut out for it anymore so although last cycle I didn't temp or anything, this cycle I genuinely just don't even know ANYTHING the only indicator I'd have is my CM but I don't get much EWCM anyway. I don't want to say I'm not bothered about having a baby anymore because I am but I'm not so desperate because it has taken a while so far, so I feel like Ive got over the hurt that it can cause which has left me feeling like this .. Which kinda sucks but I just feel like I've got too much going on in my life right now to stress over ttc. I want a baby, but I don't want the TTC part! I got bored of waiting

Oh and my job is going great thanks I'm loving it!! And I'm loving working reasonable hours and having weekends to myself. Kim I'm excited for you to start your new job too- it's always like a mini fresh start.

Xx

 

[LoolaXx]

I can't believe us 3 are pretty much the only 3 active ones left on this thread. Don't get me wrong I 100% understand kikas and shara's reasons for not wanting to read things on here - but Jodie will always confuse me, I guess she won't come back for good now as it has been ages but I just hope she's alright!

 

[fluffet521]

Louisa! I hate to hear you're over TTC, so to speak, but it's probably for the best. Remember me telling you my best friend got pregnant as soon as they "gave up" trying? The stress of it had gotten to her so much that she wasn't able to conceive until after she stopped stressing about it. I'm glad to hear you're loving your new job, though! Please give Amber, Ellie, Saskia, Cody, and Sky hugs and kisses for me! And tell Jess I'm thinking of her. Is she doing OK? How are the twins? And Sofia?

Tara, I'm so excited for your Disney trip! You must share pics when you come back! I don't use your name on your journal because I've noticed no one else does. Anyway, I thought your last post was great news and can't wait to hear about your results with the specialist.

Louisa, I know what you mean about Jodie, but I'm sure she'll come around again eventually. I hope all is well with her, too, though. I think about all of you, including our MIA girls, every day. I miss how chatty the thread used to be, but I also understand everyone has lives outside of BnB. Things get hectic and we just aren't able to get on as often as we would like.

Sending lots of love to all my SSMs!

 

[Kika7]

My dear friends I've been thinking of you all the while and although I haven't been around here you were always in my thoughts and prayers.

I really don't want to look back and think/remind myself of what it was or what I missed or lost and I'm ready to start fresh.

I had hard time finding the thread, I expected it to be top page (like it always been) but had to scroll down and look for it. Hope you girls didn't move to another thread or something ...

Hope everyone's doing great, any more bfp s?

AFM I just got my first cycle. We won't be trying as we got an appointment to see a fertility specialist in 2 weeks time, who'd supposedly tell us how to "proceed". However, I did contact my previous specialist and he said that the "new RE" isn't addressing my problem but simply preparing us for IVF.

So since I'm having trouble staying not getting pregnant why the heck would I want an IVF?! I'm guessing after the strategy appointment in 2 weeks time I'd be flying back to my previous specialist unless the new one decided to do something about my problem.

Tara, Shara, Lou Lou, Jodie, Jess, Kim --> sending lots of love your way xoxo


Shoot, seems I've lost my flow, ive gotten so rusty Anywho, hope you haven't abandoned me and I'm sorry I abandoned you, it wasn't reallh abandon, I just needed a little break, hope you forgive me

 

[fluffet521]

Kika!!! It's so wonderful to hear from you, sweet friend! You remained in our thoughts and prayers, too, my dear. You sound very positive, especially considering all you've been through - I'm so proud of you for that! I won't go on, as I know you said you want to start fresh, but just know that you were on our hearts and minds the whole time!

We haven't moved to a new thread. Unfortunately, this thread has just gone very quiet. You know how stressful TTC is, and I think our TTC SSMs really just needed a break, too. They're not gone completely, I don't think, but none of us have been as active as we used to be. Me, Louisa, and Tara are the only ones who still post every so often. Just to update you on everyone else (and I hope they don't mind me doing so!), Jodie went quiet around the same time you took your break. She and her hubby were in the process of moving in with her parents, and baby girl was doing fine. It sincerely hurts my heart to tell you the next part - Shara lost her baby angel about a month ago and needed to take her own break, which I know you understand. Jess has been quiet, but I'm not sure why. Hopefully Louisa can update us next time she gets on. And of course, I won't speak for Louisa or Tara since they still get on every so often. I'll let them fill you in.

