The nurse on base is calling the OBs in the area and trying to get someone to pick me up while we wait for the referral.
The bleeding seems to have stopped....but I don't want to get overly excited because it usually starts and stops a few times [during my past losses] before it turns on full flow.
I'm just so distraught. I don't want to go to the ER, it's such a waste of time on both sides....this isn't life threatening and I don't want to clog up their waiting room with something I should be working with my OB or my GP for....plus, there's really nothing they can do...other than bloods, scan and threatened miscarriage diagnosis
Hopefully the nurse can get me in with a clinic today....I'd really like some reassurance on this. I don't want to believe that this pregnancy isn't going to take...I've never had tests so dark or symptoms so strong before and I had every reason to believe that this was going to be our take home baby, after all of our struggles.
I'm trying to stay optimistic...and I did just wipe and there was nothing. The cramping has somewhat subsided...I can still feel them, but they aren't as strong as they were last night. Maybe the progesterone did it? I don't know...maybe I just overdid it by cleaning all the chicken coops yesterday in the heat and not drinking enough water. I'm sure there are lots of reasonable explanations for this, I just can't seem to wrap my head around anything positive at the moment.
Jenafyr4, thank you hun. I'm sorry if I came off snappish. It's just so hard for me to rationalize an ER visit anymore...maybe if this was my first or second pregnancy I would have already been in the ER, but after 12 losses, I just can't make myself see the point.