Sevilla: It's nice that you have over a month at home yet. I'm sure the schedule will get easier. I haven't tried to put Zoela on a schedule yet. I think it would be impossible at this point. She is up 3-3 1/2 hours around the clock. I'm lucky though as Chloe sleeps 8-10 hours at night and has a cat nap during the day. I'm sleep deprived but I find Zoela a lot easier because Chloe was hard.
When I was pg with Chloe, I felt the hardest part would be sleep deprivation. But, that was in fact one of the easiest. And she fed every 2 hours and you had to set an alarm. The fact that Zoela is the alarm clock, helps.
As for calmer this time. Its hard for me to compare. But, I'm definitley so... and not at the same time. I feel more confident with parenting and the usual routine things. But, these constipation issues with Zoela have me freaking out. (I see myself two years ago with Chloe, taking her to meet with the craniofacial clinic, and being told she had to have emergency surgery.) That day was a nightmare... I cried non stop, they sent me to see a counsler and had the nerve to question me about PP depression.
I wonder how any mother is supposed to feel. I could vent all day about it. But, if you are told things are fine and then out of the blue you are told that your daughters upper airway is being obstructed. Thats a bit scary.
Luckily though, Zoela has been a whole different experience. Pregnancy and all. For a minute there when her sugars took longer to regulate. And they mentioned we may need children's. I had the dreaded feeling that I wasn't meant for a healthy baby.
Ranting, did I ever? Oh, well... I usually can't shut up.