AFM, we have chosen the name Connor Shaun for our Lil' Monkey. I just had my obstetrician appointment Tuesday, and he was doing well. We are now the proud owners of a new home as of last Friday, and will move in May 2nd. Also, I got the promotion I applied for at work, and start my new position May 1st. Last but not least, my first baby shower is this Saturday, and I can hardly wait!

It really is so good to hear from you! I'm so so SO glad to see you back on the thread! Please keep us up to date on your cycle and specialist appointment, etc. (if you want to, of course). Love you! And no need to apologize, honey, you needed a break and that is completely understandable. We know you didn't abandon us, and also knew you'd come back to us when you were ready.

 

[LoolaXx]

Kikaaaaa I know I just replied to your message but I'll write here too! As kim said, herself tara and I are the only ones who post nowadays really! But the other ladies have their reasons which are respected 100% over here! damn.. It is still so painful to read about poor Shara.

I'm so glad to hear from you though! sorry kim, I know you've asked about jess a few times and I have always forgotten to mention her!!! She's fine and the girls are doing FAB! She's chossn Kayla and Lilia. She lost the password for her BnB account and she rarely had the time to come on before so I think she just hasn't got round to making another since she knows we rarely post anymore but she is huge and its getting closer for you both

As I said in the PM Kika and as I've told kim before, I just lost the motivation to proceed with ttc.. So my apps and thermometer etc have been chucked out and I don't really know where we stand with it. We just don't feel it as much anymore so we're gonna let it happen hoepfully without trying. We are also going on holiday in 40 days for 2 weeks so I don't want it to happen between now and then- I would love to go on holiday with a bump to get cute pictures on the beach but since I wouldn't be anywhere near showing if it happened anytime now, all I'd be is feeling sick! And that would ruin our holiday that cost a bomb and we have saved hard for so I guess we will get back into it again after we're back in June!

Love you all and I promise to get on more. Xxx

 

[Kika7]

Kim and Lou Lou, so nice to hear from you girls.

First of all, I cried when I read about Shara, I really don't like it and I don't know why it's happened, how is it even possible

Oh :/ I think I'll just go to bed now and reply to the rest of the news tomorrow...Shara's lost brought back memories and emotions I'm trying to put behind. And anger...why does it keep happening? If one loss was not enough? Ugh :/

 

[Kika7]

Thank you my dear Lou lou for the message, I replied and now I'm back here to reply to Kimmy boo.

Kim, I'm so happy for your job and house and our peanut is now Connor Shaun awe I love it

AFM, all the test results from the fertility centre came negative (last two actually came last night after I checked in here) so we got no genetic or chromosome abnormalities and the doctor doesn't know how to deal with my condition, he said it's untreatable and the available treatment is so controversial that he wasn't interested and didn't know the specifics.

I've looked into fertility specialists prescribing the treatment in London and may have to go back to the UK to try, or use a surrogate. I've an appointmrnt with the doc next Friday and there'll be a financial adviser there too to discuss insurance coverage and options. So I'll know more next Friday...

It's been 3 months since I applied for visa but still nothing cause I failed my immigration medical examination--> they wanted to vaccinate me against stuff but I said NO! And that put a hold on my application but hopefully it'd be resolved soon in case I need to go to the UK for treatment...

We are going camping on the Cape next weekend so looking forward to it.

Tara, where are you?

Hugs

 

[Kika7]

Not sure if anyone checks in here any more but here's my update:

The recurrent miscarriage specialist of a prestigious Boston fertility clinic I was referred to knows nothing of and wants to have nothing with my "controversial" immune problem and suggested we keep trying until it "sticks*.

If I wanted to see a specialist about my problem, there's only a couple in the country, one in NY city and one somewhere in CA, so he wrote down the name of the NY doctor on a sticky note for me to research and try schedule an appointment...

Only 2 doctors in the whole country...I couldn't be more disappointed :/

But I'll see if I could get an appointment and start new blood work and the tests...I wish I hadn't wasted time with Boston doctors and had gone straight to the NY one but the Boston idiot assured me he'll find and treat the reason for my miscarriages and that he knew of NK cells. "Knew" my ass, what a liar, grrr :/

Hope everyone's doing well.

Kisses and hugs